SNSD FTW

I think it is still very impressing when people says to me

"hey,die hard fan of SNSD" or "why do you love your Tiffany so much ah?"

"you big crazy fan of SNSD" or "aiyor~ everyday also snsd snsd SNSD"

LOL,mostly...of course is my friends who says so to me :)

but i guess some people dont really understand how amazing this girls can be isnt it?

i remember how one of my friend said to me "why them!nothing special also"

and he ended up loving the after watching just watching one of their videos on Youtube.

To other people,it might still be a question mark to them to see how supportive Sones are.

How we go crazy if we were to hear anyone saying out SNSD's name.

How sones would back them up if we are to hear any bad talk about them.

How we forgives soshi although at times they might make mistakes.

because after every single thing,they are still humans..

they tends to make mistakes too.

one hell of an amazing humans with incredible talents. ^^

i think i really look at them (especially tiffany) A LOT.

How they have got the determination in them.

How humble they were despite how famous they are getting.

How they are together as one when they are 9 of them.

How their love shows out on stage or on camera.

How they dont give up during their hard times.

How talented they are.

How cute they were doesnt matter how old they are.

How their voice touches our heart from the inside.

How their dance choreography stick into our mind like a glue.

How we listen to their song every single day.

How we keep talking about them.

How they always manage to put a smile on our face.

How they bring all the people from around the world to come together as one.

How they have change our life.

This are just part of the reason,if you want more,you'll have more (;

I remember when they were to perform in taiwan for about 30songs

if im not mistaken.

and they were actually caught lip-sync on stage for like 3 songs out of 30.

and how audience said they were disappointed?

wanna know whats my opinion...really want to know?

"Well,dont be so stupid bitches.is just 3 songs for heaven sake you idiots.

If you are Sone a fan,you wouldnt mind.

Come on,suckers! they are wearing heels! like how many cm heels,dancing around,walking around,jumping around...of course they have to lip-sync cause they are out of breathe!

If you're not a dancer and didnt experience any of this...dont know about it...i think you ought to shut your mouth rather than talking so much..cos is just proves you are nothing but an idiot"

As for me,honestly,i know how many people pay to hear their real voice.

but for me...

i just want to see them smiling,enjoying their performance.

So it really doesnt matter for me <3

Like they said..

if you really love one person,you will never matters what they do..

besides,its not like they did something criminal...

I love them forever.

When your dream turns to nightmare instead

i was watching a korean channel yesterday

its regarding about how people chase for their dreams on being a singer or dancer

or is what you can all,an Idol.

how people start to go through audition after one another

failing and crying but never tends to give up in the end.

Just like how WooYoung from 2PM auditioned for 5 times to get into JYP

"never give up"

But does anyone know what they have to go through before being an Idol.

What they have do?

Is all being expose by a girl in the show during the interview.

They have their face censored,changing her voice too.

This happens to everyone who wants to be a singer or dancer.

They have to pay some certain amount 1st to the company.

Minimum $4000

and to sign on a contract that the money is not refundable

Well,i know some of you think paying to the company ahead 1st is nothing.

because if they are famous...

they get back lots.

Little did anyone know that SUJU's members.

After debuting their famous hit,Sorry Sorry.

They are only getting $500 per YEAR

for each member.

This is true indeed as it was confirmed by one of the unknown insider.

"ah,they will earn more now,since they are more famous already"

?

isnt Sorry Sorry a BIG HIT and yet still getting that amount?

well,lets just pray they have better pay now...

that goes for all idol groups.

They also manage to interview another girl.

who had her dreams being crush.

She said it was after a few days of rehearsing...

one of her manager bring her out for a dinner.

He poured her a glass of korean beer in a cup.

asking her to drink it.

and she did.

but he continuously refilling the cup full and ask her to drink it.

Forced her.

He said this is part of the journey.

In the end,the manager tape over her mouth and start harassing her.

"you wont be able to be famous if you dont sleep around"

thats what the manager said..

indirectly,saying that all idols will have sex to get to the top.

He start pulling her pants off and trying to take her top off too.

but in the end she fought.

and ran away.

and that was the end of her career and also dreams.

