Forever A Sone Who Love Soshi

Forever A Sone Who Love Soshi

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Hari Raya Holidays

I hasnt blog for awhile now, an off day today..probably a time to update how I spent my holidays.
So it was all a very planned trip by a few weeks earlier before it happens.
I thought things will go smoothly, but nawww- people are born with spoilers at times.
Heck, now i think my sensitivity detection has become a bigger roaming, that I admit.
Why not I begin?
We all started by meeting in USJ cos Cyn finishes her work at 7pm. Andrew picked me up at 5pm after picking Nogy up, hell, I do the last minute rushing packing OTL and yes...I forgotten about my towel. Fml lol.
Then off we go to USJ to pick xian up then head to USJ City Mall...but halfway there, i was talking about the previous trip that i went to sunway lagoon without my IC and was being charged for RM120 instead of RM90 (If you are a malaysian..please dont forget about your ic) Okay..probably is very minimal to have people like me =_= 
Andrew realized he had forgotten about his IC hence a big turn to head back straight to his place. 
Earlier on around close to 3pm I have texted Ivink since she is coming down from Sekinchan with Jy..she said their journey has just begun.
One more thing, I am those kind of peasant who is really genuine about my feelings when it comes to being punctual. For me. You either stick to the time that was planned or if you knew there could be jam or anything, work it with your time management. Do not let your dates got hanged up or waits you.
Cos is just fucking disrespectful.
But then. They were never late..they reached earlier (so early that time didnt makes any sense because to be reaching so fast) and we too was never late. Xian said she was busy and we headed to the store to get some liquids while waiting for cyn since she called.
met up and off we go for our dinner at Uncle Jang which Andrew suggested.
everyone's 1st time x3 and we ordered something which we cant enjoy due to the spiciness =_= everyone was hissing in spiciness with every bites. Regrets regrets. Cos everyone got a painful stomach in the end.
after dinner..we rush to aeon big to get our snacks and also booze for the trip...trying to make our curious youngest potato maknae to grow up...made her drink the most safest booze...
Hoegarden.
a bottle herself. Kkkkk.
but sadly...she cant join our trip this time around...so we send her home to klang.
on the way to klang..we got caught up a bit in the jam... Ivink called to say she and jy will head up to Genting 1st..
(TODAY'S BLOG IS ALL ABOUT HONEST REAL FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS. READ IT WITH YOUR OWN GUTS IF YOU ARE PART OF THE TRIP MEMBERS)
When I heard that excuse to 'skip' the jam where else we call this an outing/friends trip.
wtf was that?
You cant wait in a minor jam and decided to just break off with the trip and head to Genting yourself alone first? 
Oh...very nice indeed. Even the youngest also said "arent outing means we are supposed go stick together?"
Guess its not in everyone's POV. But i maintain quiet because I was actually beginning to feel rather pissed but I wouldnt want to ruin anyone's mood. As I am known to be angry quite fast at some certain times.
stayed at Genting..sunrise..sleeping in the car wasnt pleasant especially when Uncle Jang is still hanging around in your tummy LMAO.
andrew's gps was out off battery.
so i decide to split the task.
andrew's car to head to hotel check in and jy to go pick shirly up at 10am.
Thank You to Ms. Jacqueline whom is known as the Sales Marketing Director...she allowed me to check in at 10:13am!!! How awesome is she???
^_^
So its me, Andrew, Cyn and Nogy the first group that checked in... they all start lazying around until Andrew and Nogy calls it HUNGRY lol..
andrew said to tell Jy and the rest to meet at 1Utama for our (planned) buffet meal which starts at 12pm till 3pm++ Shabu10.
but Ivink called to ask us to wait at the hotel instead because they can make it within 40mins to reach the hotel then we shall only go to the buffet together after they reach.
Ignoring the fact that our stomach was growling.
we waited as said.
they came around 12pm++
Jy came to me and said "Why not skip the buffet? Then at 3pm we can head to Ecurve (escape room game) and maybe after the game we can eat our dinner? Lets skipped lunch since everyone is sleepy and tired..."
I just nod my head..seeing indeed is a bit true.
but then. Andrew's stomach were growling and so were mine. Nogy was out for a phone call so i woke Cyn up and she too was a bit hungry (1pm+) 
below our hotel is a shopping mall and I knew where we could get Hot n Rolls. 
So i went to Ivink and ask what would she like.
Her reply:
"Anything. Because I am still full. Me and Jy had our lunch already"
I was stunned and so was andrew when he over heard the reply...
in conclusion..the fact that we already planned this trip and food earlier on...you both despite the obvious fact in this case are very inhumanely selfish cut the food plan off WITHOUT telling us the truth that you already had lunch and we had waited with empty stomachs and you KNEW we are.
how nice of a friend you both are. Really.
but our trip was long. So i shut up and just go get the meal at the shopping mall.
without thinking.
(Although you both has selfishly taken your meal)
As a friend. I ordered 7pax food.
someone said to me "i thought they have eaten? Why order for them when they didnt think about us?"
my reply was, "its okay...we can be the bigger person...lets see how thick the skin of their faces are...since they claimed they are VERY FULL with their cheated lunch"
Okay. I dont fucking care because the money was forked out by everyone. You want to eat it despite after what you did. Go ahead.

Went to Escape Room-
Okay. Who am I kidding? With all these shits that happens...who am I kidding to still have the mood to blog about the trip? Shall I make things cut short and better on the point of why to I act that way at the end of the trip?

