weird weird.

It was on the 23rd when i woke to go for my driving lesson.
Yes,my driving lesson indeed... just going for the course... and yes even at the age of 20 already...so? XD
woke up in the morning i came to realize both my hands were black...no no...grey-ish?
You know like those dead corpse color? yeah.thats how my hand look like.
So then.off to the course...
Journey back and forth to the place makes me feel like puking...and im kind of sleepy i guess..
So then,i took an MC for the next day since i was really not feeling well..
vomiting nothing since i didnt have any meals. :/ Sucks you know.
the feeling of your throat burning.
But i guess everything work its on way,since i did feel a little much better?
It was during the night time where i was talking to one of my...friend? XD on the internet..
during half way...i guess i must've fainted because all i know is that the next day i woke up is almost 12pm on bed.
What happened was that u fainted on my desk and dad found me all white and cold.
:x
receiving an injection was better i guess..
It woke me up after that..had the second one and it was all better..
ask my sister do i look as if im dead,she said "YES..and i will take all your Tiffany collection and lappy if its for real"
=-= wtf. XD
C'mon even the doctors got no idea what is happening to me @.@
So what do i do?
Life moves on.

Christmas night is where i wanted to just sleep as early as i can..
But then decide to spend it with some of my old friends since they have been asking a month before it happens..
And what happen? 5glass of Vodka Absolute..
*piungggggg* annyeong right away..
Im not going to drink anymore... :| i mean im not going to drink so much the next time.
You've asked me questions and wanted me to answer honestly...and i did.
But what happen? you cried and said i lie??
If this wasnt the answer you are looking or hoping for,then dont ask.
:/

im damn tired right now.

YoonYoung

And yes.... this is my baby rabbit,YoonYoung..
Which has moved on..in heaven...
R.I.P

What happened was the day i saw a rabbit in Midvalley petshop and drag Junyi along to have a look at the rabbit...(not yoonyoung)
Indeed we cant take our eyes off those cute baby rabbits...
Feeling eager to get one.
As we plan to get one... we had aim for the little brown rabbit we saw in MV.
But as for me,i have myself 3 dogs already...
And junyi was thinking of a way to keep it as it will be his first pet..
We decide not to buy it... for the sake we didnt know where and how we can keep it.
But soon,both of us cant resist the cuteness of a rabbit and decide to buy it together..sadly,the brown rabbit was gone...and we are both very very disappointed indeed when we came to know about the news to this.
But God was on our side.... I met this rabbit breeder who breeds super small mini rabbit.
I remember how i find her through the internet...
How i found out she was a mini rabbit..
How fluffy her fur was..
I also remember the time i keep calling the owner making sure she reserve the rabbit to me...and only me.

The day before YoonYoung arrive,even few nights before we have here...
Me & Junyi cant stop thinking of the names for the little rabbit...
Being a SONE also knows as SNSD's big fans! We decide to find a name that is related to SNSD :DD
from Sone to Sowon to Soshi to Mushroom etc etc etc.
But in the end...we came up with the name of... YoonYoung...
why YoonYoung? That is because im a big fan of Tiffany Hwang Mi Young while he is a big fan of Yoona!
So together the name combine we have~~ Yoonyoung...

I remember the day when she arrive to me...
her in the little box...
staying in one corner...she looks like a small cotton ball..
Her being in my hands...not even a size bigger than my palm...yes indeed...she is very small and furry..her fur was being so fluffy..
staying still in my hands... on my lap...
BEING CUTE is what YoonYoung good at.
I cant resist the cuteness of her and beg my dad to let me bring it home for at least a few days... BEG,yes...
who can resist those sad eyes? :p
I remember the night she was in my home...dominate the couch as if she was in my house from a long time ago...
Whenever i hold the food box,she would hop to my side and had both her front paws on my hand,cant resist her cuteness.
I remember how Junyi and went and buy the bag for Yoonyoung...hand carry bag to travel around...snacks..feed her through syringe because she wasnt drinking. her travelling with us from Leisure Mall to Time Square..
and her being in the snooker center with us..

Both my parents doesnt wants anymore pet...but in the end..
they have to give in...NO ONE CAN RESIST THE CUTENESS of YoonYoung. even Junyi's parents! and family members.
Carrying her into my room...letting her running around my bed..
Is the moments i cant stop thinking now..
Im sad of course,but thinking of the past of being her made me smile..
She's cute...really cute...
Yoonyoung was different than other rabbit...She's intelligent..
She respond to you when you call for her name...
She loves to snuggle into the pillows and sleep there quietly...
She can even jump up really high just to come out from the box...
And what is her favorite past time? SLEEPING.
If you put her lying down on her back...and touch her forehead...patting her gently.
She will fall asleep within minutes.

Then it was Junyi's turn to care for her...
I was really happy indeed when Junyi's family accepted YoonYoung in...
they too was drawn into yoonyoung charms.
Junyi's mum was even so sweet to buy another rabbit for yoonyoung to play with..

On the fatal day of 20th December 2010.
Is the day where YoonYoung has to leave us... leave the ones who love her most.
We cant bear the pain.. but life still moves on...
How i wish at least i could've play with her again..
How i wish she was in my hands again...
How i miss having my fingers run through her fluffy body..
But all this wont happen right?
it can never happen...i cant even see her anymore...even for the last time...

