is Taeny real?

Hahaha, did my title get your attention? Were you wondering the same like i do?

Well, some people cant accept it, while on the other hand, many were hoping for it to be real.

My point?

Whether Taeny is really dating one another or not, that wasnt the point.

You cant deny, just the way they have each other, it's more than amazing :)

The fact, that no one can ever deny, unless, they would like to lies to themselves about it.

their friendship arent just as simple as sistership or best friend relationship.

No denial.

Remember how on Dangerous Boys, i forget that guy's name, he accidentally threw some shredded newspaper that hits Tiffany on the head, Taeyeon was definitely looking at Tiffany, they exchanges glances, Taeyeon just smile sheepishly and threw some newspaper back at that guy.

Okay, you can say that's what best friends do for one another.

Alright.

The fact that your eyes wont deny those fancams uploaded on Youtube, that whenever they looks at one another, Taeyeon or Tiffany could be found, looking away, smiling shyly.

Talking about eyes contact, what i loved most was Taeyeon's.

It seems like on many fancam or pictures taken, she doesnt mind if her photos came out that she is looking at Tiffany intimately or what, she just doesnt mind.

and many many times, i've caught her doing so.

The way she looks at Tiffany can be very intimate or something sweet.

or

See what i meant?

the way Taeyeon would looks at Tiffany, is very different.

I mean, the feeling she plays out in from her eyes.

Pictures can tells you a lot.

Is like, Taeyeon worship Tiffany a lot!!

The more pictures i am posting here on my blog, the more you all will feel the same with me.

What feeling?

Suspicious about their relationship.

When i talked about Taeny, some people doesnt like that i suspect they were something more than just friends/sisters.

I mean, if they really are, in a relationship.

who are we to say no?

Besides, to be living under the same roof together for so many years.

Growing up together.

Going through obstacles together.

I doubt small feelings wont start because of the reasons above.

why not?

They have been together for almost most of their teens life together.

Growing up together and turning into adult together.

I doubt this two never kiss one another before :P

Come on.

9 girls, living under roof.

living together for so long.

Girls can be naughty, girls like to try things out.

Kissing a two or more, wont do much harm.

Who knows?

we wont know for sure that is, im just saying. 

Look at the that two at the end.

Into the world of their own once again.

:)

Cute arent they?

Hmmmm, anyone remember that Tiffany was pulled out from all performance when she injured herself again?

Well, we shall let the pictures do the talking.

with Tiffany...

without Tiffany..

with Tiffany...

without Tiffany...

Arent the above gifs making things pretty obvious that Taeyeon is kind of bored without Tiffany around her?

I mean, yeah, everyone is worried about Tiffany, but they never let it ruin their day or something.

But look at Taeyeon.

She could've hug her other members. like she does with Tiffany.

Maybe, your reason to me were

"because she's the closest with Tiffany"

well, i say she is super clingy towards Tiffany, just like how Tiffany is clingy towards Taeyeon.

Okay, i believe they can do all this because they are the closest with one another.

But there will always be a reason why they were this close.

and some where on some shows

(i do not remember well, what was it)

But yes, Tiffany said :

“I’ve been with Taeyeon for 6 years, and this was the first time we’ve been apart for so long. After 10 days, we made a big fuss because we missed each other and sent each other text messages and pictures.”

And during the early years of their debut, Tiffany was place as a host on some varieties show.

along with a guy.

Taeyeon was being introduce as the guest for them.

Tiffany said :

"i told you, me and Taeyeon's relationship, is hard to explain...our relationship is urmmmm"

"wife" Taeyeon answered.

The guy then asked :

"are you fond of her??"

Tiffany got embarrassed, her cheeks flustering bright pink!

She even hits her co-host partner.

But in Taeyeon's replies :

"yes, i am very fond of her"

while their hands were holding together.

There comes when the moment, you asked yourself.

"is this two for real?"

have you ever wonder why you would questioned yourself in your mind that way?

:) the answer were easy.

Because the things that Taeny does on camera, was so opened.

and real.

like they really do cherish one another existence.

that there is no need to hide their appreciation for one another.

i too, dont think there is a need to hide your feelings, if you love someone.

The fact you can see how much they feels lucky enough to have each other.

Is more than enough to portray that their friendship werent just that simple.

^^

they are fond to have one another company.

They are happy whenever they are together side by side.

I just love it whenever they smiles to one another when they happens to look at each other.

see what i mean now? i die for anything to get that smile from Tiffany.

Their eyes contact can always be intense at first, but slowly, they'll just smile away shyly.

Is like, they love peeking at one another, if they were standing side by side.

Sometimes, 

i feel sorry for Maknae Joo Hyun

during MCore hosting,

you can see a lot of TAENY interaction, like, Tiffany was mostly standing in the middle.

But she would constantly mostly, look at Taeyeon's side.

But i know, they love their maknae a lot.

just that.

they love each other more.

:P

There are reasons why LOCKSMITHS were named for Taeny shippers.

Tiffany was caught having a necklace with a lock shaped like pendant,

while Taeyeon on the other hand, had the key to the lock :)

they both wore it during Gee debut.

I mean is normal, bestie gets couple stuffs together at times.

just for the fun time sake.

Any of you heard the rumor last year or so,

about one of their manager getting drunk in a club, and accidentally spilling out that.

Two of the members of Girls Generation, were really dating.

This rumor died off of course, after a few weeks.

But rumors or not,

when this was spoken, first pair that got into my mind, were Taeny.

What about you? 

and if you're still wondering why :)

let me tell you why.

That's cos, our mind automatically projects Taeny.

due to their sweetness of relationship.

Even when many of you wants to deny about it, but cant deny the fact they were CLOSE.

During Phuket.

Message moments.

Tiffany and Taeyeon, both had hard times,

sending their video message to one another!

watch it and you'll feel what i felt.

I dont know how many of you think alike with me.

But i know many are out there, standing with me on this.

Taeny is Love :)

I love this two, to the max, i am a huge fan of Tiffany.

