Forever A Sone Who Love Soshi

Forever A Sone Who Love Soshi

Saturday, December 25, 2010

weird weird.

It was on the 23rd when i woke to go for my driving lesson.
Yes,my driving lesson indeed... just going for the course... and yes even at the age of 20 already...so? XD
woke up in the morning i came to realize both my hands were black...no no...grey-ish?
You know like those dead corpse color? yeah.thats how my hand look like.
So then.off to the course...
Journey back and forth to the place makes me feel like puking...and im kind of sleepy i guess..
So then,i took an MC for the next day since i was really not feeling well..
vomiting nothing since i didnt have any meals. :/ Sucks you know.
the feeling of your throat burning.
But i guess everything work its on way,since i did feel a little much better?
It was during the night time where i was talking to one of my...friend? XD on the internet..
during half way...i guess i must've fainted because all i know is that the next day i woke up is almost 12pm on bed.
What happened was that u fainted on my desk and dad found me all white and cold.
:x
receiving an injection was better i guess..
It woke me up after that..had the second one and it was all better..
ask my sister do i look as if im dead,she said "YES..and i will take all your Tiffany collection and lappy if its for real"
=-= wtf. XD
C'mon even the doctors got no idea what is happening to me @.@
So what do i do?
Life moves on.

Christmas night is where i wanted to just sleep as early as i can..
But then decide to spend it with some of my old friends since they have been asking a month before it happens..
And what happen? 5glass of Vodka Absolute..
*piungggggg* annyeong right away..
Im not going to drink anymore... :| i mean im not going to drink so much the next time.
You've asked me questions and wanted me to answer honestly...and i did.
But what happen? you cried and said i lie??
If this wasnt the answer you are looking or hoping for,then dont ask.
:/

im damn tired right now.

Monday, December 20, 2010

YoonYoung








And yes.... this is my baby rabbit,YoonYoung..
Which has moved on..in heaven...
R.I.P

What happened was the day i saw a rabbit in Midvalley petshop and drag Junyi along to have a look at the rabbit...(not yoonyoung)
Indeed we cant take our eyes off those cute baby rabbits...
Feeling eager to get one.
As we plan to get one... we had aim for the little brown rabbit we saw in MV.
But as for me,i have myself 3 dogs already...
And junyi was thinking of a way to keep it as it will be his first pet..
We decide not to buy it... for the sake we didnt know where and how we can keep it.
But soon,both of us cant resist the cuteness of a rabbit and decide to buy it together..sadly,the brown rabbit was gone...and we are both very very disappointed indeed when we came to know about the news to this.
But God was on our side.... I met this rabbit breeder who breeds super small mini rabbit.
I remember how i find her through the internet...
How i found out she was a mini rabbit..
How fluffy her fur was..
I also remember the time i keep calling the owner making sure she reserve the rabbit to me...and only me.

The day before YoonYoung arrive,even few nights before we have here...
Me & Junyi cant stop thinking of the names for the little rabbit...
Being a SONE also knows as SNSD's big fans! We decide to find a name that is related to SNSD :DD
from Sone to Sowon to Soshi to Mushroom etc etc etc.
But in the end...we came up with the name of... YoonYoung...
why YoonYoung? That is because im a big fan of Tiffany Hwang Mi Young while he is a big fan of Yoona!
So together the name combine we have~~ Yoonyoung...

I remember the day when she arrive to me...
her in the little box...
staying in one corner...she looks like a small cotton ball..
Her being in my hands...not even a size bigger than my palm...yes indeed...she is very small and furry..her fur was being so fluffy..
staying still in my hands... on my lap...
BEING CUTE is what YoonYoung good at.
I cant resist the cuteness of her and beg my dad to let me bring it home for at least a few days... BEG,yes...
who can resist those sad eyes? :p
I remember the night she was in my home...dominate the couch as if she was in my house from a long time ago...
Whenever i hold the food box,she would hop to my side and had both her front paws on my hand,cant resist her cuteness.
I remember how Junyi and went and buy the bag for Yoonyoung...hand carry bag to travel around...snacks..feed her through syringe because she wasnt drinking. her travelling with us from Leisure Mall to Time Square..
and her being in the snooker center with us..