My parents was indeed sad... when they hear the news..
but we cant do anything anymore.. She's gone.
all thats left for us are the memories we had with her...
i admit... when i think of her...tears fill up in my eyes..
But i force myself to listen to SNSD's songs... to channel my mind..
i miss her very much indeed..
but God loves her more...
and now me and junyi knows...she is in heaven...looking at us from above.


i miss you,yoonyoung.
i love you till the end...although you are no longer here...but i will always love you till the end...
You are forever my favorite lovable rabbit...miss you.

within my limits

I know is great when someone compliment how good you are at accompanying people.
But there are times,you need to let me rest too,my dear...omgawd.
Im having sleepless nights already...
Is not that im complaining but there are times..
When you seriously have to let me have some moment of my own.
If i continue this... i think my life would be shorten.. :x

Uhhhhh~
I miss tiffany hwang a lot though.
Not seeing her performing for weeks,can seriously kill me from inside!
Where's the beautiful eye smile of hers.. i miss that,seriously.
Music Bank is a serious shit...
This week Music Bank,there are rumors that some fans spotted tiffany rehearsing...
But of course,is just rumors...
Was happy when i heard that but came to know she wasnt performing when its live...
When SNSD is performing...they have this background picture of them during Run Devil Run.
and i came to realize there is only 8 pictures!
8!! WHY? There is no tiff's picture,thats the why!!!
PLease!
Even if she isnt performing or what so ever,her picture should be there too.
People who doesnt think with their brain only think is not necessary to have it.
Come on,she's still a part of SNSD
And snsd will never be complete without tiffany.
And yes,im pretty pissed off at what MB did..
but could this be a reason of WHY tiffany didnt perform?
Despite about the rumors... but not having her pictures on the display is a very BIG NO NO to me... you cant do that to tiffany hwang!
Talk to my fist if you think is right to do so :|
I hope this wont make her to sad though...
i miss you Ms.Hwang... come back soon alright?
^^
all sones miss you so much!

unforgettable?

Lying...
Is something perhaps you should think twice before doing so....
Because,no matter how much you try to hide one thing..
In the end,it will be exposed too..
So,to my conclusion is that...you better not lies.
Someone used to tell me,if you are lying for their own good..perhaps they can accept it.
But face it,no can take it..
No one can accept lies..no one..including yourself..

ooo : cant believe i have trusted you all this while!
xxx : i dont mean to lies to you,if i have a choice,i wouldnt have!
ooo : everyone has their own choice,and you has made one to lies to me.
xxx : sorry.
ooo : do you think one sorry is all that matters?? do you know how deeply hurt i am??
xxx : (speechless)
ooo : nothing to say?good,im about to walk out from your life now...
xxx : wait! look...im very sorry...im stupid for doing something that i know i would
regret!but im even more stupid to do something that would hurt you.
Im a human too,i make mistakes that i dont want to. I dont know what makes me
do that,okay...sorry.
ooo : do you think your sorry can pick up the shatter heart???
xxx : No,this is why i need another chance...give me at least another chance...
another chance to lies to myself that i can have another chance to love you
again,another chance to be the one for you...i know what i say now...you may
not believe,you can deny that you have love me before..but you can never deny
that you are happy when you are with me~ you can say you regret of trusting me
but can you say that you regret of being with me? I lied and its wrong!
is so wrong! so let me make it up to you... Give me some time...
Give me some time so you can gain some trust from me again. I dont need you to
love me back,but what i need is to make it up to you... so when people asked
you,that who will you choose if you have choice...you would choose me..
because im the one who can really put a smile on your face....
Im lost when i hear you saying you are about to leave me... lead me to the
right path again..give me a chance to do the right thing..
Sorry is just a word,let action shows you how sorry i am to you.

- its all in the past isnt it.. i cant forget this day either.. -

- is the day i thought is over for me.. the day i was afraid to lose you.. -

- but we both has now having our own life..because..thats all it matters to me now -

...sorry...

All Love Goes This Way (mostly)

Indeed is true that when you are in a relationship and when its over..
You dont seem to manage to forget some of the memorable ones.
Right?
So,its not wrong for me to remember some of it...
and is nothing surprising if i do still remember some.

When you're in a relationship..
This is all you can think of.

- I CANT LEAVE WITHOUT YOU.
- I NEED YOU EVERYDAY IN MY LIFE.
- WHAT WOULD MY LIFE BE WITHOUT YOU.
- I RATHER DIE IF YOU BREAK UP WITH ME.
- YOU ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE.
- WHAT WILL BE IF I DONT HAVE YOU BY MY SIDE.
- THERE IS NO POINT OF LIVING WITHOUT YOU.
- YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MADE MY HEART STILL PUMPING.
- I WILL LOVE NO ONE ELSE BUT YOU.
- I CAN NEVER LOVE ANYONE ELSE OTHER THAN YOU.
- IM DEVOTED TO YOU.
- I WILL NEVER LIES TO YOU.
- HOW CAN I CHEAT ON YOU.
- WE WILL BE FOREVER.
- I LOVE YOU FOREVER.
- NOTHING CAN CHANGE MY LOVE TO YOU.
- I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPENED THE FUTURE.
- I CANT STOP LOVING YOU.
- NO MATTER WHAT YOU DID WRONG I CAN ALWAYS FORGIVE YOU.
- I NEED YOUR HUGS AND KISSES EVERYDAY.
- I JUST WANT YOU TO HOLD MY HAND AND NO ONE ELSE.
- I WONT LOOK AT ANYONE EXCEPT YOU.
- I WONT BE SWEET TO ANYONE ELSE EXCEPT YOU.
- YOU ARE MY ONE AND ONLY.
- MY HEART HAS ONLY GOT YOU.
- WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU.

Lol,any many more of course...
And with that,your mind will tells you automatically that you are in a very serious relationship..
Now,how many of you have encounter this before?
How many of you has eventually said this or heard from someone before?
I bet 99.99% of you surely does.
But what happens after everything was over?
Life still moves on right...
thats when things like this becomes memories...