But because of Taeny's relationship.

I fell for Taeyeon too :)

and also, whenever there's any interaction to be done from Taeyeon to Tiffany.

Taeyeon would normal gets all awkward, whether is physically or not.

why so awkward with someone you call "your member"

unless, you have a crush on that person?

Okay, i might get bash for making this as a reason, but i wasnt.

I mean.

Taeyeon is ultimately adorable whenever she is around Tiffany!

^^

honest.

Someone once asked me.

"if this two were really in a relationship, who do you think plays the male role?"

Lol.

is that even necessary, roles or no role.

that wasn't the matter and that doesnt matter at all, when it comes to love!

But my POV?

Taeyeon would be more protective type of a lover.

Tiffany is much more of a girlish kind of girl, while Taeyeon?

........

She might not be as girlish type of girl like Tiffany.

hahahahaha

but i love how Taeyeon is always true to herself.

doesnt matter, she's cute in any way ^^

I was getting respond like.

"Taeyeon and Tiffany were only doing things like this in public eyes, for the sake of getting attention"

whether their relationship was real or not.

no one can really judge it.

whether they were just faking it for the public eyes or the cameras.

i dont know

*shrugs shoulders*

i think, faking it or not.

the passion that flares in their eyes for each other.

Is not something to be fake about

.....

The way Taeyeon looks at Tiffany, is no joke at all.

nothing that can be fake.

if it is, she's really good in it then.

I think i can go on forever with this topic on hand.

Whether they are real or not.

the answer can never be answered by us fans or locksmith.

only the two that were involve will only know.

There comes another topic about Taeyeon's butt fetish towards Tiffany ;)

it'll be long before i can end my blog about this.

BTW, who wont look, when Tiffany has such glorious butt.

Tae Tae in Miyoung's room :P

nothing special about that.

Well,

Locksmiths.

we are created for some reason.

their interaction can lead us to fantasy or wishes.

their love can lead us into writing fics after fics about them.

their relationship are some of our dream in hope they are really real, like how real they are on stage.

Taeny

Are the reason to make us hope they are also sweet to one another behind the scene.

Some of us might not even be able to afford to see them with another else.

But that is way beyond our controls.

We are only thinking that way, was because, they look good together.

I love Tiffany, that is why i want her to be with someone who will take really good care of her.

Protect and Love her.

odd, that person i imagined, turns out to be Taeyeon.

Hahaha

You dont call me Locksmith for no reason ;)

I only wish to see many many sweetness interaction in between them.

i wont blame them one bit, even when i died due to their sweetness.

I promise.

This is one long blog isnt it?

At the end,

the answer is in your hands.

what can we do, LOCKSMITHS?

P/S :

Sometimes, things remained the same no matter how many years has gone by.

People learns how to appreciate the people and things around them.

when they know how much it meant to them.

My Encounter with T-ara Hyomin @KLIA

Annyeong~~~ Finally have time to update my blog :) smiling happily that is!
Gahhh!! it's been like what? 4 days of the happening, yet, the memory is still fresh like it's yesterday :)
Remember about my previous blog about meeting T-ara girls for their arrival in KLIA?
And Hyominnie waving to me? :) i finally manage to upload the video of her doing so.
For the first time, i got such fanservice from a famous kpop idol ^^
T-ARA ARRIVAL @KLIA
See how super sweet this girl is?? Right!
I melted seeing how she still waves to me although she has need to go, like FAST ^^ and lastly, Jiyeon also wave to me, directly to me :DD <3 even="even" happier.="happier." p="p">But nothing can be compared to all that happened on the day of 4th October 2012, a day which i will never ever forget :') really.
Shall we begin?

I was pretty upset why i didnt go for the showcase, because i seriously cant stop thinking about Hyomin T.T
I was off on the 3rd, quite upset that i cant go.
And then my friend, gives me the idea about sending them off, on the 4th, which is the day they will be leaving for Thailand small concert. I want to go desperately.
So i start texting T-ara fans, asking them what time is their flight, but none can give me an exact answer.
Most of them tell me, early in the morning.
*sigh*
But i wasnt giving up, i mean, like how many times a year can you see T-ara in person right!?
So, i posted about my determination of meeting them once again before they leave Malaysia.
Few of my friends said the same, so we start planning.
I came up with a plan, a very safe plan that i can assure to see T-ara again.
That is to go their hotel and follows them from a distance to KLIA.
I know i know, it sound so stalker-ish, but yeah, i did that and no, i didnt stalk them.
Not like some people == who stalk idols until using motorcycle to drive up to their van ==
Please, if you dont appreciate your life, dont put the girls life in danger! thanks!

My plan was brilliant *smirks* since their flight is in the morning.
I decide to wait at the hotel at 4am +.+ i know, sounded crazy.
you dont know how hard it is for me to get an acknowledgement from both my parents.
But because i was a good girl *COUGH* they allows me ^^
on the night before it happens, i cant sleep == i only manage to doze off at 12am and then around 1am, Seobang called me and said her dad dont let her.
So left me and my friend, Andrew.
At around 3am, i woke up right away and text him, afraid he might not be awake :/
Thankfully, he replied not long after that. So, i got myself ready.

Fudgeeeeeeeee.
I was too excited i forget the BEST POINT.
Let me introduce two characters to you ;)

Meet Rillakumma and Pink Piggy ^^ i got it on the day of my off day.

I heard Eunjung loves bear, so i wanted to get her something, all though she might not be my fav.

So, i bought this Rillakumma for her, is something like what i got for Tiffany Hwang last year.

A pillow and blanket folded inside :) cute right??

I wanted to get something for Jiyeon, but i was thinking, would she even take if i was to pass it to her?

And when i think about her, Hyomin pops up in my mind.

Then i was like, "YES! I MUST GET SOMETHING FOR THAT DARLING!!! SHE'S SO SWEET"

So, i look around the shop, because i had no idea what is her favorite toy.

