Life is nothing but a LIfe? LOL

Dont mind my title please? :p being a nutcase for a moment.

On last Sunday... yeah... just last sunday... few days ago.. (i dont know the date and dont want to)

slept at around 1am? or i think 12am? or 11pm? @@"

and woke at around 645AM. shitty huh? tired like HELL

So yes,woke up this early and i was getting ready for my driving exam...

So i read again before my DRIVING UNCLE come pick me up..

it was like damn early.. and i wasnt expecting anything.. so i keep on reading until i receive a text

I jump up in shock because the ring tone is seriously scary type,cos is loud. =-=

i didnt expect i would receive a message asking me to HWAITING! and wishing me all the best!

^^ feel so happy for someone who would wish me the time before i exam.feels nice :)

Thanks~~~

(today,monday 31/1/2011)

Finally,is going to CNY soon... how fast time past isnt it?

Well,today was nothing much to blog about.

Manager called me and asked where i was when i was in Borders..

she said i wasnt suppose to out at that hour.

=-= yeah yeah.. so i just tell her that i went and get some water..

Just so happens,another colleague of mine went out to have her break too which i might say is wayyyyy to early for her to go..

But among us... colleague... we dont care what time we go out.. as long you come back soon.

But i guess my manager wasnt in a good mood...

she was rather pissed off and start raising her voice.

she did told me.

she wasnt scolding me.. but another of my colleague.

i was sitting on the FLOOR... yes literally ON THE FLOOR. with no chair...

i was sitting on the stool before that... but i got the feeling i might topple over as i start to get pretty dizzy.

My manager came and scolded my colleague..

:/ i didnt look at my manager because.

YO! IF I AINT DOING ANYTHING WRONG! I AINT LISTENING TO CRAPS.

BOOOOOM!

after that,my manager left...

she called me not long after that asking me to go out...

:O i was like UH-OH

then i walk out saw her there...

Grace:are you angry of me? why do you look angry?

(she's asking really nicely)

"nope... im not angry or what."

Grace:dont lie~~~

"Ah!jinja!serious"

Grace:huh?what happened? i didnt scold you also.

"i know i know *LOL* im not angry of you"

Grace:you angry of xuan? argue with her?

(xuan aka. Maknae)

"huh?why say so?"

Grace:nah SEE! that means i was right! you argue with her. If not you will answer me NO instead of why! and did you just cried?

(then we both LAUGH =-=)

"no la~~~ im sick... not feeling well"

She lean forward to touch my forehead but i quickly lean backwards..

When i dont feel good.. not in a mood.. i dont feel like communicating... and dont even expect me to let you touch me,altough im not angry of her la~

She then give me some stuff :x

Do not force me to do something i dont like..

you might end up regretting.

im serious.

i wont means i wont.

nothing can change my mind...

unless myself.

And when a decision is made by me,is final then.

im not going to change it.

thats it.

if you force me to do so..

you might force me to do something you might not like and so do i..

so yes.. dont push me too much.

(life..........sucks)

scary

If you guys read this blog...

You'll probably end up like the cartoon above...

yeah,jaw drop open WIDE

Kind of scary as im typing this out now... (since im in the shop)

What happened was that i was early today...

roughly around 730am++ i guess,if im not mistaken.

i went to my shop while waiting for maknae to reach at 9am.

i was playing facebook... and decide to listen to SNSD from my itouch.

And put it on speaker....

I was listening to Mistake by SNSD...

sing ha sing ha...

i hear a different voice... from my back.

because behind me is a store room with the doors open.

i thought i heard it wrongly.

So i focus and kept quiet right away.

and no doubt... i didnt heard it wrongly or what so ever.

for me,andrea yong.. the bravest person...bla bla bla...

Immediately i can feel the hair on my hands stand up >.<

and my heart start pounding really really fast..

i was stunned for a moment..

i dont dare to do anything but just stare at empty space..

and there's small giggle and also IT seems like it was trying to sing along.

because i heard humming

im scare alright! i admit!

T.T

but after that,its gone...

My dad always tells me... if IT didnt harm you dont worry because you didnt do anything wrong.

I keep my calm of course.

I didnt want to tell anyone, but just telling it out would feel so much better.

even my manager was scared..

and told me that i came too early..

but you know what,i assume i was just tired then.

2ndly,behind our shop is a toilet.

could be one of the janitor humming while cleaning in the morning.

I just dont want to simply predict.

so yeah,just want to share.