I still see you living when we break (;
Because,those are just words...JUST WORDS you said when you are in love..
if you are mature and has a brain,you will know is time to move on.
(im not hinting anyone,just saying what is on my mind)
What makes you think it was really worth it to die for someone who you probably just know for not long...dying for them is worth it?
what about your parents who had care for you ever since the day you were only an infant?
LIFE GOES ON

Is all in your mind...
Your heart and mind dont always work out together...
Your heart might say to you,DONT LET GO,IS NOT WORTH IT
while your brain might say to you, IS TIME TO MOVE ON
Which makes you think very hard on you rather to let go...or to hang on it.
But you can trust me here for one thing...
Life still goes on and you can do it..
All you have to do is give yourself some time and push yourself to do what is suppose to be done.. (not by commit suicide =-=)

Why is there past?
Because is the past that makes what today is...
Without the past...there is no today...without today...there is no future.
Think about it...was it worth to do something stupid because you think your life is OVER just because you have failed in a relationship?
You'll never meet you MR or MRS RIGHT if you are always going for the wrong path.

The sweetest thing your partner can ever say to you when you are in a relationship.
Is also meant,the harsher words they can say to you when they dont love you anymore.
Always remember...when there is no trust in a relationship.
There is no point of continuing...
Chances? there will always be a limit in everyone's heart.
There will always be boundaries too you know.
If you cross over too much... BOOM... is bye bye to you.
This is why you must always be thankful and try not to do any big mistakes that could lead you hurting your love ones.
And being late and regret doesnt do any help if you keep on repeating it.

Dont want to lose your love ones then hold on to them tightly..
In anway,what matters most is no matter what happen...

BE STRONG

Day BY Day

I need to get one thing straight...
If you treat me good and i will treat you even better...that's just typical of me.
Well,i do care about people i care deeply...sayang them very much indeed...
and this might sometimes lead to misunderstanding in the terms of the way i was treating them...
So,treating someone good was bad?
Or there some people who are not suppose to be treated well just because they might think wrongly of me?
:/ what do you want me to do......



So,yes..this is what i bought yesterday to have my hair color...
Look,i know nothing about this product.
The sales girl told me all you have to do is to put the products on as if you are washing your hair and leave it on for 30minutes....
:O serious? jinja?
bought it at the price of RM37.90 after discount...
*finger crossed*
and yeah....there is a result after all :DD
nyahahahahaha! but OMG the product stinks like hell...and somehow it burn my eyes
==" but it was all worth it.
^^

Oh yeah! went to GALACTIC LASER GUN game in MIDVALLEY (3rd floor)
what is my opinion of the game?
DAMN FUN! is really very very nice...
1st round was kind of nervous though but when it was the 2nd round...things are way more fun...
But the fun part was that i actually went with my manager's kids :DD
They are cute. oh well,bottom line...fun is the WORD.
^^

So,yes...went to my friend's house...
was planning to chit chat but in the end...i help her mum out by washing some of her clothes XD

Is it really wrong to care for others?

i remember everything doesnt means what you are thinking,silly.

Of course i remember what you said...even till now...
give me a reason i should forget it...
because we have broken up 3 years ago? no way.
there are things that i have cherish until now.. but things are never the same again
it will never be the same again.

I remember how your toes will turn blue-black when it starts raining and you get too cold..
I remember how you need Japanese tea when you have migraine,same like me.

Remember when you told me you were upset if you are calling me and my found out i was on the line with someone else..and because of that you couldnt get to me..
that's when i started,to cut off the calls whenever you call,i make to answer your call 1st..because you are more important..
but do you even remember,when that happens to me?but i remain quiet.
There are things i choose to remain silent is because i cherish you at the moment.
and cant bear to argue with you.so i choose to ignore and let it be.
But is also because of this,you think you are always right...and im making so much mistakes,when in reality,you and i both know what is really happening.

Because of this few days,im stress out,not to say,about my job....
i dont find you annoying...but i find it really sad to see you acting this way.

Are sure being with me is what you really want??
ARE YOU SURE?
remember the day we end our relation?what you have said to me?
think of that reason and think again on what you are saying now....
Be mature...think wisely.
and...i do not have the old feelings at all,anymore...sorry

i really cant answer your call anymore...you make me more sad by hearing you sobbing through the phone...
you acting this way wont solve anything you know

:DD

I was emo few hours ago and now im happy back.
As i was reading someone's blog,a lady walk into my shop looking at the products.
Immediately i can recognize her because i remember serving her in the beauty fair few hours ago,but i guess she dont..
She walk in and i start to re-talk about our products to her..
(not letting my mood making it bad) i smile to her constantly.
She start telling me what she bought in the FAIR. and even show me.
Sharing how happy she is when she bought those stuff at a fair price.
Thats when i begin to feel happy as i can see how happy she was.
Sharing and talking.
Making my heart from *cold* turns back to *warm* (;
She's a darling,seriously..
The next thing before i knew..she was taking out a big box of
BITTER GOURD TEA from her bag. and hand it to me,of course i say thanks but decline it

"i love sharing my happiness,dont worry,this is cheap...i give it to you...i dont know if its nice or not,but you can have it"

-no,thanks-

"are you sure?dont be shy..its okay,i can buy another one for myself..since you are so sweet and nice,i want to share this with you"

-awwww,thank you,aunty...but i dont want *shy* thank you so much but you can keep it for yourself and let me know if its nice or not,anyway,bitter gourd is very good for body-

"you sure ah? okok,i dont want to force you.dont need to be shy.im just very happy today"

-you know what,you have just made my day,because seeing you happy,makes me happy too aunty-

And she keeps smiling to me...she even said to see if we have fate tomorrow by bumping into one another tomorrow..if she's going to the FAIR again.
hahaha,she's so cute.
another little girl came into my shop and talk to me...
the way she talk was way too cute to be true!
^^ another smile on my face

God does have his own way to make on person happy :DD
thank you God <3<3

Stephanie Tiffany Hwang Mi Young

Yeah~
I miss this one person a lot lately.