Both my parents doesnt wants anymore pet...but in the end..
they have to give in...NO ONE CAN RESIST THE CUTENESS of YoonYoung. even Junyi's parents! and family members.
Carrying her into my room...letting her running around my bed..
Is the moments i cant stop thinking now..
Im sad of course,but thinking of the past of being her made me smile..
She's cute...really cute...
Yoonyoung was different than other rabbit...She's intelligent..
She respond to you when you call for her name...
She loves to snuggle into the pillows and sleep there quietly...
She can even jump up really high just to come out from the box...
And what is her favorite past time? SLEEPING.
If you put her lying down on her back...and touch her forehead...patting her gently.
She will fall asleep within minutes.

Then it was Junyi's turn to care for her...
I was really happy indeed when Junyi's family accepted YoonYoung in...
they too was drawn into yoonyoung charms.
Junyi's mum was even so sweet to buy another rabbit for yoonyoung to play with..

On the fatal day of 20th December 2010.
Is the day where YoonYoung has to leave us... leave the ones who love her most.
We cant bear the pain.. but life still moves on...
How i wish at least i could've play with her again..
How i wish she was in my hands again...
How i miss having my fingers run through her fluffy body..
But all this wont happen right?
it can never happen...i cant even see her anymore...even for the last time...

My parents was indeed sad... when they hear the news..
but we cant do anything anymore.. She's gone.
all thats left for us are the memories we had with her...
i admit... when i think of her...tears fill up in my eyes..
But i force myself to listen to SNSD's songs... to channel my mind..
i miss her very much indeed..
but God loves her more...
and now me and junyi knows...she is in heaven...looking at us from above.


i miss you,yoonyoung.
i love you till the end...although you are no longer here...but i will always love you till the end...
You are forever my favorite lovable rabbit...miss you.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

within my limits

I know is great when someone compliment how good you are at accompanying people.
But there are times,you need to let me rest too,my dear...omgawd.
Im having sleepless nights already...
Is not that im complaining but there are times..
When you seriously have to let me have some moment of my own.
If i continue this... i think my life would be shorten.. :x

Uhhhhh~
I miss tiffany hwang a lot though.
Not seeing her performing for weeks,can seriously kill me from inside!
Where's the beautiful eye smile of hers.. i miss that,seriously.
Music Bank is a serious shit...
This week Music Bank,there are rumors that some fans spotted tiffany rehearsing...
But of course,is just rumors...
Was happy when i heard that but came to know she wasnt performing when its live...
When SNSD is performing...they have this background picture of them during Run Devil Run.
and i came to realize there is only 8 pictures!
8!! WHY? There is no tiff's picture,thats the why!!!
PLease!
Even if she isnt performing or what so ever,her picture should be there too.
People who doesnt think with their brain only think is not necessary to have it.
Come on,she's still a part of SNSD
And snsd will never be complete without tiffany.
And yes,im pretty pissed off at what MB did..
but could this be a reason of WHY tiffany didnt perform?
Despite about the rumors... but not having her pictures on the display is a very BIG NO NO to me... you cant do that to tiffany hwang!
Talk to my fist if you think is right to do so :|
I hope this wont make her to sad though...
i miss you Ms.Hwang... come back soon alright?
^^
all sones miss you so much!

Friday, December 17, 2010

unforgettable?