So I shall.

our last pit stop was on Monday, sunway lagoon.
after half a day of absolute fun swim activities.
i counted our money and we still have rm500++
Ate at Papa John and we walked around.
until we decided to have Bowling session to spend the $$$ off.
per person gets to bowl 2 times per turn.
but our lane seems to be having a probably.
it somehow skipped giving us actual marks and at times make us bowl 2 more times extra.
JY said "Get someone to fix it..." and the gang was all eyes on me. Fine. I stood at the counter for like 5 mins to tell the receptionist. When i went back to our lane. Jy said "dont need call the repairman lah"
I was like what? I called already...
"Dont need lah dont need lah...dont need so troublesome. Just play lah"
Okay.
number 1.
didnt you just told me to go ask someone to fix it? 
After the long wait.
the way you asked me no need to is as if I was troubling people when my intention in the first place was to get someone to fix the shit that you are uncomfort with.
it blew my patience off this time.
i tried and tried to hold my anger.
which i did instead of pointing out his faulty.
but my face shows the opposite.
sorry.
i cant hide my discomfort and displease emotions well from my expression due to all your doings o0o
it was my turn to bowl.
i threw harder (actually I three with nonetheless caring how many pins i may hit) because the fact I have eventually lost my mood after enduring all the shits I was getting during the trip.
the moment i turned around.
i saw jy giving eye hint to ivink and they look at me one kind
(Maybe cos the fact that I was showing dislike but I wonder if they are even smart enough to realize the things they have said and done?)
After bowling.
I was walking a bit ahead from the group but with Cyn closely behind me.
jy walked pass me and said "We are going home..." so i stopped..then i said okay...bye then..(still in a very pleasant tone when I actually starts burning on the inside)
then he said something that actually make my anger burst.
"The money"
In his very demanding tone.
as if i would take the rm259 and run away.
fuck that.
i took my wallet and counted and divided among the shares. After that. I walk off. Turned around because I was forgetting something.
"Byeee..." 
he look at me and said "Bye? I thought we are going to yam cha?"
Woah...hold it there.
You said it that you are going home.
and also when a person calls it to divide back he remaining money it means is to end the trip and everyone should get back their equal shares.
so wtf was that? Tell me.
am i wrong this time?
Dont give me the "she has princess attitude" cos i am definitely not.

If you guys are reading this. Good.
because a part of me still treats you both as a friend...i blogged this instead of coming upfront to you and tell you the dirty selfish things you guys did.
how would you feel if you were hungry and you waited for us 1st because we said we were coming but in the end we have eaten?
You will feel is NOTHING?
Dont give me bull-fucking-cock-shit.
please.
i have endure much bigger drama.
And i know what is lies.
you guys stop us from going to the lunch is because you have eaten and not hungry and without me...you cant enter the hotel room.
you didnt even care if Shirly has eaten or not.
you two secretly ate without telling.
even if you said to call buffet off and to be nice enough to inform that you have eaten and that we (The Ones) who have not, should get something to eat.
that will be tolerable.

^
This is enough to proven that you only care about yourself and instead of your friends around you.
may i ask.
what's the point right?
If you dont care about us. Why care so much to maintain in contact?
If you two thinks that just having each other companies is enough.
fine.
stay that way.
friends do come and go.
after reading this.
have some balls and guts come confront me with your reasons/excuses.
i would love to see and hear that.
if you just keep quiet.
fine.
your choice.
because we decided to do the same.
if you dont appreciate friendship like us do.
okay.
fair enough.
if a trip can make and shows me that ugly side of yours, I think is fair enough.

people around us are getting older.
friendship are hard to maintain.
appreciation should be kept and used.
but i dont think that is the case for you.
you once asked me "if she look for you, will you accept her back? After all she did...wont you hate her?"
Or 
"Why did you forgive her?"
TBH.
i kept trying to think...what do I actually hate about her...i do know why we stop contacting each other. But i dont hate her.
maybe cause the fact that when she look for me the last time...she and I admitted the faulty we did? Maybe cos people grew mature and know when and where to admit the faulty? The mistakes?

I appreciate friendship.
I made plans for trips to come.
despite the fact i dont get answers for my questions.
i keep trying my way to make it work.
schedule it for everyone's "YES"
because i do want us to hang out as a whole.
thus i know some of you dont give a fuck if it works out or not...i still put effort into making it come true for all of us.
because when we get together..
there will be laughter and relaxation.

this time.

shown me too much.

if you think you are wrong or right.
please.
have a self courage and come confront me.
if not.

bye.

im tired of the whole drama thing.
when are you people going to grow? 
Is it so hard to have balls and vaginas to come tell me what is wrong or maybe we have been wrong that you two have to be this way? To treat us this way?
If you have the guts to do it.
have the guts to embrace it.

Maybe.
im the only one who grew old?

Maybe.
im just too tired of dramas and become sensitive at all times and aware of my surroundings?

Maybe.
to others. Friends doesnt has to maintain long because friends comes and goes?

Maybe.
friends are NOT important?
Well. You are wrong. Everyone needs a friend.
oh..that explains why you have enough when you have each other. 
Let me tell you something.
even if you have a bf or a gf.
you will still need friends!
Unless you're a cockroach...okay. i know nothing about cockroach lifestyle.
=_=

Maybe.
you just dont care cos the fact that you are selfish and just care about you and yourself and nobody else?

Maybe.
i should not care much anymore.
because caring one problem because of others means you care about them or because they mean something to you.
But why should I care so much when the opponent does not?

Sometimes.
im so fucking tired dwelling all these and being the peacemaker or the forgiving one.
I used to care so much without limits and look at where it got me to...
everything...should have its own limit.
and I have mine too.

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