Yes,i think if you're a Sone...
You should know why she isnt performing lately...
And if you dont,let me tell you why...She has injured herself..
and is taking a rest to get recover soon.
She was to put on hold of all her event for 4weeks but she indeed as i know,very determine to cute the 4weeks to only 2weeks.
But then of course,each and sone wants her to recover 101%
I myself,wouldnt want this to happen again in the future,i cant bear to watch this happen to her ever again :(

I miss seeing her performing HOOT with SNSD
things wasnt the same without her.
I used to look forward for every performance...for her eye smile and wink.
And now,im waiting for her to come back strong! and i know she will <3
So,yes...i have pimp my crib...full of her pictures...
so what do i see 1st thing when i wake up,tiffany hwang of course.
XD
im not obsess but right now,i really miss seeing her!
this is what i do when i wake up.
Look at her pictures and said
"i hope to see you in a news in fb today..you coming back,deal? *wink* hwaiting!"

hahaha,i know,crazy. XD

God open my eyes

Recently,things had happened in a way i didnt think it would.
Now i truly realize who is my real friend and those that are not.

i want to share some stuff,things that make me wonder.
i have this colleague who is at the age of 26 and a mother of two.
Now,im sure you'll be thinking this person must have a mature thinking.right?
well,so do i...but we are all WRONG.she's not! and what was even worse.
she acts worse than my 3 dogs at home.

This person not only is she two faced...but she too.
love to back stab and change story infront of me and to my lady boss.
She misuse my lady boss name by making us to do stuff and said it was my managers command..
Things happened that make me feel really angry towards her...
the anger of mine wanting to shred her into pieces.. :/
or slap her in the face.
please,use your brain and think...if you have one.
you're 26 and you should watch out for what you are doing now
stop messing with the wrong person!
You have already burst my bubbles...and im not going to let you go off just like that
I swear...what you have did to me...im going to make you suffer 10times of how you made me.
chances and chances are given to you but you never change...
never ever mess with me,im serious.
i respect you because you are OLDer than me.
but then,what you did,make me realize you dont even deserve the respect im giving to my dog.
You make me look down on you even more,dont blame me for cursing you.
because.

YOU DESERVE IT

here you go,i do remember..because..this is the past

- As You Wish -
Whoever who wakes up first,text to the other one...
who might be still in sleeping mode...
Texting and miss calls and phone calls throughout the entire day...
Or you when you have your assignment and having me to text you as if i was accompanying you while burning midnight oil...even till late hours...
Trying all the best to sleep at the same time together,or asking me to watch the same movie with you although we are two different place..
Making sure i did watch it by asking what was happening now or after.
Before sleeping,one good night call..is a must and me telling you ghost story just to make you sleep instead has make you stay awake for even more longer hours.
The most funny part is where the call has to come to an end.
but non want to end it...and i've always promise to do it next time..but didnt.
Now i can tell you why,is because i will never willing to cut off your call..
Only you can do that to me :) thats the why.
Me making sure you at least drink some water during some hours..
due to the hot weather...but in the end...i think you were bored with my care?
But what about you then? when i was sick,having sore throat...
you made your 1st home made,chinese herbs for me and send it all the way to my working place although you have to rush back for assignments? :DD

Or do you miss the time when every single day you drive to my place?
or me going to yours?
Or when you bring your niece to my place during our 1st meet up.
and instead,i put focus on her rather than you and you gotten angry and jealous?
XD

i really appreciate the 813 handmade stars you made...
dont worry,is in my treasure box :P
i know how hard it is to make things like this,believe me..
i have some own experience too..hahaha...


from you.

You remember the time i was lying flat down on my bed and you quickly run over and grab a pillow to put it under my head just so i wont get any headache?
Or the time i was not sitting properly you put a pillow over my neck?
and the time i was doing assignment and you coming behind my back and massage my shoulders without telling.
and texting me,replying me,never ever delay as you know i will get worry.
and how you stop me from asking too much question?
you treated me well and i know you treat me as if im your everything...
You are daring but in reality,you are one of the most shy person i have ever met you know (yeah,weird..i know XD )
You let everything goes in my way so we wont argue..
You once told me
"i dont want to argue with you is not because im afraid we will break is because i dont have the heart to scold you,i cant even raise up my voice"
I still remember this from the day you said it until now! T_T
I asked you before,what do you wish from me... you said
"i only wish,from your heart,one day,even if you have a choice to be with someone else,you will still choose me because i made you happy"
Now,if i had a choice,maybe i wouldnt have been stupid in the past
(you're not stupid)
but hor,because of your caring attitude,always start up the arguement you know? you make others think they are special too.hate it.
(==")
but thank god,you are honest.this is something..that person dont have.
i dont know what was it like for now...have you change?
i cant even cry now,i have no more tears in my eyes.im all dry up.
if this is the end?

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:O yahhhhhhhhhhhh! is not that i dont want to reply you.
but no point of giving fake hopes...
you know i still would care about you..
but like i said,this is the past,this are all memories in our mind..
i believe you can find someone who treats you better then me or better than the asshole you just dump.
Is just time that are all you need.trust me for this time.
hwaiting!! :DD <3<3<3

Goodbye?

From yesterday i have already feel that i was having a serious headache.
so yeah,went home,watch SNSD Happy Together with sister and off to bed.
Just this morning when i was in the car,i started to have this nausea feeling...
As if im about to puke any secs.
Reach work and do some stock cut while downloading some SNSD videos.

And the usual crazy of me...cant stay quiet of course (;
this is what i did



Nyahahaha,is Xuan's jacket aka maknae aku :P
since she's away for 3longgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg days...
What is even funny is that,during my conversation with CK...although we are talking nothing about her...her name somehows TER-say out XD
(pls dont say we miss you :P )

Ok,1stly,i forget to bring my jacket so im using hers to cover my easily-get-cold-fingers.
then after that,i need to go office so i said to CK
"let's bring Xuan along" ck only manage to give THE look XD
i did lots of funny stuff as if the jacket was her...although CK is shaking his head but i caught him laughing..
i mean c'mon who can resist the joke im doing? (; kekeke


am i dying?
>.< i dont know...i somehow feels weaker and weaker each day...
i can feel my immune system getting weak..
I dont know how to say how i feel exactly...all i can say...
i feel my body temperature hot on the inside and cold on the outside.
unstable ==" and is not fever,i know how fever feels like.
*sigh*
what if i check DOC and end up it was nothing?
waste of money XD
i dont know...
but dont let me die now...let me travel to korea 1st!!
you guys must be thinking im crazy huh?
but yeah,if i am really dying...why not enjoy rather than worrying...
I dont like this sick feeling...feel like killing myself,man!