Lying...
Is something perhaps you should think twice before doing so....
Because,no matter how much you try to hide one thing..
In the end,it will be exposed too..
So,to my conclusion is that...you better not lies.
Someone used to tell me,if you are lying for their own good..perhaps they can accept it.
But face it,no can take it..
No one can accept lies..no one..including yourself..

ooo : cant believe i have trusted you all this while!
xxx : i dont mean to lies to you,if i have a choice,i wouldnt have!
ooo : everyone has their own choice,and you has made one to lies to me.
xxx : sorry.
ooo : do you think one sorry is all that matters?? do you know how deeply hurt i am??
xxx : (speechless)
ooo : nothing to say?good,im about to walk out from your life now...
xxx : wait! look...im very sorry...im stupid for doing something that i know i would
regret!but im even more stupid to do something that would hurt you.
Im a human too,i make mistakes that i dont want to. I dont know what makes me
do that,okay...sorry.
ooo : do you think your sorry can pick up the shatter heart???
xxx : No,this is why i need another chance...give me at least another chance...
another chance to lies to myself that i can have another chance to love you
again,another chance to be the one for you...i know what i say now...you may
not believe,you can deny that you have love me before..but you can never deny
that you are happy when you are with me~ you can say you regret of trusting me
but can you say that you regret of being with me? I lied and its wrong!
is so wrong! so let me make it up to you... Give me some time...
Give me some time so you can gain some trust from me again. I dont need you to
love me back,but what i need is to make it up to you... so when people asked
you,that who will you choose if you have choice...you would choose me..
because im the one who can really put a smile on your face....
Im lost when i hear you saying you are about to leave me... lead me to the
right path again..give me a chance to do the right thing..
Sorry is just a word,let action shows you how sorry i am to you.

- its all in the past isnt it.. i cant forget this day either.. -

- is the day i thought is over for me.. the day i was afraid to lose you.. -

- but we both has now having our own life..because..thats all it matters to me now -

...sorry...

All Love Goes This Way (mostly)

Indeed is true that when you are in a relationship and when its over..
You dont seem to manage to forget some of the memorable ones.
Right?
So,its not wrong for me to remember some of it...
and is nothing surprising if i do still remember some.

When you're in a relationship..
This is all you can think of.

- I CANT LEAVE WITHOUT YOU.
- I NEED YOU EVERYDAY IN MY LIFE.
- WHAT WOULD MY LIFE BE WITHOUT YOU.
- I RATHER DIE IF YOU BREAK UP WITH ME.
- YOU ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE.
- WHAT WILL BE IF I DONT HAVE YOU BY MY SIDE.
- THERE IS NO POINT OF LIVING WITHOUT YOU.
- YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MADE MY HEART STILL PUMPING.
- I WILL LOVE NO ONE ELSE BUT YOU.
- I CAN NEVER LOVE ANYONE ELSE OTHER THAN YOU.
- IM DEVOTED TO YOU.
- I WILL NEVER LIES TO YOU.
- HOW CAN I CHEAT ON YOU.
- WE WILL BE FOREVER.
- I LOVE YOU FOREVER.
- NOTHING CAN CHANGE MY LOVE TO YOU.
- I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPENED THE FUTURE.
- I CANT STOP LOVING YOU.
- NO MATTER WHAT YOU DID WRONG I CAN ALWAYS FORGIVE YOU.
- I NEED YOUR HUGS AND KISSES EVERYDAY.
- I JUST WANT YOU TO HOLD MY HAND AND NO ONE ELSE.
- I WONT LOOK AT ANYONE EXCEPT YOU.
- I WONT BE SWEET TO ANYONE ELSE EXCEPT YOU.
- YOU ARE MY ONE AND ONLY.
- MY HEART HAS ONLY GOT YOU.
- WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU.

Lol,any many more of course...
And with that,your mind will tells you automatically that you are in a very serious relationship..
Now,how many of you have encounter this before?
How many of you has eventually said this or heard from someone before?
I bet 99.99% of you surely does.
But what happens after everything was over?
Life still moves on right...
thats when things like this becomes memories...