Then something caught my eyes, this Pink Piggy (it's real name)

It caught my eyes because it was the one and only doll sitting there and i have never seen this doll anywhere before. Honestly, i took some time to pick something out for Hyomin.

But in the end, i pick this, i dont know why, just going according to my feelings :)

Okay, let's go back to 4th October 2012 ;))

We reached J.W Marriot at 5am sharp, waited by the road side in the car. 

Is as quiet as hell :X but i was too anxious to feel like the time has stopped.

Finally, it was 5:15am, Andrew decide to get down from the car and walks to the bus, where it's right outside the hotel, we even feel suspicious about the bus! XD TROLL.

Thank God i was in my jacket, because is quite cold actually.

we saw two malay bus drivers standing there, smoking, Andrew asked is it they are waiting for someone.

The bus driver nod his head say they are waiting for T-ara's crew members :O

we're like! WHAT TIME THEY COMING OUT????

They say 5:30am. but wait wait wait. its 6am. still no sign.

Then i saw two white vans parked and i recognize one of it was the van from KLIA where T-ara arrived that day!! so i knew, they are about to come in anytime soon.

Silly us when we thought only the two of us were waiting, not until we walked into the hotel.

almost 8 of them are in there already XDXD

I had my two gifts in the pink plastic bag.

One hand clutching my phone tightly.

Is not an easy thing to do :X

Until.........i saw Soyeon getting out from the lift, my hands were trembling like crap ==

i panic! but manage to reach out for the big pillow for Eunjung.

All of them had their shades on, so is not easy to recognize them out :x

But of course i can recognize Eunjung-sshi ^^ i passed it to her. and she just.....took it...

Sadly, i didnt got that on tape, never mind :) i was after Hyomin after all.

But they were being ushered out of building by the guards hurriedly.

So i had no chance to spot out Hyominnie.

Rush back to the car and we waited by the road side for them to leave. It was 6am++

yet, they are still at the hotel. I have some feeling, Hyomin was the last to get out from the hotel :x

It was all good when we start following the van, well, we are not the only one.

There was one group of fans, riding Taxi.

and then another one is a father and son in another car, following T-ara too.

so, total is like the three of us.

But i told Andrew to go slower and not too near, because if we dont do that, it will just make T-ara nervous and uncomfortable :/ that's the least i want it to happen.

I think it took about 1 and a half hour to arrive at KLIA.

Andrew had to leave because his mother need to use the car.

:( awww.

When we reached KLIA, it was quite jammed.

So, Andrew ask me to get off car and walk to the gate, if i want to see them fast.

I listen, so i hold Pink Piggy in my arms and get off from the car.

A LOT OF CAR that is >< so i turned around and closes the car door.

Guess what, T-ara's van just right behind us!!!!!

I bet they saw how i ran across the road like a clumsy kid :/ im bad in crossing road.

Trust me, once, i almost knock a car, not a car hit me, but vice versa :X im blurr. i admit.

It was almost 7am++ but i wasnt there alone, many more fans were there.

I meet JY there also, because he too wanna meet my wife, Jiyeon.

My jacket is this ultimate bright yellow color, because i wear it the other way.

I flip it inside out.

Because on the other side, it written TAENY and GIRLS GENERATION.

LOLOLOLOL!!!

But i met Shuhaila there, which is a SONE too :) who happens to love Jiyeon as well!

then i saw a big guy wearing SOSHIFIED shirt :D hahaha! means i am not the only one who is not Queen there :pppppp!!!!

Their van was parked not far from us, but they never get off right away, i think we waited almost half an hour. WHY? because the guards ordered more securities to be on duty >< LOL

Like almost 10++ of securities. They did the thing about securing around with their skinny arms, with the girls in the middle, when finally, the van door opens by manager oppa, fans got excited.

Hyomin was the first to jump off from the car and people were starting to go "ooooooooo~~~~"

and then i was like "kyaaa~ Hyomin ahhh" she turns to us, smiling and waving.

then ask us not to scream XD we did as she told, we become quiet but cheering softly.

Well, not everyone will apply that on to them.

People started to push me a little from behind, but i stayed strong on my ground.

I walk slowly, because i was waiting for one particular person ;)

At last, she came into my view, Hyomin was the last to go from the group, so she was behind, at the end.

I walked beside her and show her piggy calling her softly :X like a yeoja.

lol. my voice is normally, deep and rough, but i was like "Hyomin aaaa"

where the hell did that come from? I GOT NO IDEA.

One of the guard is super mean! he even covered my lens from filming o0o okay! dont be rude now :p

But i was too excited to even care..he pushed my doll away from Hyomin, i frowned.

and Hyomin was quite displeased, since i was one of her fans, she smiles, nodding her head and reaches out her hand, signalling me to give it to her. I was like "GOMAWO HYOMIN AAAA" and passes Piggy to her.

she hugs it close to her chest and i walked by her side :) remaining my calm.

while some people were actually screaming things like.

"HYOMIN CAN I TOUCH YOU?"

"HYOMIN CAN I SHAKE YOUR HAND?"

"JIYEON CAN I HOLD YOUR HAND?"

I was like, what the fuck is with you people == does that really satisfy you???

But then, they decide to be rude and i saw some people reaching out to touch Hyomin by her shoulders.

One girl were trying to break the group entry >< (that's what the fans told me)

The guard took hold of her and fling her across :X SCARY!

but manager oppa told the guards not to do that.

But the fan girl was too much anyway, honest.

I didnt get pushed or scold by the guards, because all i did was Hyomin ahh, Hyomin there XD
That's all, neither did i even reach out to touch her.

why would i do something that is disrespectful? why should i???

Then, there is guy (from Morocco, i'll tell you why later how i know where he's from)

Came up close behind me, he was handing out his T-ara album to Hyomin and asked for her signature.

She took the album hesitantly, but she was willing to sign.

Sadly, when she tried to open the marker cover, the guard snatches the album off from her and roughly passes it back to the boy :((

even i feel bad for him! the guard is too rude this time!