I still can joke and laugh around...that is because im trying to over come the pain...
but i have a feeling,i can faint anytime soon...
this is the same situation i had when i last fainted that cause my heart to stop a few secs..
this is the same feeling...im having now...

:| *sigh*

[7/12/2010] - [3:45pm]
" never knew what i should have leave or keep it until i have lost it..but its the past,you're going to say that right? cant believe i scolded you for over caring me,when just so i realize i need one person to do it like you does..i thought being with a new one,can replace you..but i guess that person cant reach your par...you're different..i dont know..you remember how much you always give it my way and i waws always right..because of this i thought you are the wrong one but until last night,i realize you always act that way pretend i was always right is because you dont want arguement to happen between us.. yea,stupid.thats me now. "

- all the best for you,you will have a better one in the future,trust me,because i knew you will be reading this,so i want you to know that although...i cant change my mind, i really still cares about you,if you need someone to talk to,i'll be there...cheer up,kay? i dont want to see you that way either -

unexpected

if only someone can see my reaction when i receive your text message.
for almost 2 years...no contact..no nothing..you find me at last..
someone have once again broke your heart?
*sigh*
i do not hope that happen though...but life still goes on,isnt it?

[everything is over,how come?why?can we meet now?can we talk? i need someone to hear me out. i need to let those tears out now.will you be there again like it used too? will you be there to calm me again although for what had happened?are you taking care of someone else now?will it be too weird for me to just sms you again..weird la,totally weird]

i read it over and over and over again..but i can never know how to reply you back.

[fine.i understand.let this be my mistake.bye]

i can be there for you,i can still care for you,i can try and put a smile back onto your face...

should i text you back?

Sad.Disappointed.Angry.

Sounds damn EMO isnt it? yeap,damn emo now...
But i think there is no point of me saying it out...AGAIN
Given you chances but you can never change do you?
Sometimes,i rather remain silent,i rather keep quiet not because im scare of you or dont care about it,but is because im sick of it...im sick of letting this type of things get to me...it sucks OK.
IM SICK OF YOU

But like my dad said,you can help people as much as possible,but you dont ever expect that person will treat you the way you treat them.
is true after all...i cant expect in any returns...
but what i hope was for you to appreciate the existence of our friendship..
and the things i have done for you.

tired.tired.tired

I havent been updating my blog for quite some time huh? :)
that's because i dont seem to have the right time to do so.
So,yeap.yesterday is my OFF day...and how did i spend it?
Sleeping until 2pm XD and cleaning up my room...
while cleaning up,i realize i need to re-decorate my room,my collectibles of SNSD
SO I DID
^^ hehehe,my sister was shock as she walk into my room she only manage to say one word
WOW (;
so,we both think is a good idea to make a video out of it and so i did :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYoyBkgngUA
ta-daa <3<3<3
now i love sitting at my desk for hours while writing my story.
Im not obsess but i just so happen to look up to tiffany very very much XD

Went to night market when drizzle about to start...
look for my phone protecting case but failed to do so...they claims it is still not out yet ==" geeeeez.
Pick my mum up and off we go back to home..
while on my way home,as usual,earphones are on..this time sharing one side with my sisters..
we eventually dance to a few songs and my mum asked my dad to see how the both of us is dancing in sync :P
Genie..OH..RDR..GEE and etc etc

what should i do now...im dead bored

[you said to me last night that you love me face to face,but you should know why i no longer answering you back,things change..i change]

zZzZzZ

you guys must be thinking "what's with the Taemin (SHINee) picture" huh?
oh well,that's just my hairstyle now,i decide to get my hair cut and i eventually taken this picture and save it in my camera and show it to the hair saloon.
But i seriously want to get my hair dye soon.. :(
Sis said to me : no more Hoot Hoot HOot...now is Hello Hello...
XD i crack up.

Lately i found myself gets tired very easily..is not that im lazy...
but my body is weaker than i thought nowadays.
I feel pain easily...fall sick easily...
getting old? o.O --> T.T

Told my dad that i might be going to KOrea soon,with my maknae (;
and my dad asked whether is there any guys following,i say NO..and he's like,just you 2 girls...are sure?you're not scare?
:) nope.
papa told me when he was my age he went to Japan..to work some more..
so he says,this time,he shall allow me to stay and work in korea for 3months.
me..alone?
i wonder if its possible...
Independent! i guess i will be alright? then should i have actually go for the trainee in YGE? ==" no no no...3years dont contact anyone...can die.
:P

Some people asked me before,arent you tired and bored with your job?
well,1st sure i will have a lil boredom at times..
But then,im very lucky to have my two close friends to work with me and time flies away. ;) that's the best part.
My boss,she's amazing,unlike any other boss...she's a very nice and caring and loving
but most importantly,she is very understanding. :)
isnt that nice enough...i mean,come on,what do you expect more...and is not easy to find bosses like this.

im lazy now,to continue update it XD

hoot hoot hoot

Yes....is very obvious,that im in love with HOOT the latest songs by SNSD <3
It keeps ringing in my head..the song keep repeating in my mind non stop and i love the dance,but then of course,i've learned it ^^ nyahahahaha..
i didnt learn it on purposely but is because i keep watching their performance non stop.

shall start writing again later..busy busy

MOnday 13th

Outing time...yeah,so went to Gardens at 10am to meet junyi n pass de keys to ck..
brought yoon young along since we r planning to buy a bag for it to b carry around.
Junyi decide we go 1U as i remember thr gt petshop..
so yeah,during the time for us to wait for the KTM its like more than 45 mins..
wait wait wait...wth == it chg de time again,delay,for another 30 mins..
beh tahan,we in de end buy another ticket to go BTS to go leisure mall since gt petshop thr..
Yeap,we did in de end get to buy a bag.after tat went to TS..
wat we do?play pool..(snooker) 1st round,i lost...but 3rd n 4th...hell yeah!! i won baby!!! xD
kekekeke!!lucky i guess...my 1st time nia..
thn went to ts korea shop n bought a snsd poster tat cost rm10..since its so called GOOD QUALITY.