No one will ever knows whether or not did all the idols go through

with the same treatment for them to get to the top

for them to do what they always dream of.

but my point here is.

We always only manage to look at the outside of an idol.

but we can never know what happened from the inside.

Do you all seriously think,that all idols are going to be happy.

Yeah,on stage perhaps..

when they see how fans cheer for them.

But what about them going out and not having any privacy anymore?

Not being to go anywhere freely without getting annoying paparazzi (fans at times)

Camera in their face at times.

or how rumors were spreading about them.

but we all know what worst thing can happen.

ANTIS

thats right.

our idol has suffered and go through enough hard obstacles,

to stand where they are today.

no appreciation instead harsh words and comments.

how do they feel.

please..

doesnt matter if you are a Sone or Elf or Shawol or Cassiopeia

or any other group fans.

never ever bash on other groups.

If you hate their fans instead of them,then bash the FANS instead.

our idol has work their butts off to give what they can to us.

to put a smile on our face

and what we can do

is show how much we support and love them...

I will for sure be a Sone forever and ever :)

thats the reality.

ZE:A DongJun having a crush on SNSD Taeyeon

Thats right.
This aint a rumor...but for the fact his,leader from ZE A announce it out loud!
What happened was i just so happen to watch Dream Team Season2 which has him in it.
And being a different team with his leader JunYoung isnt a good thing after all.
Being competitive against one another.
JunYoung came out saying "our maknae,dongjun has a big crush from one of the girl group"
Which makes all the dream team players starts guessing.
(so,does me and my sister)

Me: o.O (snsd?)
Sis: SNSD~

and the host said "you dont have to say the name of the group,just tell us how many members is the group"
and JunYoung said 9...which causes DongJun to have big reaction..being shy and everything.

Me:(jumps up) No!!!!!~
Sis: Hah!!
Me:No~~~

and one of the member from dream team start dancing HOOT to embarrass DongJun even more..
Feeling rather very shy,DongJun hides his red face..
one of the host said to him "dont try to act all taeyeon(calm)"
XD

Me:ah~thank god not tiffany :)
Sis:i was hoping it to be Yuri :(

and how me and my sister keeps agreeing that they a match too...
i mean,dongjun is seriously adorable. so does our dorky leader :)
but i had in my mind that dongjun seems to be a little too young.
So,this morning,i search for his profile and dear me -.- he's a '92
LOL....
Ah~ but i still its not a bad thing,they'll be the cutest pair up!
^^
what matters more than love? age doesnt matters when you fall in love :p
hehehehe!

wondering did they both take picture together before?
here it is to end your suspicion.

He still look like a big sis to him though... i dont know.

but i definitely dont mind this two being together.. XD

besides...

he's short and he has great eye smile and abs too (:p)

Blemish Clearing Serum the only product that gives me great results!

Basically,i can call this my hero of the product..

It was back last year 2010,when i was starting to work in Juice Beauty itself.

So,i had a few customer which i attended told me how this product here really works..

But being just a 20 year old teenager,i was taken back by the price..

I was used to use,T9..and lots,well...whatever medium price of product you can find in Watson or Gurdian..

Well,thats typical of human right? its a nature for us to go for something which we think we can only afford.

I dare say,I've been using those products for about...since i was 18? so its like,2 to 3 years.

In fact,its true...how i dont see any result and there is still pimples and redness on my face.

So in the end,i gotten lazy and i gave up.

I dont care much anymore because,i spend so much on so many different type of products trying my best to get what i want and in the end when you see no result at all..

THATS IT.

So,when i start my 2nd day in Juice Beauty..i was given a few packets of samples of Blemish for my own try out.

I remember me,having one huge red swollen pimple on my nose which has actually lasted for about a week.. as you know,swollen pimples hurts..

I apply blemish on the spot..and just through 1 NIGHT just 1 NIGHT i woke up next morning..

and the swollen is gone...is not red anymore..

Indeed i was surprise by the amazing effect that it does.

If i was to rely on other products,i dont think i can see the result that fast or even able to.