He was on the edge of aegyo pleading when he calls out for Hyomin again in disappointment.

Hyomin gave him eyes signal and they quickly passes the album!

the whole scene was cute but nope, i didnt got it on tape :x

She signed. and i was beside her the whole time ^^

But then, the marker was running out of ink and she was like showing her cute face,

saying there's not much ink, but she did signed it anyway :)

I reaches into my jacket pocket for my Sharpie, which were inside because i wrote a card for Hyomin and Eunjung :) i took it out. and then i realize, i got nothing for Hyominnie to sign D;

But then, i took out my phone and passes it to her :DD i said "hyomin~~~sign, jeballll~~~"

she took it, smiling, (she was walking really slow) and signed it.

GOSH!!! My hands were trembling weihhhhh~~~~ T.T i cant believe i have her signature!!!

I was so shock and scare and anticipated that i forget about my recording in the pocket :( my camera was left in there for a long time.

I manage to pull it back out and record before she checks in :)

I guess she recognize me since i was by her side all the time.

I ran to the front and guess what, i finally see the cute small size Boram!

hahaha! she was standing in the front at the middle.

She is shorter than me!!! but girl~~~ you need to eat!!

CCM!! FEED HER SOMETHING ><

I cant help but to shout out, "BORAM KYUPTAAAAA"

she smiled shyly and replied something in Korean which i do not understand :/ because i want to see Hyomin again, i ran to the back LOL.

T-ARA CLOSE UP KLIA

Watch the video above ^^ Boram is recorded, maybe some of you can tell me what she say?
:D hehehehe!

As i was making my way back, i had to stopped because the fans were crowding, i look to my right side and Soyeon looks at me at the same time, i bows my head a little she smiles and waves and left.

Then Qri and Ahreum manage to wave to me as well when they see me bowing to each of them :X

they must be thinking i am one kpop freak! XD

When Jiyeon passes by, i said out loud "yahhh~ Jiyeon ahhhh~ nomu yeoppo"

But saddening part was when i said that, it sounded like i sang SHINee's Noona Nomu Yeoppo ><

she was about to crack up, but she bows and smiles, waving as she passes by me.

Oh yeah, Eunjung left my gift in the van i guess, cos she has no longer carry the Rillakumma pillow with her when she is in the airport. Gwenchana :/

We stopped at the check in, which is where only people with plane tickets only can enter.

I was feeling heavy in the heart when i see them about to leave.

I want to see Hyomin even longer if possible!

I stood by her side again and said Bogoshipo once, but i dont think she heard it.

and then i was like "Hyominnnnn.........Saranghaeeeee...."

She looks at me, smiling, and uses Piggy to wave at me (which you can see it later in the vid)

I was happy she knew whose the one gave her the toy ^^

and surprisingly, i wasnt shy to say out that i love her.

I mean, i dont just simply say i love someone. especially OUT LOUD. and i was the only one who said that to her that day >< embarrassing!!!

A fan passes his iphone to Hyomin to Selca. she did!!!

WOW!! ENVY WEIH!!! she is so sweet to do so! dont you think so?? hehehe!

And us being as a fan, runs to places that they will pass by.

Oh yeah, they were at ground floor and we were looking at them from an upper floor.

they stopped at one place to look at their passport, checking it.

I runs to the balcony and call out for Hyomin :) she looks up and we change eyes contact again.

she was smiling and using Piggy to wave at me as T-ara slowly leave and make their way to the check luggage terminal. 

We ran into some certain quiet place, where we can see them lining up.

waiting for their turn to be checked.

I got some nice certain spot, to record them ^^ whereby, they didnt know at all.

that we are up there, because there are this huge soundproof glasses around us.

is useless for us to call or shout.

cos they really cant hear us, we tried.

Eunjung use her Rillakumma to fight Piggy XD so cute! and she was laughing as well.

They are definitely talking about Piggy.

I want to know D; !!!!!!! hahahaha!

Overall of the whole video, i realize, Hyomin quite like Piggy :D

Which makes me HAPPY of course ^^ i hope Piggy will have the luck to go back with her to Korea<3 p="p">

This simple request :)

Her Selca that day ^^ look at my Piggy :)) like a super star!!!

Hyomin put her glasses on for Piggy! CUTE!!! hehehehe!!!

Not long after that, Hyomin, Eungjung and Jiyeon realizes about us!

hahahah! who is up there, waiting for them :3

they start waving, i was so damn pleased, that Hyomin saw me AGAIN!!

so much personal love fan service from Hyomin to me!!!

Jiyeon checked in and was Hyomin's turn...look at her....

That frown :( im gonna miss you too, hyomin ahhhhhh~~~~

How i know she recognize me? well, she start showing me piggy again!

using piggy to wave to me ^^ i dont need to tell, the video will show you everything :D

Seriously, when it was her turn, to put down her bag and piggy as well, i can hear my heart, dropping to the ground :'( i miss her already. honestly. i am not being mushy and all, but i really miss her already.

how i wish i can see her more!!!

But all things good must come to an end, and i know we can meet again someday :)

The best thing she ever gave me?

THIS

NO ONE CAN NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS SWEETIE!!!!!!!!

how can i not love her?!?!? she did this curve hands into heart shape, towards me!

I fall hard for her >.> jinja..hyomin ahhh~ what have you done to me <3 .="." p="p">

I LOVE YOU TOO! if i was to have both hands free, but wasnt, i would've reply her with what she did.

T-ARA HYOMIN FANCAM @KLIA WITH PINK PIGGY

watch the video ^^ you'll find her sweet too<3 p="p">

things ended and i was already missing her, but what is best?

I cant believe i have her precious signature :)

Pretty signature with a tiara in it :) mmmm!

This is one of my precious treasure....of course, i no longer use this cover and decide of wanting to frame this. Shall look for a frame for this, because a lot of people ask me to do so, before the signature fades D;

preserver worrrrr~ kekekeke! Thank you God, thank you Goddess Hyomin :)

Change to new cover :)

Oh yeah, i finally, for the first time, change my wallpaper to someone else which is not from SNSD

>< dont get me wrong, i am still a SONE, but...these few days, i am still stuck with Hyomin.