Junyi asked me wana try SNOWFLAKE or nt bo in Pavi...i dun feel lk eating thou..
im broke == but he insist is on him,so yea..
erm...i would say ANNIYO! xD i dun find it anyting special or nice..
din even finish it..junyi help eat de jelly jelly thing.
Went to SAISAKI
eat lor...

OMG! we talk non stop..no no,is start laughing non stop..
like seriously,until stamping ur leg on de floor until ur cheek bones hurts until ur face turn red until u have stomach ache...
especially me n ck == walao...lolx...laugh until reli serious nia.lolx
in de end,ck teman me balik ler ^^
n wat happened in de bus? we talk about it again n again.. xD till nw my stomach still hurts..aish~
(thanks ck,n reli reli sorry)
because he teman me,he almost cnt go home,if reli no way,de oni way was to stay at my
hse...thank god,seriously,thank you Lord...for helping out...
he found a cab in de end..
bottom line,its a fun day today!
althou is a short period one xD!

Pink Pink Pink

Hehehe,see,my new camera..wat color isit??hehehe! P-I-N-K
This camera is actually selling at de price of rm699 itself..with 4GB included.

me 'so,expensive?cnt cheaper ma?'
'cnt~de video is in HD wor'
me 'ic~hmmmm~ok lor..nvm,i jz lk ard ba'
'u lk it?599 thn~'
me 'still,exp ler~nvm lar~hahaaha'
'aiyar..dun sad lar..550,last offer,jz for u'
oO me 'jinja???er,sori sori,i mean,reli??'
'ya..ur price la~'
me 'okok,can..u tink wat color suit me?'

actuali thr have 4colours,black-pink-sweet orange-blue
he says pink!hahaha!
thn i pick pink lor...
me 'oh ya~oni 4gb?8gb...nid to add hw much ah?'
'expensive la..hahahaha'
i sort of~erm~luk abit disappointed n i guess he saw it..
'k la,same price,i gv u 8GB.okay?'
me 'THANKYOU!!!!hehehehe'

thn his colleague lk wana scold him cz de price too cheap jor!
thn i heard him saying is on him.
>.< felt bad nia~
before i leave de shop,i keep saying thx to him ^^
hehehe <3 reli thx alot!

SERIOUSLY NO MOOD YOU KNOW!FROM YTD TILL NOW!

22nd 8 of 2010

Damn it wen i heard de news of tiffany fall on stage once again during de concert.
take care.

GREAT NEWS...hehe,we're gonna get a rabbit!!!teddy bear rabbit!
OMG!!its damn cute n its frm taiwan...means its coming to KL wif airplane..huih
22days..counting down.

~yoon-young~ nice isnt it? a name of yoona n tiffany

So,mummy fetch me from work,while on de way to my uncle hse..
I have to listen to some music,korean song of cz
SNSD..me n my sis start singing thru all de songs..n it was OH!
all of a sudden,my mum sings along,not only de chorus part...
Me n my sis got shock of cz!lk seriously..walao eh~
Actuali im quite happy tat she new de song...even Star Star Star.
lolx,cool....

So,i've watch jessica n krystal tik tok performance,i love de way sica dance.
i was so excited n keep telling my sis w cool she was,since my sis havent watch yet.
thn my mum ask HOW HOW HOW...SHOW LA..
thn realising papa is bathing n so i did.
Mum n sis showing me de cheeky face...whhhhhhatttttttttttttt.
lolx.she even told my dad "eh,come come,c ur daughter dance,sexy sexy weih~"
ish.luckily my papa nt 38 lk my mum..
thn i jz say to my mum, 'byuntaeng!' :P

so,i walk up to my room,kno wat happen...
two bloody lizards by pass me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thn i keep throwing shoes to make de lizard go away..
mum n sis laughin at my reaction,its scary OK!!!!!
errrrrrrrrrrrr!
hate lizard so damn much!
papa help,pick up de lizard n put de lizard away..
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

1st time someone says my smile look lk Victoria frm f(x)
bt,mianhae,i dun tink so...she's so much more better. ^^
kamzahamida thou.
Went to work,my two manager was thr..
The director says "eh...y u so cute ady wan?" (chinese)
manager says "try tie ur hair,so its more tidy"
i say i'll try...
director says "oh!i kno y ady~u cut ur fringe...aiyo,vy cute ady ah"
all i manage to do was,just smile full teeth showing
im stun...director pun mcm ni..lolx..bt,she's my lady boss..lady,so,nvm.
lolx
show blake my lastest pic n he's lk.
"oi!why lk hyunah1..dun la..i tot u lk tiffany"
lolx... hyunah ur head..i duno wat to cut ady nah,honestly..n its too long.
Miss hanging out wif blakey..he's n aust nw.

u take care too alrite..
my sore throat till nw pun belum heal up lagi

DRUNK SUCKS

Yeap,de feelin of drunk is seriously sucky.
See the pic above..hehehe,cute isnt it?
Its SO NYUH and SHI DAE... :P kyupta...tats becuz we cant buy de real rabbit,instead,we have a cute fake penguin..lolx,name comes up pretty easily as we are sones.

