love is just a lust at times

One thing i feel regret about is to Benjamin..

I dont know why i choose to blog about it right now..

Perhaps i should let some of my guilt to be pour out here?

It was back when i was only 15years old.

And i knew this guy who's 21..

Never once, i take things seriously between us.

But he asked for a relationship.

and never did i even say yes..

I thought he was just another perv who wants to flirt around.

But things were serious to the point he was willing to drive for 1hour plus from his place.

and to my school...

My school starts at 6am...

So, he made a real big afford to wake up early, just to see me..

Nothing much.

sitting on the bench, he talks about his studies..

where else, i just.. do nothing? :/

He would help me carry my bag into the school hall and students will be staring at him.

Not that he was damn handsome or good looking.

But he does look okay :)

Perhaps it is also because he's a stranger.

Friends told me he was sweet.

He is so willing to come almost every single day.

never once he ask me to skip school so i can go out with him.

never once he do anything funny.

Then i remember it was valentines..

I still remember i asked myself, was this for real?

Do i like really like or have feelings for him?

I dont know.. but all i know is that his doings were sweet.

He reach my school early and slept in the car while waiting for me.

:/

wake him up and he ask me to come in the car.

i got panic when he start his car and drove away from the parking lot.

:O

things like "kidnapping??" "rapping??"

runs through my mind XDD

well, what do you expect to think at situation like this..

But thank God (of course) he part at the side of my school building,

which two scout boys were outside.

he held my hand and that's the moment i knew i wasnt in love with him.

cos all i want to do was him to let go fast :/

and then it was when want to :-* me...

i turn away so fast

making the situation embarrassing.

he knew, i knew.

we exchange gifts.

and that was the last time we ever see each other..

i change my msn and hp number too.

for now.. i feel kind of guilty..

for treating him that way.

cos, if i can turn back the time,

i would've at least break it up to him in a proper way and in hope we can still remain as friends.

:/

Mianhae

Dorky Kid #LOL

What you are about to view is absolutely adorable from kid taengoo :DD

Look at her face...

Does that look looks similar to you?

Have you seen it anywhere before?

Maybe this could help...

One day you will learn how to shut the fuck up.

Just you wait.

13th August is MY day

Today is my day!

Or was it yesterday?

It was outing all day long until i have no time to blog last night :x

Thanks to all my friends for the wishes through fb and also text messages.

Those who has know me well, wishes this way mostly...

"happy birthday,Tiffany"

"happy birthday,TaeFany"

"happy birthday,Tiffany hardcore fan"

LOL.

How cute can you guys be??

Thanks everyone!

And those text messages, i've reply with my new number, so do save down yeah? :DD

As i have decline the idea of getting a Tiffany Hwang cake.

Daddy gotten me a normal usual birthday cake instead.

We brought it over to my uncle's house because his birthday was a day before mine ;)

And the cake is HUGE, so we decide to share.

I might be fat after this because the cake is filled with creams! *yums*

Uncle and grandma gave red packets ;) *wink wink* Kamzahamida.

But one of the best part?

This 2 year old, lil cutie sang me Happy Birthday song!!!!

Goddddd! why is he so damn cute????

He sang the song and look at me,smiling... <3 :))

and he even sings two versions!

Chinese and English!

Thank you, Kingston..

But he was a little more excited than i am.

Since he blow off the candles -.- even before i can make my wish fully.

Oh well, doesnt matter.

I love him ^^

(mummy more happy and excited than the birthday girl *cough* XD)

After that go home,shower,pack the dogs and be ready for our buffet :)

I have this thing that i always do and never failed before.

Every of my birthday, on the date itself.

I will only celebrate with my family.

And usually with friends will be after a few days my birthday.

Because i happen to think that,

Family is someone i wanted to celebrate with the most :)

Besides, is my mum who gives birth me on this very day!

who else should i celebrate with other than my parents?

If it wasnt for them, there wont be a me today. :p

Off to?