What to do :( Im in love :) nyahhahaahahaha!!!!

My Goodness x.x so pretty!

even my colleagues say so!! :D

Right? Right?

Ck was jealous though :p

and yet, this is still my wallpaper! hahaha! i love looking at it whenever i unlock my phone!

i even had a twitter account to follow her account >.> although all in korean.

Pffffft~~~

So, i can tell you, overall, my life is GOOD.

whether is friends or colleagues or family :) things are running smoothly and well.

but the best is, we are all laughing together.

== BUT! ever since this Hyomin incident with me.

People around me, who knows what happened, said the same thing...

"SO YOU LIKE HYOMIN NOW??? NO MORE TIFFANY LAA???"

even my parents say so == jinja~~

no. honestly, i still love Tiffany the most.

Hyomin...ah, she's my first love for T-ara :D

so no. i am not changing my fav. Tiffany is my forever love y'all<3 p="p">

My Top 2! ^^

Nothing change, okay, Hyomin is on my Top 3 though :x hahahaha!

dont blame me for loving that sweet girl ;)

Wow, i blogged a long one today. *wipes sweats off forehead*

I am not feeling well from the past week already >.> fallen sick.

Sorethroat, flu, cough, nose stuck, headache, fever, stomach pain.

WOW! you guys seriously miss me, visit me at the same time >.> dammit.

thanks for reading ^^ byeeeee

P/S :

we might just start talking to each other, when i already know you a year before.

i dont know why you can be so insecure about things.

loving you is not just were words, those were mentally and physically true.

do you have anything say for yourself? you asked.

well yeah.

I still love you, lots and it keeps on increasing ;)

you do know how much cute you are whenever you frowns, makes me want to pinch your cheeks and nose!

but hey, although is cute, but just keep in your mind.

you always look better whenever you smile

I super love you!!

My bii and me >< really! everyday sure laugh laugh laugh~

what am i to do when he leaves me??

D;

My First Encounter with TARA ^^

I knew they were coming on the 2th, but i never actually plan to go. 

But then, a friend of mine asked me whether i want to go or not, i was hesitating.

So, i text a few of my close friend whether they want to come with me or not, cos i do want to see Jiyeon ^^

It was about 5, when i was confirmed of heading to KLIA to meet the T ARA girls :)

:( i was like in a serious rush, running, yes, running to the bookshop to grab some board and stuffs to make a fanboard.

Of course, if i was to go, i want Jiyeon to spot me out, so i knew, i had to do something about it.

I was rushing like hell seriously! i even snipped some part of my index finger skin D; since my friend will come pick me up at 730pm.

After every thing was done finally, we headed our way to KLIA right away!

Is quite far actually, like highway after highway, but after 1 hour and 30 minutes, we finally reach.

I caught up with a few friends of mine (SEOBANG :DD) a SONE friend, yes :p hehehe.

We were walking around in the airport terminal, wondering where they will come out from.

Finally, we sees people giving out free Yellow Balloons ^^ with T ARA's name printed on it

It was my first encounter with the Queens as well :) overall, i say they are quite nice, a few of them.

They were friendly enough to ask around if we have got the balloon or not, or do we want it :)

I am a SONE, but i can tell you, not all SONE can be nice to one another (LOL! sad but TRUE case)

So, i had this feeling that they will come out from the right side, but then, everyone is literally standing in the middle.

so, i had no choice but to follow what majority of my friends suggest.

we waited for an hour plus, but i can tell you, it is definitely worth of waiting.

Queens were literally cheering at each and every person who came out, when i see korean man (pilot) coming out, i knew, T ARA is somewhere in there!

My heart was beating like crazy, oh yeah :/ i wore a I LOVE TAENY SHIRT >< i thought i could get killed.

I even screamed Taeyeon's name randomly :X kekekeke!

I seriously cant wait to see Jiyeon, my all time beauty wife from T ARA !! hehehehe.

That's when i heard loud screams coming over from my right side, like, the exit were really far from where i am standing.

And yes, i am a midget :X so, people were blocking my camera view.

i had no choice but to step in, i was so close to them, but then, minutes before i know it.

Queens got crazy for their girls, and was literally pushing forward, wanting to get closer to the girls.

so, being in front of them, i was left with no choice but to let them push me :(

A korean man which was escorting T ARA out, pushes me with his arm asking me to back off, but i cant! 

is not that i didnt want to, is i cant. In the end, police and securities came over and seriously push all of us away.

I was recording with my phone the entire time.

I was seriously shaking the entire time, they were just right in front of me OKAY!!

I started shouting, JIYEON JIYEON, like real loud, i believe it was heard, because.....

Hyomin turns to look over at me, she waves at me ^^ i was shock, but i manage to wave back, smiling like a little girl whose eyes sparkles when she sees beautiful candy :p i guess Hyomin think i was a kid, she smiles at me, waving her hands a few times.

Until i.... UNCONSIOUSLY bows my head at her, i think she'll think i am a crazy kpop fan, but guess what.

She smiled and bows back at me :)))) Hyomin ahhhh~ why so sweet!!!

I kept on shouting for Jiyeon's name, louder each time, my voice was literally at the edge of begging her to look over at me.

But no, she didnt and she was standing right next to Hyomin.

I guess Hyomin realizes how disappointed i was? because she touch Jiyeon's wrist a few times and nod at my direction.

But no luck, Jiyeon kept her head down most of the time.

You must be wondering, how come there's time for all this to happen? well. Some Queens block their way and securities were having small difficulties of making way for T ARA to leave. So, at that time, Hyomin was doing all the fanservice thing, waving around.

I took my chances to look at all the members.

I saw Soyeon! hahaha! she was quite small size, she has her dark glasses on, so i can really see her face. but she is surprisingly lovely.

