Im a Fool

Im Back~ Woohoooo!! kekeke~ nah, it's been some time since i last blogging isnt it?

Life is pretty busy with a job now on the hand, stressing at times.

During off days, i spend my time completely with my dogs and family.

So, i cant find a right time to actually blog with all the jobs on hands.

To find the right time to hang out is definitely not easy, but definitely not hard either.

If you have the determination to make it happen, you'll put the effort for it.

I do not know why, but it seems like everytime when there's a gathering,

i seems to be the only one who are excited about it and i was thrown to plan it.

Alright, make it clear, im cool with planning things.

But friends, where are the initiative to come ask me about the gathering?

I felt like, for you, having the gathering or not, doesnt really matters.

Maybe it was because you arent into it?

Or you just dont care if it happens or not?

Because, everything made it seems like i was the desperate one to hang out for the gathering.

Where is the initiative from the heart to ask when or how is the next gathering going to be.

"i dont have time to plan" well, i didnt ask you to do so, but a text message would be just fine.

is it that hard? well, is just too obvious, none care about the gathering.

or just maybe, im the only one who care for too much?

"i want us to remain as forever"

well, go the road of your own then, seems like i was the only one who is trying to put a plan for us to gather, so no matter how busy we are, our friendship will never be drifted apart.

But this is life, living the life of your own.

on your own road, on your own life.

that's it.

take a moment and think.

how long do you think we can last in our youth...lucky for you, in another 3 to 5 years time.

some might even start building up a family of their own.

some might even migrate to another place...

how long do you think we can last around in our 20's ?

will we still be going to theme parks at the age of 30 or 32 or 35?

will things ever be the same like how it used to be? no...

time pass, people grows, burden increase, enjoyable moments are hard to find.

i stood up and asked to plan for gathering because i dont want waste no time.

but you crushes my plans and efforts without doing anything.

none.

maybe it is true after all.

time pass, people grows. im one of them i guess?

Everything seems so obvious to me, that no one cares if we're meeting up or not.

Really, im through with this.

wishes you all the best, my friends :)

...done.

p/s: just everytime when i look at the gif above, taeng cant seem to strike my heart, nonstop :x

question : when can i see snsd again?

cos i seriously miss them all, especially my wife, my mistress and my girlfriend.

Tiffany, Taeyeon, Jessica ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! :3

dear God, please answer to my little prayers<3

sometimes, things are hard to let go especially when there are great memories behind it.

but as mention, behind, yeah, behind, the past.