Right on the 4th day i bought the starter kit,Organic to Clear Skin.

within 2 weeks..

my face isnt full with redness due to pimples.

For the truth is that my pimples has stop popping out.

I can see my own fair white skin again on my face at last.

All i can is,i was amaze by this product.

YOu know,is true indeed.
If you dont try,you would never know..besides..what is wrong giving a try on our products when it doesnt harm you or your skin at all?

I have immediately gave up on chemical products..

Not only it doesnt helps but i know what harm it can do to my skin in the future.

I just knew i have to stop myself from continuing hurting my skin from the inside.

So,changing to using Juice Beauty products was one of my solution.

Although SOME might be pricey but you can never deny that,if you can see perfect result that you wanted,nothing is worth more than the beautiful skin that you wanted..

And although for instant,Blemish cost about rm185 per bottle...

but its like 50ml and you can use it for about 2 months.

So,diving the amount to two months.

Is worth it and almost the same price as the other harmful chemical products.

Maybe some of you will thought
"oh,she's working there,that is why she say so"

No,im not this kind of person,no one can controls what i want to say.

I say what i want and what is real.

Besides,one question people...why would you spend on products which could harm you in the future? rather than spending on Organic products which doesnt harms you but HELPS you instead? And you can even see the result.

I can go all day long to talk about this one product.

Our other products are great too..which is what i heard from our customer.

But i was talking on Blemish only in this blog is because this is through my own experience.

Through the result that i can feel for myself.

Of course i will try on other products of Juice Beauty too.

so you can drop by The Gardens Mall in Midvalley Megamall..

1st floor,just right to Isetan.

Im not like other consultant,you will be comfortable talking to me.

we'll have great conversation.

So,if there is thing you would really would love to know.

Do just come drop by and i'll tell you about it.

No pressure on buying stuff...because i love sharing what i know.

Besides..

It'll be cool at least you know what Organics are.

Eottoke???

Im going to wear out myself AGAIN :|
Doing full shift again and perhaps tomorrow too?
I miss going out now... and yeap,im going to go out often from now onwards.
working so hard but not enjoying,isnt thats a little waste?

I just got something up on my mind.
i was not born to be bullied or used by others.
enough means enough.
i use to be able to tolerate,but from now onwards..
I got to respect myself more than the respect im giving to others.
WAE?
did anyone appreciate it when im being nice?
Nope...all comes indirectly instead.
When you are being to nice,people tends to try and take more advantages.
and that really sucks cos they will think they are doing the right thing.
This is the last time i say it...
I will never tolerate with things that aint got nothing to do with me anymore.
Want my respect? then gain it. earn it.

[continue]

So,like yeah,i type that yesterday... so im continuing right now.
here i am sitting in the shop all alone for another1hour plus!
in a big painful situation at my tummy area...SUCKS you know that!
it hurts like hell!
but i still need to force myself to go through this shift.
i need some rest literally :(

this is one of the latest Vita500 pictures by SNSD.

as you know,my bias would be her,tiffany hwang mi young.

to be honest,i know...is time for a change..but not this way..

i know it might be normal for other people...

they think is nothing big..

but hey,i have my opinion okay..i love her for who she is...

and she doesnt needs to go till that level to sell stuff? or promote some drinks..

its rather quite exposing -.-

i dont know...

perhaps for the fact that i love her so deep....

that is why i cant accept it? :|

never mind.should just get use to it...

the first thing i said was "tiffany ah~waeeee~omgawd~"

=-= what else can i say,but no matter what i will support her forever.. <3

i'll get use to it then...

damn...im seriously nothing but in pain...

if i have a choice right now,dying would be part of the option.

signing out.

peace-

should i LOL?

[continue to be selfless]
so yeah,parents fetch me after work...
i dont really want to talk that much anymore.
like i said,the old me has died...the OLD andrea yong might have just passed away yesterday.
im nothing but just the body of my shell only.
i have no feelings anymore..

There is this rumors where people said SNSD paid their fan boys to cheer for them.
dad was like his usual self.
teasing me about it.