EMO ?

This would probably best describe how i feel sometimes.

i mean like yeah,all my close friends tell me is not worth it.

and yeah,come to think of it... they do have some point :/

time after time after it..and yet still nothing change.

so what's the point.

yeap. so gave it in the way in the end.

and realize what really matters most,is i dont let it get to me.

:))))

i'll try,no promises.

EXAM for my driving license ah~~~

can some out there kill me or help me take?

I know,it aint a hard exam,but then... i think the word lazy is best describe me.

its just that,i dont want to fail....sick of failing....

Hwaiting!!!!! no no is HWAITAENG~~~~ hahahaha,you know what im talking about.

If you are reading right now..thank you for your constant support and i never think of you as annoying me when you ask me to study more la.... i scare my laziness will gik sei you only XD

but thank you so much for the support!

^^

Someone asked me,how come i was single till now..

i can only answer is that im happy with what and how i am now.

If being in a relationship can give more sadness than happiness.

Whats the whole point then?

You get what i mean?

being in a love and in a relationship is when both can share what they have in their life.

and be happy for one another.

So hell yeah!

Until the right one comes.

then only decide. life is still young. 21 only la babeh!

XD

I feel so damn bored and sleepy now. =-=

and its only 8:25pm now... im going back at 10pm.

wth.

Coolest thing happened was that i met back my old primary school friends.

which they are quite close to me...

and the best thing is... is the 3 whom i remember most!

^^ cool isnt it?

plan to meet up soon...

but will we destiny to meet?

hahahahaha.

hope so la... miss you guys <3>

My dad's plan for chinese new year.

-steamboat

-jap restaurant buffet

-chinese restaurant

-western restaurant

=-= FYI,you're going to make me fat la pa~~~~

OH! now i get it!! thats why you ask me to join the gym huh??

:p

dont like that la....

talk about GYM.. is interesting until few weeks later..

is like damn bloody bored...

please.. i reach MV like at 6am in the morning..

EVERY SINGLE DAY

boleh mati tau?tired like hell~

what i do?

sleep at the swimming pool couch..kesian T.T :p

But thank got i have my iBabyT with me...

:DD keeping me company and always motivate me to do all my gym activities.

Thanks,girls... and yes,i mean girls generation!

hahaha. their song and video... keeps me going on..

YAY!

See how big impact you guys can give me? :DD

i hope to see SNSD soon <3>

especially my fav,tiff!!!

imagine her standing right infront of me...

FAINT

XD

no la... wont so waste go and faint.

blog till now then...

shall continue on a post on what i experience today :(

tiredness.im giving up everything.

So,is like yes... the world,no MY world is sort of having a war right now?

but yeah,glad things got solve in the end... or not? but like yeah,who cares right.

i mean come on.. why hold on to an anger where you can choose the other way?a better one of course. :)

I've been in lack of sleep for like almost... hmmmm 30HOURS

let me tell you something... it aint cool!

especially you are working the noon shift the next day and also participating in the gym.

this is seriously a big NO NO

Started my day in the morning,with....hitting the gym!

yeap,thats right... dad want me to join for some reason.

i started on the treadmill.. with the condition i am having...

i cant believe i actually ran for two hours! on a treadmill. on the first session

i continue later with another 2hours.

like WOW right?

XD

My thigh hurts some how... due to the fact that i hit a car.. =-= yeah,pabo.i know.

My head feels heavy.. and i got a feeling that i can faint anytime soon.

but i hang on to it... giving all my best... not to faint or what so ever.

cant believe she actually cried about it..

It wasnt her fault.. and yet she wants to care for it... in the end.

she cried... told her not to get involve and let things be its own way.

but my silly baby pabo is this way.

Is hard for her to listen to you. and is like super amazing when i knew what she did...

it makes me realize... she's one of the kindest person EVER

If you're reading this...

just so you know...

no matter what happens.. what is the decision.

My love to you will never change... and its okay.

Its nothing big either <3

"you have done and give the advice for all you are able to,and for that one person to listens to it or not... to take it seriously or not,is totally up to them.the choice is choosen by them. decision is made by them,it takes one fall for a person to realize how painful it was. but always keep in mind,you have done your part,and that's all it really matters"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fs3XBuRTly8&feature=player_embedded

The link to snsd latest song :DD

why Tiffany Hwang from SNSD

So,its like yeah.

People who newly know me would asked question like this to me... or people who dont really know snsd and saw how my gadgets has been dominate by Tiff would ask.