So yes,after sending my lil maknae,xuan,home.
we are off for our last outing,The Gardens,ZOUK.
for drinking session.
Its my 1st time,with frenz...
We ordered Absolute Vodka..each person one jug.
De taste ah...jinja sucky..is pretty hard for me to finish it up nia..serious.
So,me,de smart one go n say "ONE FOR THE ROAD" which means,drink de whole full cup non-stop...>.< two cups in a row..walao..
Junyi and Ck go for toilet,while i sit thr alone..thn de waiter walk to me.
"andrea,u drunk ah?" i asked how he kno tat...n yes,wen i ask him that,i cnt even c him,things ard me start spinning ard.
"ur face body all red red"

Wen we stand at de taxi stand,i cnt even stand straight..
Cant even stand in one position.
I told de taxi man,dun drive too fast or i puke in ur car nt my prob.
xD
thn he ah~din listen...turning so wild nia!!
junyi keep asking me,m i alrite or not.
i oni manage to say to him "DONT TALK TO ME NOW" xD!!!
at last,have to stop at rod side...BLUEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!
== damn paiseh nia,junyi watch me vomit...

reach home,i hv to pack de dogs since my sis din pack...
Sit in de garage for lk 30mins+
zhong ji,cant drink jiao dun drink lor...

reli san fu ler...aiyer~

virus came and visit my throat n gave me sore throat

I had sore throat since lk ytd...but it wasnt tat worse until this morning...
>.< aish.
why now..why me..suan la suan la..daddy bought me strepsil..
So,off to work,and im arranging the leaflets..
I xcidentally slice my finger! super deep cut until the table have drops of blood..
:( damn pain especially when i wash it with water.
I slice my my fingers,3 times per day!WTH..

I wana go out ler..i wana go out...i wan go out ah...u here me?? :P
Hahaha,recieve junyi text as he asked me whether wat shift im working this friday.
n i ans him casually "morning,y,wan cari me makan?"
i din kno y until he says "this fri ur bday lar!!"
oO i hav seriously forget..hmmm//ntg to be excited abt nia..
im cravin for cheese cake nw..
maybe gonna hav it this fri wif junyi,hahaha..
but my throat condition~ish ish~

PLEASE LEAVE ME,YOU STUPID VIRUS!!!!!
GO AWAY!!!
errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!
gtg.

[p/s: we r both sick at d same time huh,wat a coincidence!!hahaha,our hearts does connect!!<3 i miss u,u get well soon alrite]

Happy 9th Aug 2010

I was working noon shift today...
One lady walk into de shop wen i was listening to HUH by 4minutes.
seriously,im damn nervous! cz i din kno much abt de products.
bt i still hav to attend to her.
Greet her,she asked alot,and i manage to ans! ^^ so suprisingly..
hahaha,wen she make her payment..
She ask,"how old are u?u look so young but very experience in cust.serv"
awwwwwww.
told her i was 20 n we chatted a lil...
she was praising me,saying how gud i was in talking to a customer..
sure lor,or not she wouldnt have spend rm400+ ^^
i dun reli care abt de commision i will get,but im damn happy wen she praise me.
^^
n she even asked for my name,hehehe. :)
it was very sweet of her..god bless her kind soul..

Aish,de malay gal in my shop..
FCK her,seriously..teach me wrong stuff,thank god im smart enuf to kno she's stupid.
== im not being cruel or mean..
u try work wif her a day,u will feel lk slapping her!
eeeeeeeeeee!
I alwis had in my mind,
I GO THR TO WORK NOT MAKE FRENZ!
:) hahaha...


p/s: i miss snsd.

To the bright mushroom,tiffany

Thats right,her bday just passed (1st Aug)
So wat if i did made this blog late...is de heart it counts most.
:)
Normally,de same..i'll wish u had a blast on ur celebration n reli...have a happy n joyful future ahead..i kno u will.
Lets talk a lil stuff abt her n why..i love her so much tat she was sumone,i reli look up to. ;)

if you're my close fren,u would probably know.
That im crazy for SNSD..im a sone. =) obvious isnt it,jz by looking at my blog.
At first,i choosed yoona,she was reli retty n dorky in a way which she laugh.
i blieve everyone has choose their fav frm each group.
I started searching abt their names..learning abt thm..
U know,juz getting to kno thm better.
I got on to sum page which bash real hard on Tiffany frm snsd..
Im wondering,hw true cn this rumour b..n even if its true..
wat has it got to do wif thm since she din insult any of thm.

I got on to youtube,i thn search for the name of tiffany of snsd.
Immediately,a bunch 0f vids appear..
I click on de most view..
which was all documenting her eye smile.
^^
wen i watched de vids,i was lk OMG...she's cute!!!!<3
is de most amazing eye smile i have ever seen in my life..seriously..
U will smiled automatically wen u see her smiling..
You're heart smiles along wif hers.
And yes,tats how i choosen her,to be someone i love n wants to kno more.
someone i look up to. :)
she's tough frm the outside,bt deep down in her,she's jz weak lk any other girls.
^^ she's sweet,thr's jz too many to say abt her.