Me: is not true,come on,guys scream when they see pretty girls dancing. dont talk about 9 beautiful girls that cant get any attention.

Dad: [lol] ok ok~

Me: and SNSD even donated rm1.5million for charity.

Dad: 1.5 million won? [tease]

Me: you know what,say whatever you want. because i just realize no matter what good things people do,haters will turn it into bad one.so yeah,whatever. dont talk already.i'll be listening to my songs.

Mum: you said the wrong thing..how can you tease her about her idol she love most?

thats the end of the conversation..
i know my dad is just joking.
but at times...
why??
why the good thing when people do some people want to make it all the way around to become a bad one??
whats the point?
so being good eventually makes you look bad?
why must things happen in a different way.
i cant even turn to music now.

i give up.
i just want to die.
please.

:)

I no longer wants to do what i intend to do anymore.
why? i give up...
i know,quite some time i have said this and i keep on having the same thing repeat again and again.
But this time is for real,i promise.
If you dont believe...judge it for yourself soon. :)

I was trying to get some rest in my store today.
as i start feeling dizzy.
i did..just as soon as i feel that the back of body plaster for the needle starts to become wet..
ran to the bathroom and i realize it bleeds a little.
started coughing frantically and ends up i puke nothing but thick blood?
my throats hurts.
but the moment as i was about to leave the store...
i lost my vision for a few seconds...
and that was scary indeed..i dont want to be blind...never wants to...
please...dont let me go blind...because i rather die then.

So yeah,went to the clinic today to have some check up.
and wtf. i need to have a small needle sticking in me for one whole day so i can know the result?
Needle behind your back hurts...when it enters.it hurts.

I been through too much of pain which no one ever realize.
because no one ever cares.
so yeah,why do i still go on caring about others when i was in much more worse situation then theirs??

Yeap,i decide there is no point going through all this obstacles already.
people says there might be chances...
but if you are in my shoe...you rather not have the chances.
So,i have just pulled the needle out..
and stupid of me...it causes non stop bleeding..
=-=

I think i should admit.
Being a tough person.crying. is something im really ashame of.
but what can you do when you cant even control it?
i can just sit there,mind blank..and tears start gathering in my eyes.
what should i do?
My friend told me stop thinking.
I did...but the result is still the same.
i cry not because of the pain. but because im sad and sorry for myself.
sad for being an idiot..
Dont i have any pride or dignity anymore in myself??
dont i??
i've lost all of it and indeed i am very ashamed of myself.
i felt so useless right now.
thats why i gives up.
whats the point to go on with life when you cant even forgive yourself??

it isnt right to cry when you are working in a mall...
where your eyes is swollen and people staring at you.
even me going to my manager's office to tell her im changing my off day.
scared her too. she was shock to see im that way i guess.

people who knows me well.
should know im not this kind of person.
i was always laughing and joking.
intend to put a smile on everyone's face.
but at the end of the day...
i got the result..
i was an idiotic pathetic clown with who assumes wrongly all this time.
my thoughts was way different than what i thought.

its okay.
used to it soon.
i just hope my gallons of tears will be finish soon.
please please please.
i dont want to cry all of a sudden anymore.

p/s: sorry,miyoungie :) i still loves you though!

idk

Seriously...
was it me the one who is having problem?
i admit i have problem in telling out how i feels.
how i really feels...
i always put people i love 1st place.
making sure what i do or say will not hurt them...
but in reality,if you are too careful of what you want to say...
you might hurt them indirectly as they might misunderstands you.

I only manage to keep myself quiet the entire journey back to home quiet at the back of the car..
Looking out the window,trying my best not to think about anything.
I put onto my itouch.. listening to music,hoping it would help.
but it didnt.
i go on shutting my eyes close tightly.
thinking that by this way,i wont shed a tear.
i was so wrong about this.. it still manage to flow out.
:| well,lets treat it as im washing my eyes.
I was wiping my eyes non stop.. hoping it wasnt red,didnt want my parents to know it.
But stupid me,i forget my dad can watch me from the rear mirror.
i guess he felt weird why im not doing any hands movement while im in the jam.
"what happened"
i only manage to shake my head and control my voice by saying "tired"
i quickly put my hood on..covering half my face.
"what is wrong with you"
-im ok,im just sleepy.let me sleep-

Dad knew something is definitely going wrong,so he didnt force me to talk.
Im a tough person i dare say.
shedding tears is something i dont do.
never wants to.
but this time,its not my fault.
it flow out by itself :| what do you expect what i can do about it?