So yes,it burdens me if i have to answer it again and again and AGAIN.

Why her among all 9?

Why not other boy band?

and so,it goes on.

Alright,most frequent one then. Why her among all 9.

-

Ans: She has so many things that i can really look up too..like how strong she was..how determined she is when she came to Korea all by herself at a very YOUNG age.

Her voice..oh! how i adore her sexy husky voice,and how it soothes my feeling whenever i listen to her singing. Alright,i can like seriously go on whole night to answer to your WHY. So yeah,things like she has got this incredible amazing EYE SMILE and WINK just this simple two,i was already falling real bad for her.

never in my life,i've seen anyone with this attractive eye smile before.its not just any eye smile.

is one that can catch and draws you into her eyes.

That is one of my very very main reason why i love her among all nine :D

i have my choice you know,like how you guys would love other members. with your own reason. exactly the same with mine.

Q: is there any other pictures in your gadget other than tiffany?

-

Ans: erm.yes.Others as in other SNSD members XD and also... you know,jiyeon from t-ara..

and lots... like this is my privacy people.. (; i have others.

Q: do you love tiffany as in love LOVE?

-

Ans:HUH? XD LMAO people,people! you guys really love cracking me up huh? i love her,yes,because she is my idol! haha,not what you guys think.

(keep the question coming in my inbox.in facebook http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000614474074 i dont mind and will try to answer your questions)

that is also goes the same,if you are new to K-POP and find SNSD interesting. go ahead.ask me.

So,yes... i adores Tiffany alot but hell no im not like bloody obsess with her alright.

For me collecting her collectibles.

For me having her in every gadgets i posses.

For me keep talking about her from time to time at times.

For me to have thousands pictures of her.

this does not means i was bloody obsess.

even my friend said i would stalk her if she was in malaysia.

but you know what,to whoever who said that F*CK you i guess being my friend you didnt know me well enough,so i would appreciate if you shut the fck up,thank you.

because i dont need you to tell you who i am as i know who i am myself very well indeed.

oh yeah,and i got a question that ask how a big fan i am to tiffany.

well.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYoyBkgngUA

here you go,this is a video made by me from my room.

judge this. and judge it from my blog.

you should know it better yourself rather then me coming to explain why and how.

:D

till now.

peace out.

which is best for vacation?

So is like yeah. Im confirmed that i want to go to a vaca.. of my own.

Choice of my own.

and dad says no problem.. is the thing where you have to be independent.

Since he went and stay and work in Japan when he was only 21.

Alright.

Once i has this idea of going to Korea.

friends start telling me that they want to go too and is quite interesting as most of my friends are K-pop freaks (so won) and directly we got the idea of going to KOREA.

yeap,thats right. part of my reason that i want to go there was because of SNSD.

But i also came to know that their place is wonderful.

(the roller coaster ride in Lotte World,damn cool)
(banpo bridge,beautiful scenery isnt it)
and this is lottle world

For sure this are quite attractive.

And oh yeah! their SPAO shop there!!

Rm5000 equals to 1Billion WON

but the problem is... would that even be enough.

I dont know.

my mind is kind of messed up now... i know i know.

im going next year but yo... i would love to plan everything properly so things wont be ruin or delay when im there.

Dad suggested me to go places like Japan (highly recommended) Hong Kong (because i can spend more)

He said going to Korea once equals you can go to HongKong twice.

wow.

alright.. and he say if i want to enjoy..is Japan where i should go... Japan is number 1 place to visit in the world... with disneyland along side.

I know i know

" you want to go Korea was because of your idol,tiffany..do you think you will be able to see them like walking around the place?if they can let you see them easily,thats not superstar anymore.superstar is like the only place you can really meet them is on stage. xxxxx Hotel is where most superstar hangs out,but most of them are all actors.you can wait for girls generation to come here and perform instead" - dad -

How true,will i feel like a little waste if i go Korea but didnt get to see SNSD in the end?

well..no..but yes.. but then no.. IDK!

maybe yeah,i would be disappointed a little..LITTLE..because there is SPAO shop there!

and buying SNSD stuffs at there would be sooooooooooooooooo much cheaper!

well,i still have time to think right..

i mean,yeah,lets see if my life can manage to by pass July '11

If it does,equals i have a chance to go on.. till? i dont know.. for how long.

but i was assure,not long with my condition now.

this is why i want to go the trip FAST. like A.S.A.P