I still see you living when we break (;
Because,those are just words...JUST WORDS you said when you are in love..
if you are mature and has a brain,you will know is time to move on.
(im not hinting anyone,just saying what is on my mind)
What makes you think it was really worth it to die for someone who you probably just know for not long...dying for them is worth it?
what about your parents who had care for you ever since the day you were only an infant?
LIFE GOES ON

Is all in your mind...
Your heart and mind dont always work out together...
Your heart might say to you,DONT LET GO,IS NOT WORTH IT
while your brain might say to you, IS TIME TO MOVE ON
Which makes you think very hard on you rather to let go...or to hang on it.
But you can trust me here for one thing...
Life still goes on and you can do it..
All you have to do is give yourself some time and push yourself to do what is suppose to be done.. (not by commit suicide =-=)

Why is there past?
Because is the past that makes what today is...
Without the past...there is no today...without today...there is no future.
Think about it...was it worth to do something stupid because you think your life is OVER just because you have failed in a relationship?
You'll never meet you MR or MRS RIGHT if you are always going for the wrong path.

The sweetest thing your partner can ever say to you when you are in a relationship.
Is also meant,the harsher words they can say to you when they dont love you anymore.
Always remember...when there is no trust in a relationship.
There is no point of continuing...
Chances? there will always be a limit in everyone's heart.
There will always be boundaries too you know.
If you cross over too much... BOOM... is bye bye to you.
This is why you must always be thankful and try not to do any big mistakes that could lead you hurting your love ones.
And being late and regret doesnt do any help if you keep on repeating it.

Dont want to lose your love ones then hold on to them tightly..
In anway,what matters most is no matter what happen...

BE STRONG

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Day BY Day

I need to get one thing straight...
If you treat me good and i will treat you even better...that's just typical of me.
Well,i do care about people i care deeply...sayang them very much indeed...
and this might sometimes lead to misunderstanding in the terms of the way i was treating them...
So,treating someone good was bad?
Or there some people who are not suppose to be treated well just because they might think wrongly of me?
:/ what do you want me to do......



So,yes..this is what i bought yesterday to have my hair color...
Look,i know nothing about this product.
The sales girl told me all you have to do is to put the products on as if you are washing your hair and leave it on for 30minutes....
:O serious? jinja?
bought it at the price of RM37.90 after discount...
*finger crossed*
and yeah....there is a result after all :DD
nyahahahahaha! but OMG the product stinks like hell...and somehow it burn my eyes
==" but it was all worth it.
^^

Oh yeah! went to GALACTIC LASER GUN game in MIDVALLEY (3rd floor)
what is my opinion of the game?
DAMN FUN! is really very very nice...
1st round was kind of nervous though but when it was the 2nd round...things are way more fun...
But the fun part was that i actually went with my manager's kids :DD
They are cute. oh well,bottom line...fun is the WORD.
^^

So,yes...went to my friend's house...
was planning to chit chat but in the end...i help her mum out by washing some of her clothes XD

Is it really wrong to care for others?

Saturday, December 11, 2010

i remember everything doesnt means what you are thinking,silly.

Of course i remember what you said...even till now...
give me a reason i should forget it...
because we have broken up 3 years ago? no way.
there are things that i have cherish until now.. but things are never the same again
it will never be the same again.

I remember how your toes will turn blue-black when it starts raining and you get too cold..
I remember how you need Japanese tea when you have migraine,same like me.

Remember when you told me you were upset if you are calling me and my found out i was on the line with someone else..and because of that you couldnt get to me..
that's when i started,to cut off the calls whenever you call,i make to answer your call 1st..because you are more important..
but do you even remember,when that happens to me?but i remain quiet.
There are things i choose to remain silent is because i cherish you at the moment.
and cant bear to argue with you.so i choose to ignore and let it be.
But is also because of this,you think you are always right...and im making so much mistakes,when in reality,you and i both know what is really happening.

Because of this few days,im stress out,not to say,about my job....
i dont find you annoying...but i find it really sad to see you acting this way.