Just so you know... i care so much about you that i am so used to having you during my working life.
afraid that i would never get used to it without you.
but isnt that selfish of me if i stop you?
apart of me was glad you think the same way too.
but then,my point will always be the same.
i just want you to be happy.
you said working here made you unhappy and it hurts me to even see you saying so.
I dont want you to leave.
thats the truth.
if you want to know.
but that is plain too selfish...
i really dont want you to leave.
:(
i can die..due to boredom. this is for sure.

*sigh*

is this the life im supposed to go through?
why?
Im 'going' anyway..and its soon.
why cant let me be happy at least before i 'go'?

Happenings In My Life

(this says everything)

So yes,let me post about the happenings on 10-3-2011

Yes,went to work as usual...and i was planning to make my shop look better with a deco.

I was using a pen knife slicing the stickers of my co.'s

i was talking to my colleague and yeap,not focusing much on what i was slicing.

my aiming was pretty bad and TADAA~ i slice a small piece of my flesh of my index finger.

T.T it hurts like hell. this time i admit... it hurts.

worse thing is that it cant stop bleeding... and yeah,rush down to the supermarket to get some plaster for it...

but i cant manage to wash all the blood away.

When a tough person like me say it hurts.... it really HURTS.

and my finger look retarded.

12-3-2011 (saturday)

I was hoping to participate in the intel performance...

and i even learn the dance =-= why???

because winners can have an autograph on an intel tee. by~~~~ SNSD :OOOO

So yeap,ck and his *close* friend,Gordon decide to come and grab some poster.

and then edmund oppa... who came all the way from xxxxx (i dont know where) which was pretty far just so he can support me in the competition...

and then Junyi =-= non stop texting XD supporting me....

We went to Kim Gary for some light snacks...and then off to intel event...

Few sones were there!

:) there is some wearing Sunny's jumper...

and sones from mysone forum :)

i think almost 20 of sones (including me and my 3 friends)

-----

Sadly,i cant participate in the event due to ONLY winners from the pass noon...

which is my working time..

:( well,never mind :)

and when the MC talk about intel stuff *silent* but just as the MC mention the name of the ambassador *BOOM* *SCREAMS*

Sones screams echo throughout the whole MV center court XD

and even the MC said "there is the magic word...SNSD..GG...GirlsGeneration"

hahahaha~

how true..us sones scream non stop when we hear anything regarding about SNSD.

LOL.

then when the MC show the sign t-shirt of Taengoo....

OMG =-= the crowds (sones) go wild! like seriously very WILD.

but me and my friends keep our cool although we got keep saying "omgawd~"

but we are not like other sones,keep wanting to touch it.

Yeap,the crowd sing along the Visual Dream song..

*one*two*three* :)

and we even did the "bam-bam-bammmm" ending part!

it was really fun cheering and screaming our hearts out together.

:DD the fun was unexplainable <3

At least me and friends did our part and help a true sone who deserve to wins it...

she's a Yoonaddict :) and she dance really well

in the end... we lost our voices =-=

hahaha!

we even asked for encore...and cheer again and again...

this is just a sone event...

can you imagine if the real SNSD was here???

I might not be able to talk for a week....lost my voice.

XD

Then we ended up the night with a photo session with the poster of snsd...

(yeah yeah,chong junyi,i got a poster for you la (;)

14-3-2011

My mood wasnt pretty good ever since this morning..

but i dont think i should let this ruin my mood the entire day.

i want to joke and laugh around with my maknae.

But this turns out to be the opposite when shitty things appear.

(right,if you find me rather rude now,then you can press the X button at the page there)

I guess some people really dont know how to control themself or when to shut their bloody mouth dont they??