As in smiling all the time :) then i saw Qri i think. i dont know.

But then, Eunjung caught my eyes as well, cos she was in the middle and she was hugging a huge rilakkuma :)

then the back was Hyomin and Jiyeon.

Sadly, i didnt get to see Boram AT ALL >< maybe because she's like really too small :) which is totally cute!

Back to my story.

So, it took some time for the securities to make way.

I was definitely blown away how sweet Hyomin was! she was smiling all the way, i bet her gums hurt. but she's absolutely super sweet.

Let me tell you one thing, all i care was Jiyeon before this. I am not a Queen. So yes, my favorite was Jiyeon.

even when Hyomin was smiling at me, i smiled back but shouted for Jiyeon's name instead :/ which made me feel bad.

because, Hyomin was looking at me D; but then, she'll understand :) she has her fans too!

I was lucky, as the security start loosening at my side, and i see they were about to leave.

I took the advantage and goes really close to T ARA members, although they are securely guarded.

but, if i wanted to reach out and touch them, i could. But i wont, cos that will just scares them and is pretty disrespectful!

Hahaha.

So, seeing them leaving, my heart breaks, i came close to them.

I shouted, HYOMIN. Hell yeah, this sweetie pie turns around and smiles to me, waving again as she leaves.

I was shouting for her name again and again, totally giving up on Jiyeon already since i didnt get her response.

Even when Hyomin was left ahead of me already and security was blocking me.

the sweet thing she did was, still waving to me, although she is urge to leave fast :')

guess what, i took my last chances and screamed slightly desperately? haha. For Jiyeon.

She turns around, FINALLY, smiling to me and wave as well.

But want to know what's the best part? I GOT IT ALL ON MY PHONE VIDEO :)

such a close up video of Hyomin and Jiyeon ^^ happy!!!!!!!!

Seeing they were ushering out. i took the other way, running out, to the cars.

Awaiting for them to get in.

Yes, i was close to them again. but then, i failed to record any video of them getting into the van :/ cos my fingers were trembling

and i was literally being push around although i shouted for them to stop and let TARA go.

but :/ hahaha, yeah right, like they'll listen.

Jiyeon took off her shades once she's in the van, while at the other side, Soyeon was waving goodbye to the fans.

I chased the van for quiet awhile, in hope they will turn back and look.

but nope, guess they were tired.

It was one unexplainable feelings. and i was lucky to have gone through this. although is tiring. my back is all sore right now.

But definitely worth it.

and at the end of the day :) hehe, i am in love with Hyomin.

Her smile, her kindness, makes her all so sweet!! and i cant help but to love her! :D

If i get to meet them again, i swear i'll get something for Hyomin :)

I was wondering, what reaction i would get, if i was to shout at Hyomin, Lee Soon Kyu? kekekeke! should've done that when i could!!

Overall, it was wonderful.

P/S : Uploading the video now >< shall take awhile. will link it here later ^^

a BIG whoops :x hahahaha

copying the whole blog from this note > My First Close Up Encounter With TARA

simple quckie update

I seriously cant believe doctor expect me to stop eating CHICKEN for the whole 6 months!!
So, it's goodbye to KFC and Spicy McChicken Burger :(( WAE!!
aish!
It's been almost 2 months of my grandma passing, at times, i still miss her, i admit it here.
Is like, whenever i see any grandma on the street, it reminded me of her. the times i have with her.
I finally have my own time, sitting in front of the laptop and keep an update on my blog :x
two days off straight aint enough >< hahahaha!
E-E-E-ELECTRIC SHOCK :p LOL, randomness, mian, i was listening to it right now.

Life has been good so far :) the bond of mine and colleagues has grown better.
we were literally making a promise to go out one whole group for an outing at least once a month!
hahaha!
Working life is good, but honestly, i would like to earn some cash that could buy a house for my parents in the future, that's my aim and wish, as simple as that. So.....i decide to look around and i found one, which would be GOOD BYE MALAYSIA for a year or two :D will take this advantage to travel and learn new cultural :) and hopefully, when i came back, things will go smoothly, so we'll be heading to Korea for a 2 weeks trip. its all in plan. so, hopefully. God is on my side.

TIFFANY HWANG~~ TAEYEON AHHH~~ JESSICA JUNG~~
WAIT FOR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE XD hehehehehehe!!
Talking about them, maybe i should post a few pictures?
OH YES!! before that! i had one of my best dream ever :3
i dreamed that everyone was worried to make the call, what call? a call to wake Jessica Jung up XD LOL.
so i did it and to hear her sleepy voice, with her walking to me, rubbing her eyes, still looking sleepy.
ITS ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE!!!!! i woke and still smiling about what i dreamed :3 hehehe!

Yes, i gasp when i see this picture.
You know, i always fight strong that i LIKE jessica instead of LOVE.
Love is not just a word, is something like a commitment too :) i can say i love Tiffany and Taeyeon.
is because that's how i really feel about them.
But if this continues, i swear it wont take long for me to be able to say "I LOVE JESSICA JUNG"
dont get me wrong, she's a sweet darling :) *looks at picture* sweet hottie :p

Congrats chocolate marshmallow honeypie !
Well, she has finally got her car license in just 3 days! :) proud of my girl.
Now you can finally drive around with Tae Tae by your side, alright?
careful when you are driving. Gosh, i could just die for her with her look here! So....so....PUPPY-LICIOUS!!

 MC DREAMY!!!!!!! hahahaha! no offence, Tae Tae is a gorgeous looking lady, but you cant deny, she's a hot male!! Goshhhhh!!! spazz!!! XD hehehehe.

When can i see Taeny again? when i can i meet my maknae?
:) i really hope things will goes smoothly, if there's a future. by means 2012 wont end ><
then if it does, visiting my maknae wont be a problem anymore :DD

28 alphabets and 5 words.
Is all that its needed to put a smile on my face :)
Yeah, i was rather free the other day at work, i start scribbling things on paper.
i was continuously writing SMTown3 =-= until i got frustrated, i tore so much paper.
at the end, i stare at the blank paper for awhile, until, i wrote this....i smiled again :)
a true story kay~

I've posted this picture before in my fb, stating how cute she is....