Are sure being with me is what you really want??
ARE YOU SURE?
remember the day we end our relation?what you have said to me?
think of that reason and think again on what you are saying now....
Be mature...think wisely.
and...i do not have the old feelings at all,anymore...sorry

i really cant answer your call anymore...you make me more sad by hearing you sobbing through the phone...
you acting this way wont solve anything you know

:DD

I was emo few hours ago and now im happy back.
As i was reading someone's blog,a lady walk into my shop looking at the products.
Immediately i can recognize her because i remember serving her in the beauty fair few hours ago,but i guess she dont..
She walk in and i start to re-talk about our products to her..
(not letting my mood making it bad) i smile to her constantly.
She start telling me what she bought in the FAIR. and even show me.
Sharing how happy she is when she bought those stuff at a fair price.
Thats when i begin to feel happy as i can see how happy she was.
Sharing and talking.
Making my heart from *cold* turns back to *warm* (;
She's a darling,seriously..
The next thing before i knew..she was taking out a big box of
BITTER GOURD TEA from her bag. and hand it to me,of course i say thanks but decline it

"i love sharing my happiness,dont worry,this is cheap...i give it to you...i dont know if its nice or not,but you can have it"

-no,thanks-

"are you sure?dont be shy..its okay,i can buy another one for myself..since you are so sweet and nice,i want to share this with you"

-awwww,thank you,aunty...but i dont want *shy* thank you so much but you can keep it for yourself and let me know if its nice or not,anyway,bitter gourd is very good for body-

"you sure ah? okok,i dont want to force you.dont need to be shy.im just very happy today"

-you know what,you have just made my day,because seeing you happy,makes me happy too aunty-

And she keeps smiling to me...she even said to see if we have fate tomorrow by bumping into one another tomorrow..if she's going to the FAIR again.
hahaha,she's so cute.
another little girl came into my shop and talk to me...
the way she talk was way too cute to be true!
^^ another smile on my face

God does have his own way to make on person happy :DD
thank you God <3<3

Stephanie Tiffany Hwang Mi Young

Yeah~
I miss this one person a lot lately.







Yes,i think if you're a Sone...
You should know why she isnt performing lately...
And if you dont,let me tell you why...She has injured herself..
and is taking a rest to get recover soon.
She was to put on hold of all her event for 4weeks but she indeed as i know,very determine to cute the 4weeks to only 2weeks.
But then of course,each and sone wants her to recover 101%
I myself,wouldnt want this to happen again in the future,i cant bear to watch this happen to her ever again :(

I miss seeing her performing HOOT with SNSD
things wasnt the same without her.
I used to look forward for every performance...for her eye smile and wink.
And now,im waiting for her to come back strong! and i know she will <3
So,yes...i have pimp my crib...full of her pictures...
so what do i see 1st thing when i wake up,tiffany hwang of course.
XD
im not obsess but right now,i really miss seeing her!
this is what i do when i wake up.
Look at her pictures and said
"i hope to see you in a news in fb today..you coming back,deal? *wink* hwaiting!"

hahaha,i know,crazy. XD

God open my eyes

Recently,things had happened in a way i didnt think it would.
Now i truly realize who is my real friend and those that are not.

i want to share some stuff,things that make me wonder.
i have this colleague who is at the age of 26 and a mother of two.
Now,im sure you'll be thinking this person must have a mature thinking.right?
well,so do i...but we are all WRONG.she's not! and what was even worse.
she acts worse than my 3 dogs at home.

This person not only is she two faced...but she too.
love to back stab and change story infront of me and to my lady boss.
She misuse my lady boss name by making us to do stuff and said it was my managers command..
Things happened that make me feel really angry towards her...
the anger of mine wanting to shred her into pieces.. :/
or slap her in the face.
please,use your brain and think...if you have one.
you're 26 and you should watch out for what you are doing now
stop messing with the wrong person!
You have already burst my bubbles...and im not going to let you go off just like that
I swear...what you have did to me...im going to make you suffer 10times of how you made me.
chances and chances are given to you but you never change...
never ever mess with me,im serious.
i respect you because you are OLDer than me.
but then,what you did,make me realize you dont even deserve the respect im giving to my dog.
You make me look down on you even more,dont blame me for cursing you.
because.