Our restaurant :DD

Well, specifically not OURS as in owning this place.

Ours as in we always go for this when we go for Japanese Buffet.

Mum's choice!

I really have thoughts on not eating much since i seldom go to gym now :O

But, yeah right. who am i kidding?

SASHIMI COME TO ME!!! XDXD

IKR!

Salmons after Salmons after Salmons..

I swore that imma stop eating salmon for a month -.-

Oooh! I friggin LOVE this!

Golden Mushroom!!

But too bad, the taste wasnt as good as i thought it will be..

The Teppanyaki sauce too sweet.

Then anything related to Salmon.

:p

and i saw some random name of dishes which was like o.O

Take All Better.

I say Take None Better.

NOONE even touch this food weih XDXD

We LOL when dad told us what's the name of the soup.

I have to take a look at it myself since i dont know if he was just kidding or not.

Mian, appa!

Kekekeke.

Not that bad though the taste, chinese herbs.

Chawan Mushi is <3

This is the sign of someone's getting mischievous.

One of my friend always says, "dont play with food la~" XDXD

And this isnt complete if i dont post this :

I just cant stop watching their videos.

and they always manage to make my situation even better :p

Yes -.- it's salmon AGAIN!!

I believe, i've ate so much i can literally give birth a Salmon Fish -.-

NO SALMON FOR A MONTH,thankyou.

Most of my friends knows i dont take picture much.

But this bitch here ask me to take picture so she can post on her fb. LOL.

We taken pictures after pictures after PICTURES.

But she is not satisfied with how it came out -.-

Keep asking me to delete and re-take.

50 and out of 50...

49 are unwanted, because she think she dont look good in it.

wth.

I only tell her, "go surgery then" LOL!

But best thing of the day?

The gifts from my parents!!!

I dont ask for presents and i dont expect to get them.

But this time, i cant believe it!!!

:')))))))

Mummy and Daddy bought me these!!!!

SNSD Gee poster!!!!

SNSD Card Stickers <3

I LOVE THIS THE MOST!!!!

TIFFANY's POSTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! T.T

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU <3

Mummy and Daddy JJANG!!!

Dad decide to buy this but he thinks it'll be awkward for him to walk into the shop and buy these XDXDXD

So, he brings mummy along to help him choose and pick out the one i might like.

LIKE?

I LOVE IT TO THE MAXXXXXXXXXXXX!

Celebration with the people i love and they got me things of people i love second best.

^^

When i got these i cant stop smiling.

Is like a surgery of smile is plastered to my face for permanent..

and i cant stop saying how pretty my tiffany hwang is :pp

And we have this :)

she wants the pink :/

what to do, she say black one doesnt suit her.

I told her it was because she has dark skin.

*cough* since black suits me so well XDXD

Thanks for the loooooooooooooooooooooong message, wifey :))

And also others too <3

Thanks for everything.

Thanks everyone ^^

More to say but someone wants to use the lappy :/

I'll end here then..

;) how can i end this blog without a few wonderful pictures of her?

She look so pretty!!!

I felt like i've seen her in this dress before..

perhaps its something similar :))

anyway, she's GORGEOUS!!!

Best Pic of the day :

Look at TaeTae's face and reaction XDXD

Kyupta as usual!

Tiffany, your eye smile is wonderful!!!

Signing off.

:) <3

Roly Poly

Hahaha.

This song has been on in Music Bank for some time.

But i only get addicted when i saw the MV in MTV today ^^

John Travolta Wannabe.

XD

Such a cute title!!

And their dance!

I LOVE THIS DANCE STEP the most out of the whole dance steps!

Hehehe! Love this!

Super cute dance isnt it?

But i only got my eyes on one girl ^^

Hahaha!

JiYeon ah!!

JiYeon jjang!!!

Dont she just looks pretty with the straight hair? <3

Soooooooooo pretty ^^

(and no, tiffany is still number one okay... before you guys say anything)

Jiyeon is just ma wife from T-ara :p

Basically, im not cheating.LOL.