HELLO.

I'll do what i want as long i didnt do anything wrong,i dont need you to come teach me to do what i doesnt wants to.

From the way you speak and the actions you did just proofs how idiotic you are..

and how hard you are trying to be a smart ass..

STOP IT.

thats all i can say...

If i can give you a warning,i would've..

oh well,wait... i did didnt i?

If you ever talk to me and i dont respond to you...

thats the 1st sign of me disliking you.

:) yes thank you.

so dont keep on barking around...its annoying.

You do your part of your job...i do mine.

AND PLEASE

if you are here just to brag about your previous job...why not go back to your previous job?

DONT ASK ME TO PUT MAKE UP ON MY FACE.

WHO ARE YOU?

MY PARENTS DONT EVEN ASK ME TO DO SO.

OK,YOU MIGHT SAY THIS IS A WORKING PLACE..

A LIGHT MAKE UP WILL DO..

SO DOES THAT MEANS A LIP BALM WILL DO?

I DONT WANT TO PUT ANY MAKE UP ON MY FACE IS BECAUSE I AM VERY VERY SENSITIVE! YOU KNOW NOTHING THEN YOU SHUT THE F*CK UP,THANK YOU.

LET ME GIVE YOU A REASON WHY THE 3 OF US DONT NEED MAKE UP.

(im not saying we are pretty) BUT WE DONT NEED IT.

BECAUSE MAKE UP OR NOT,WE STILL HAVE OUR VERY NATURAL LOOKS.

SO IT DOESNT MATTER.

BTU ON A CASE LIKE YOURS. IF YOU NEED THEN GO AHEAD.

DONT GO DRAGGING US DOWN INTO HELL WITH YOU.

NO THANKS,MISSY.

I DONT WANT ME IN 3 YEARS TIME HAVING A FACE OF AN 80 YEAR OLD.

YOU WANT THAT,YOU CAN GO AHEAD.

ME? *shakes head* NO THANK YOU.

IS NOT THAT WE WANT TO GATHER UP AND BEAT YOU UP.

BUT IS WHAT YOU SAID AND DONE MADE US FED UP..

YOU GOT IT?

YES INDEED THAT THE THREE OF US IS DIFFERENT.

BUT OUR MIND IS TOGETHER AS ONE

PLEASE..

DONT ACT LIKE YOU KNOW EVERYTHING..

EVERYONE LEARN EVERYTHING FROM THE BOTTOM DESPITE WHO THEY ARE OR WHAT THEY HAVE...

p/s: i need someone to volunteer to try and tie my hair up.. my hair is super layered... so yeah,if you can...i'll pay you guys... but on one condition...no pins are allowed!

i better stop here...not in a mood to continue and bitching around

spill everything out?

Someone told me is best if you say what is always in your mind out.
with that,it will makes you feel better.
i spend my everyday,trying to make most of my friend happy when they are with me or while texting with me.
and that occurs that whenever they had a problem,they will find me automatically.
and yes,i would spend each quality time just to cheer them up.
I can say that i really care for my friends alot...to the point where i think i care too much already.
because you know what,not everyone appreciate the things you have done for them and in the end,this makes you disappointed.
sometimes,i wonder,did they even know the things i have done for them.
maybe it wasnt a big of a deal,but i use my heart and effort to always do something.
but what do i get in the end?
nothing but a broken feelings for myself.
:) thanks a lot you selfish humans out there.
I dont expect you to be there for me but at least dont say things that will hurt can you?

what you did just hurts me somehow.i know. you will definitely says.
so what.non of my business.
thanks.
now i know how selfish you are,idiot.
you know what. always saying how over playful i am and makes me look so childish at times...saying that im immature at times?
LOL.
dont make me LMAO please...
i be who i want... and if you cant accept what or how my attitude is...
then i think is best for us to leave it this way..
because,i would love to say to you "i dont need you as a friend too"
:)
i'll be what i want...i want to be myself..
and if you dont like how i am now...then please..
go on,get lost :)
you want maturity? go change your bloody attitude 1st,it doesnt makes you any mature if you start calling others immature,loser.