 She's cute right!?!?!?!
well......something were shown in my news feed this morning and i was staring at it for awhile.

*COUGHjessica-is-mineCOUGH*
like shock right? but why shock, i would certainly get this toy myself too.
yeah, is just a coincidence, that's all. NO JAESICA okay ._. hahahahaha!
but okay fine, they two does look good together :/
rumors about them last time. i bet there will be another rumors stir up after this XD
but alright. he suits her, so i dont have a problem with that, BUT PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM MY TAENY THANK YOU!!!!

 So, they say life is a mystery, no actually Sunny sang it XD
well, is sort of true, you will never know who and when you will get betray.
no matter how much you love and care about that person. they can turn around and slash you in the back anytime, just to get what they want.
I wont blame you, for your silliness to get the attention you are craving for.
what you did was hurtful.
but :) it's alright. it just made me realize what i have around me, who are the ones that really are still there for me. If playing this tactic was for you to get more attention from her, go ahead.
but. dont forget, she's not that dumb to just listen.
but i can promise you one thing, if you hurt her in any way, i swear, you will see the other side of mine.
which you have never expected to.
I honestly, want to keep quiet and solve things out as quick as possible.
Is not my fault if the universe is going against what i want at this moment.
And, i dont need anyone to trust what i say, really. Judge yourself.

The wink virus has get to me i guess :x
dont get me wrong, i dont wink all the time, maybe just in pictures and during dance practice :x
it comes naturally OKAY!!

THIS IS SO DAMN TRUE!!!!!!
things happens for a reason, the point is, if i was to be able to give a chance to wipe things off.
will i?
I wont, i'll still let things happen the way it did. although it hurts.
but, all of these only proves who and what should stay by my side.
So, is alright, at least i gain the truth after all these happens :D
Right maknae? yeah, you must be nodding your head.
After all these, shows that i really have one maknae, that loves me as much as i love her.
not a one sided love ^^ *blush* hahahaha!
you start working already, so, take good care of yourself, i know you will :) love you!
drink lots of water. and always is ALWAYS, make sure you have enough rest yourself.


Until then, signing off, love you Tiffany :p

lazy

I am going to use all of my AL even before next year CNY comes XDXD.
This is what happened when you are used of taking long term leaves :x
What is going on with me, B.A.P and EXO's songs are getting to me o.O
Warrior, No Mercy and MAMA is definitely recommended :)) yummy songs!

Jannnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggg~~~~~~ ^^

My wife! I love it whenever she has her hair put it that way! makes her even sexier ;)
Oh yeah! To all SME lovers out there, SMTown3 is confirmed to be happening in Singapore.
Beautiful location too! Marina Bay :3
Took out the calculator and click to it numerous of times but failed to be able to save the $ since i have a car to pay every month now ><" aint easy, even if i skipped lunch.
Maknae once again offers to pay for my tix.
But i told her not to, things should be vice versa :/ im your unnie, im working, while you are still a student.
She told me, a concert would never be the same if i wasnt there, beside, her hubby might not be going.
But since we promised that we'll attend the concert as the Asian Taeny, we decide to attend SNSD concert together next time.
I turned down the offer because.....like i said, I jinja love and care about you, and so, i wont let you do so.
Besides, is SMTown, i know...i can meet donghae, my boa and girlfie of Krystal from F(x) but but but...
wife is always first place and first reason in my heart ;) besides, snsd is going to perform a few songs only.
But i have the urge of feelings that TTS are going to perform D;
but oh well, i always believe in fate, like how much i believe in karma!
If i have the fate with Hwang Mi Young, we will meet again, we will see each other in the eyes together again :)

Right? Right~ :) i do miss seeing her in person, hwang miyoung ahh. SARANGHAE!
^^ well..............hope so :)

Give me a reason not to love Kim Tae Yeon.
Gosh!! her dorkiness! herself! i just love almost everything about her!
her having to see Tiffany :3 adore adore adore...kekekekeke!
I think what i love most about her, is how she is never afraid to be honest about her thoughts and opinion.
That's what i love most about her...she's like literally the most cutest person alive!



Here it comes :)

SOSHI JJANG!
Their latest music video of OH! in jap version.
I find this version much more nicer? well. The varsity jacket is amazing!
I WANT TO GET ONE OF IT! since i have the korean version one, must as well get this version right?
but this time, i dont want the short type of jacket, i would like to get something that i can wear when i go out.
the korean version one must go along with singlet.
beside, this one has nice color :D a must get! hahahaha


Came back from an early in the morning outing today, so i am rather still tired and wanting to sleep.
woke up at 5am.
for what?
an outing to Shah Alam. planned by colleagues. since we have a public holiday together and our centre is close for a day, is a hard to get chances. so we decided to go for bicycle riding and picnic lunch in the park located in Shah Alam.

Trust me, if you want to go there, go earlier to grab the bicycles ><
we waited for an hour i think and finally got it :) we were like kids, excited, getting on the bicycle, cheering.
12 people, but only 9 were riding the bicycles. so you can imagine the havoc and *coughcomplainscough*
There's like uphill and downhill, the first part were fun, until it goes to the uphill, i have to get off from the bike to push the bike instead >< cos i was going backwards!
i LOL hard when i see the rest of the 6 girls behind me, my friends laa, got off bike and push like me as well.
XDXD i swear, only go for the bicycle if you have a strong stamina from your thighs.
Because i have super low blood pressure, over tired or laughing too much can instantly cause my face to become red immediately >< like seriously.
and when i stop, my face immediately becomes pale, especially when i have fair skin.
ah bii said "you ah...your skin is too fair until like a patient just came out from hospital lo" =_="
go around the big park, it took us about 1 hour and 30 minutes.
when we return the bicycle, we were like, checking ourselves whether got slim down or not.
i was like "i feel like the 10th member of SNSD" making everyone burst out laughing.
i pointed one of my friend and say, "wah! like sooyoung ahhh!!"
they knew perfectly well all the members of SNSD, why? how come? all thanks to ME :p
hahahaha!

well, can you blame the person who has a 160 videos of girls generation in her handphone?