Such a pretty girl :DD

When i first know T-ara..

She's the one i pick :)

Cos she resembles like one of my fav actress, Kim Tae Hee

(if you dont know who it is, google helps) :p

Cute right?

So, dorky!

*shakes head*

Cute eh? :DD

There's more..

but for some reason, im not sharing :p

Hahaha!

nah, you can find more of her on google ^^

I dont want to post much, or else, i'll be kill!

Peace out for tonight <3

Butt Fetish

Some people really cant accept the fact that this were all just for laughs.

I mean so what if TaeTae really have a butt fetish?

I find her totally cute(?) in her own perverted kind of ways.

LOL.

Come on... the girl is cute...

But that doesnt mean she has a thing on it.

Keeping this short.

Videos will explain everything ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fla_-yGwW3s (LOL! she stammered!!!)

&

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I3vw4yIlv_g (she's just plain cute)

People, stop making a big deal out of it -.-

Mr. Lazy Lazy Lazy (random. fever got me)

Uhhhh..

I've been resting for quite enough i guess..

cos im starting to get a little more lazy and sit back nowadays ;) hehehe..

Araso..

Time to go for an interview again and start my working life (AGAIN)

The weather really suck isnt it?

Is either too hot or very hot.LOL.

Humid air... pffffffffffffft...

Great, i just recover from my fever and now mr. cough and mr. flu

is visiting me.

Mind i say that i really love the husky voice i have now?

I cant stop saying

"annyeong haseyo, so nyuh shi dae tippani nimida"

LOL!!! until my parents and sister cant stand me for repeating the same sentence and they claims im crazy XDXD

fever has been getting to me i guess.

Dad asked me what i want.

They plan to get me a big cake with Tiffany's picture printed on it

:') <3

But in the end, i said i dont want it.

1st, is really costly.. over expensive for a cake!

2ndly, how can you expect me to cut that cake?? LOL.. there is no way i can cut it XD

I even said

"how can i cut miyoung's face?? and eat it some more!!"

XD

well yeah..

I was gone on facebook for about... 6days or so?

I left without saying a word (mianhae,guys<3)

Cos fever strike without a warning.

It was until 3rd day..

My lovely starts to realize something is definitely wrong..

I start receiving text that says

"oi! what happened to you ah??"

I was like o.O what happened?

"you not online,dont feel right"

Awwwwww~

:) how cute!!

I know some of you were worried, mianhae...

*BIG HUGS*

IM BACK! hahahaha!

I love how my friends were there to look for me :p

I love how they were worry (oppps! i would be the same too<3)

I love how they bombard my inbox XDXD

I love how they text me each day<3

I was really sick at one point, i smile so much when im talking to you guys through the text.

Love you guys even more already ;pppppp

this particular message makes me LOL alot!!

Gordon: Get well soon,ANDWAE

Me: stop being so mean! ask me to get well and in the end say dont??

Gordon: LOL... Airena said so to you too.

which puzzles me a lot... because i know my maknae isnt that mean.

Me: Gordy, do you know what does ANDWAE means??

Gordon: Means ANDREA WHY

XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD

i seriously laugh so hard!!!!

and he still keep sending wrong message to different people..

-.-

dear gordon, you are using iPhone... apa macam? LOL

But thanks all...

Thanks for the message..

and now im back.

Someone told me, they miss me bombarding their notification box.

Miss seeing me there.

well?

Guess what ;)

Im soooooooooooooooo back!

So, dont kill me when i do so!

Araso?

^^

I just want to hug you guys!

SARANGHAE~

p/s: 2 more months! ^^ i cant wait for us to hang out,maknae!!! MUACKS<3 Guess we'll have so much to talk about!! hahahahaha!! and then next year, time for me to go your country ^^ kekeke!

time to start working :/ HWAITING!!

8person makes me realize and proven to me that i did the right thing.

that the worthless idiots are out of my life

:') thank you!

Hehehe.