YOU DESERVE IT

Thursday, December 9, 2010

here you go,i do remember..because..this is the past

- As You Wish -
Whoever who wakes up first,text to the other one...
who might be still in sleeping mode...
Texting and miss calls and phone calls throughout the entire day...
Or you when you have your assignment and having me to text you as if i was accompanying you while burning midnight oil...even till late hours...
Trying all the best to sleep at the same time together,or asking me to watch the same movie with you although we are two different place..
Making sure i did watch it by asking what was happening now or after.
Before sleeping,one good night call..is a must and me telling you ghost story just to make you sleep instead has make you stay awake for even more longer hours.
The most funny part is where the call has to come to an end.
but non want to end it...and i've always promise to do it next time..but didnt.
Now i can tell you why,is because i will never willing to cut off your call..
Only you can do that to me :) thats the why.
Me making sure you at least drink some water during some hours..
due to the hot weather...but in the end...i think you were bored with my care?
But what about you then? when i was sick,having sore throat...
you made your 1st home made,chinese herbs for me and send it all the way to my working place although you have to rush back for assignments? :DD

Or do you miss the time when every single day you drive to my place?
or me going to yours?
Or when you bring your niece to my place during our 1st meet up.
and instead,i put focus on her rather than you and you gotten angry and jealous?
XD

i really appreciate the 813 handmade stars you made...
dont worry,is in my treasure box :P
i know how hard it is to make things like this,believe me..
i have some own experience too..hahaha...


from you.

You remember the time i was lying flat down on my bed and you quickly run over and grab a pillow to put it under my head just so i wont get any headache?
Or the time i was not sitting properly you put a pillow over my neck?
and the time i was doing assignment and you coming behind my back and massage my shoulders without telling.
and texting me,replying me,never ever delay as you know i will get worry.
and how you stop me from asking too much question?
you treated me well and i know you treat me as if im your everything...
You are daring but in reality,you are one of the most shy person i have ever met you know (yeah,weird..i know XD )
You let everything goes in my way so we wont argue..
You once told me
"i dont want to argue with you is not because im afraid we will break is because i dont have the heart to scold you,i cant even raise up my voice"
I still remember this from the day you said it until now! T_T
I asked you before,what do you wish from me... you said
"i only wish,from your heart,one day,even if you have a choice to be with someone else,you will still choose me because i made you happy"
Now,if i had a choice,maybe i wouldnt have been stupid in the past
(you're not stupid)
but hor,because of your caring attitude,always start up the arguement you know? you make others think they are special too.hate it.
(==")
but thank god,you are honest.this is something..that person dont have.
i dont know what was it like for now...have you change?
i cant even cry now,i have no more tears in my eyes.im all dry up.
if this is the end?

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:O yahhhhhhhhhhhh! is not that i dont want to reply you.
but no point of giving fake hopes...
you know i still would care about you..
but like i said,this is the past,this are all memories in our mind..
i believe you can find someone who treats you better then me or better than the asshole you just dump.
Is just time that are all you need.trust me for this time.
hwaiting!! :DD <3<3<3

Monday, December 6, 2010

Goodbye?

From yesterday i have already feel that i was having a serious headache.
so yeah,went home,watch SNSD Happy Together with sister and off to bed.
Just this morning when i was in the car,i started to have this nausea feeling...
As if im about to puke any secs.
Reach work and do some stock cut while downloading some SNSD videos.

And the usual crazy of me...cant stay quiet of course (;
this is what i did



Nyahahaha,is Xuan's jacket aka maknae aku :P
since she's away for 3longgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg days...
What is even funny is that,during my conversation with CK...although we are talking nothing about her...her name somehows TER-say out XD
(pls dont say we miss you :P )

Ok,1stly,i forget to bring my jacket so im using hers to cover my easily-get-cold-fingers.
then after that,i need to go office so i said to CK
"let's bring Xuan along" ck only manage to give THE look XD
i did lots of funny stuff as if the jacket was her...although CK is shaking his head but i caught him laughing..
i mean c'mon who can resist the joke im doing? (; kekeke


am i dying?
>.< i dont know...i somehow feels weaker and weaker each day...
i can feel my immune system getting weak..
I dont know how to say how i feel exactly...all i can say...
i feel my body temperature hot on the inside and cold on the outside.
unstable ==" and is not fever,i know how fever feels like.
*sigh*
what if i check DOC and end up it was nothing?
waste of money XD
i dont know...
but dont let me die now...let me travel to korea 1st!!
you guys must be thinking im crazy huh?
but yeah,if i am really dying...why not enjoy rather than worrying...
I dont like this sick feeling...feel like killing myself,man!