KEKEKEKEKE!

My BIAS :)) i really miss you both!
oh yeah, i seriously love how Tiffany ties her hair in ALL MY LOVE IS FOR YOU music video!
so adorable! please let me take her home *puppy eye + begging*
such an amazing person! i mean, no words can properly describe her.
Tiffany Hwang.
All i can say is, you need time to really fall in love with this girl when you know her better.
I mean, everyone would choose Yoona out of all 9.
Yoona is good.
but Tiffany? well, she is someone you have to know better to love.
and when you does, there is no way you would change your feelings against her.
Tiffany Hwang, an amazing gift from God.


There is this one person, which really gives me special vibe about her.
People say she has no emotion at all and at times, she might even space out.
hahaha! i think some of you might've guess who i am talking about?
:) she's cute if you knows her well. especially when she is shy!
her smile is pretty too, she is someone you want to keep loving if you know her better.
someone you want to be with?
who else?
other than her....

Jessica Jung.
When i first saw this picture on my news feed, one word, WOW.
Looking at the first picture made me smile XD
2nd picture makes me go~ oooooohhhhhhhhhhh~~~~ :Q__________
the last picture makes me wants to rub my knuckles against her forehead, shoooo cute!!!
SEXSICA
;) aint a wrong nickname at all, suits you well, Sooyeon ah<3 p="p">and NO, i am not cheating =_= just because i gives compliments at other snsd members means im gonna cheat on Tiffany kay~ noooooo, no one can make me betray my wife :) that is what i strongly believe about.

Tiffany ahh, i really want to meet you :(
IMY ILY IWY

ugh, im pretty tired.
Kudos, night!

i miss snsd :(

I am dead this time, i miss Girls Generation a lot lately :'(
when can i see them again? why cant they come Malaysia! can go Philippines but not Malaysia.
Hahaha! Lucky PSones! :) enjoy....
Tiffany Hwang, i seriously miss this girl.
Eottoke, i miss her so badly that i've been dreaming about her for almost a week already.
Once, i dreamed there's LeeTeuk and maknae and Tiffany.
Leeteuk and maknae was holding hands, we were chatting happily.
i do not remember in what language == ahaaa
and Tiff was beside me, shoulder to shoulder o.O hehehehe!
just why cant i stay a little longer in that dream HUH!

dont feel like blogging :/ haha~
well, i can give advice and suggestion.
but when one person is really depress and if they start crying, i will get all panic mode ==
IKR! WTF~
but i get panic and nervous at the same time geh == all i can do is lend my shoulders to them and comfort them by patting their back ._. mian maknae<3 be="be" for="for" i="i" p="p" really="really" there="there" to="to" want="want" you.="you.">I really tried...but know no matter what, when you need someone, i'll be there.
i promise, even if the whole world is against you. i will be there for you.
cheer up la :) <3 ily="ily" p="p">

My boy, leng zai? hahahaha!
Isnt tae tae delicious looking here? wow, i sound like a hungry lioness ==
LOL! but there isnt a perfect guy like her out there isnt it.
beside, she is reserve for Fany.
:p
I think the whole point is that, i want a guy that could stick up to his promises.
as simple as that.
but most of them cant. so like yeah. being single is the right decision and choice after all.
if you have great friends around, you will never feel lonely.
never.
so yeah :)






Lovebite on the neck, being naughty.
all the time, throughout the whole conversation, there was no denial.
i mean, if it wasnt you who did it, you would deny it BUT, nothing.
so.......yeah x) kekekekeke!









hey gorgeous, i love you!
yes, im talking about you, hwang mi young!

Tiffany Hwang is AMAZING

Why the random sudden post?
well, it isnt as random as it is..
I have to admit, i do miss you, Tiffany Hwang.
Our first encounter during, Singapore's concert..
I doubt you'll remember, how i was screaming for you at the top of my lungs.
How i was screaming to get your attention, to just see you looking at my way.
i gave up when you kept waving to the audience above, sort of not realizing me, the one standing in the pit zone :/ the moment i saw you, i was blessed, happy enough, that i brought my hands down and stopped yelling, but the moment i did that and i told her, a friend of mine,
"she didnt hear us i guess...forget it"
Somehow, God has heard me, you turned around to look into my direction.
Doing a shooting sign with your hand, during hoot, you SHOOT me with your famous eyesmile.
And then you ran away, cutely.
But you did not realize, soon after you did that and left, you left me frozen in the spot.
I was stunned, my friend beside me was staring at me with disbelief.
I was lucky, lucky to have you did that to me.
But sadly, no filming was allowed and stupid me, obeyed the rules..
If i would've been naughty and neglected the rules, i would've have a big joy of my life..
To record such lucky scene.


I threw the totoro doll to you, you picked it up and left it at the corner of the stage.
shaking your head towards me.
saying, "no throwing dolls please" but i just hope you wont think of me badly, as i just wants you to have it, im sorry if i made you upset that night, for throwing the doll second time.
But seein you on stage, makes me find it hard to even breathe.


Tiffany, i know this is going to sound crazy, might sound even creepy.
But i just really miss you and wish to see you again.
This time, not losing any chances, but at least have a picture of you, taken by myself...
or a video..
interactions between us two? were left as memories in my mind.
I swear, i'll take it to my grave :)

Can we ever meet again?
please....

Here's a video of Tiffany leaving KLCC that day.
I happens to record her a little..
HERE
Tiffany, i miss you...can we meet again...just a picture is enough :) enough to make me smile for a long long longgggggggggggggg time...

Sigh, i sounded silly...what are the odd chances :/
anyway, you can always count on me, on supporting you!
for as long as you want :D