I still can joke and laugh around...that is because im trying to over come the pain...
but i have a feeling,i can faint anytime soon...
this is the same situation i had when i last fainted that cause my heart to stop a few secs..
this is the same feeling...im having now...

:| *sigh*

[7/12/2010] - [3:45pm]
" never knew what i should have leave or keep it until i have lost it..but its the past,you're going to say that right? cant believe i scolded you for over caring me,when just so i realize i need one person to do it like you does..i thought being with a new one,can replace you..but i guess that person cant reach your par...you're different..i dont know..you remember how much you always give it my way and i waws always right..because of this i thought you are the wrong one but until last night,i realize you always act that way pretend i was always right is because you dont want arguement to happen between us.. yea,stupid.thats me now. "

- all the best for you,you will have a better one in the future,trust me,because i knew you will be reading this,so i want you to know that although...i cant change my mind, i really still cares about you,if you need someone to talk to,i'll be there...cheer up,kay? i dont want to see you that way either -

Sunday, December 5, 2010

unexpected

if only someone can see my reaction when i receive your text message.
for almost 2 years...no contact..no nothing..you find me at last..
someone have once again broke your heart?
*sigh*
i do not hope that happen though...but life still goes on,isnt it?

[everything is over,how come?why?can we meet now?can we talk? i need someone to hear me out. i need to let those tears out now.will you be there again like it used too? will you be there to calm me again although for what had happened?are you taking care of someone else now?will it be too weird for me to just sms you again..weird la,totally weird]

i read it over and over and over again..but i can never know how to reply you back.

[fine.i understand.let this be my mistake.bye]

i can be there for you,i can still care for you,i can try and put a smile back onto your face...

should i text you back?

Sad.Disappointed.Angry.

Sounds damn EMO isnt it? yeap,damn emo now...
But i think there is no point of me saying it out...AGAIN
Given you chances but you can never change do you?
Sometimes,i rather remain silent,i rather keep quiet not because im scare of you or dont care about it,but is because im sick of it...im sick of letting this type of things get to me...it sucks OK.
IM SICK OF YOU

But like my dad said,you can help people as much as possible,but you dont ever expect that person will treat you the way you treat them.
is true after all...i cant expect in any returns...
but what i hope was for you to appreciate the existence of our friendship..
and the things i have done for you.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

tired.tired.tired

I havent been updating my blog for quite some time huh? :)
that's because i dont seem to have the right time to do so.
So,yeap.yesterday is my OFF day...and how did i spend it?
Sleeping until 2pm XD and cleaning up my room...
while cleaning up,i realize i need to re-decorate my room,my collectibles of SNSD
SO I DID
^^ hehehe,my sister was shock as she walk into my room she only manage to say one word
WOW (;
so,we both think is a good idea to make a video out of it and so i did :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYoyBkgngUA
ta-daa <3<3<3
now i love sitting at my desk for hours while writing my story.
Im not obsess but i just so happen to look up to tiffany very very much XD

Went to night market when drizzle about to start...
look for my phone protecting case but failed to do so...they claims it is still not out yet ==" geeeeez.
Pick my mum up and off we go back to home..
while on my way home,as usual,earphones are on..this time sharing one side with my sisters..
we eventually dance to a few songs and my mum asked my dad to see how the both of us is dancing in sync :P
Genie..OH..RDR..GEE and etc etc

what should i do now...im dead bored

[you said to me last night that you love me face to face,but you should know why i no longer answering you back,things change..i change]