I dont get why and how could ppl (antis) hated her for some small reason which some times dont make sense..
Im lucky i wasnt blinded frm those shitty rumors abt her.
Actually,rumors or nt,IDC,bottom line..i'll love her till de end!
Even if one day,de whole world turns their back against her..
I'll be de one facing her till de end..
I'll support her till de end!
^^<3
Theres more that i knows abt her..which each day..i jz end up liking her more! :P

Tiffany Hwang Mi Young..seriously,you're jjang!!!!!!
You are de most amazing among de amazings...<3

Last Day in ZOUK

Yeah,my last day was on Friday,which is de 30th July...(i tink)
I have better offer,a better job (i hope) bt bottom line,my new job which allows me to SIT n nt standing for 8hours.Salary was even better,extra 300 bucks!
^^
So,yeah,told my boss about it..
N he's lk telling me tat each staff will kena pour by juice...milk...water..watever thy cn find to pour.
Ok,seriously,im freaking out,ok...i hv to go my grandma plc after my work..
>.< thy say thy dun care.
I finish work at 7pm..ard 6:50pm.. i say i want to go to the toilet..
I walk slowly..n go frm de back door which leads to de kitchen whr de punch card area is..
Dim Ji wen i walk frm de back,i saw de waiters there..sitting..
I know thy wana make me oso..
wat i do nxt is sumting which i terpaksa do so..
I walk in,pouting my mouth..pretend to act bodoh bodoh.
wen thy saw me..
"andrea...hi...whr u goin..why so cute.."
i jz smile =D thn walk into de kitchen,punch de card n Cabut!
xD!!!!! heh heh heh.
Which is a victory for me man!!!!
woohooo!
(michelle,good luck to u on ur last day)

Tml im goin to start a new job which i cant even sleep nw..mcm mane ni...
Help..
summore gt time to eat a big bowl of cereal n drink a glass of coke..
Papa says im not allowed to drink so much gas drink ady,especially cold ones.
Cz nw my lung n heart hurts quite often..
Bt i still can tahan =S

Faster DL finish de vid lar~

Im tired,pls give me strength to go thru each day.

Im reli goin down,pain till my spine,frm feet till spine.
Tell me,can it get any worst?? :(
sometimes,i tink after hvg this job,makes it quite hard fr me to hv some time of my own or time to hang out wif my frenz.
This seriously sucks! >.<
I saw alot of cuteeeee babies today ^^ <3
haiz,i dun reli kno if i can go on lk this ler....
I nid more time of my own,i dun stay young forever neh D;

Everyday smile! reli 38 de lar,no customer oso wan me to smile.
smile to de wall or air ah.dai lou??
==
U wan attract customer into ur cafe wif smile.
go find someone lk tiffany hwang ba :P
One smile,everyone rush into Zouk.lolx.

Im starting to tell myself,during working hours.
"andrea!you can do it! few more hours!c'mon!u can de!hwaiting!hwaiting!"
== time pass soooooooooooooooooooooo slow ler.

GOD HELP ME,pls...<3

Days in ZOUK

Yeap,tats rite,i've been working in Zouk,The Gardens.
Its my 3rd day ady..
DAMN TIRING/DEAD/FREAKING EXHAUSTED
this 3 are de rite words to express my situation nw.
im working frm 4pm to 1am OK! == suan la suan la.
Work thr was OK thou,hoping thr's more customer.
so time could pass faster. ^^
The workers thr r all OK or OVER FRENLY.
Me n de other hostess r d oni chinese,others r frm Manilla or Phillipines.
they talk to me alot.keep asking me how old i m.
told thm 20 thy dun blieve..say im 15 oni ==
Keep ask me gt bf anot,but biasa la,guys lk thm r like this.
alwis flirt here n thr.

some customers r not bad thou..while some r jz lk any typical LAN C rich ppl wannabes.
:P
Uncles alwis kacau me,ask me this n tat.
Y no free thing if thy spend so much.
One gang of uncle spend ard rm200+ nia,thn he ask me,wat does he get.
Thn i ma say Reciept. xD
His frenz all laugh at him n say i gav de GOOD ANS :P

I felt guilty nia,as frm my 1st day of job.
de india kitchen helper,alwis wana talk to me
Even wen i go drink water.
"y u so cute ah?"
== (fck it) im not cute n how in de world do i ans those type of Q??
It dont make sense,ask God lor..ish.
He alwis ask for number,every 10min.sure ask.
I say NO NO NO NO NO NO NO.still ask.
thn he keep writing me his number. =~=
thn i ma jz lt boss know tat i felt annoyed,bt boss jz say do my things.
after tat i busy serve customer ma,walk here n thr.
i din kno tat indian fella staring at me..until my boss realise.
Boss scolded him damn loud nia,until customer pun quiet.
"STOP LOOKING AT ANDREA!DONT U DARE SCARE HER AWAY!ONE MORE TIME CAUGHT U DOIN TAT OR TALK TO HER,GET OUT OF MY KITCHEN"

>.< damn..i felt guilty nia...
hiaz,bt he reli annoying.hmmm.
oh ya,he even bought me a perfume weih.
wth...sorry.
is nt my fault u kena scold,i kno is nt wrong to lk someone.
bt is wrong wen u disturb sumone non-stop.
aish..

im pretty tired nia.gotta stop nw.
;) annyeong.
oh ya,gt three super LAN-C korean ladies.
talk talk talk,damn noisy weih :P

INTERVIEW DAY aka damn tired day nia ==

Gem ngam my papa rub his eyes... :P

Yeap,tats how i wear to go for my interview.
Let me start out 1st.
i've been woken up at 9am..decide to sleep one more hour.
n woke up at 10am lor.papa ask me to bath 3dogs neh..
3!!!!!!!!!!!all by myself,but thy're mine so its my responsibility.
yeah,wen drying thm.Kingston,his mum n granny came to my place..
Lolx.granny invite us to her plc for dinner ltr,papa say OK.
So yeah,after bathing,i grab my jeans.n look around.
N spot my fany SPAO baby tee,de pink one.so i decide to wear it.
I show mum,making sure it was alrite to wear it,mum ask
"wen did u buy this?"
OOOPPPPPssss xD i jz tell her in TS tat time.

Im going to wear my sneakers,so i use my tiffany socks.
N my mum was looking at it thn i show my mum
ta-daa!nice?? ^^ love it!
thn mummy oso said it was nice,saying its vy cute!
heh heh,of cz.. :P

So yeah,im late for my interview bt thn de chinese girl who ask me to come,wasnt thr.
N erm,thy suddenly chg to part time,say no nid full timer.
how much per hour? rm4.50 per hour.seriously.likdat i work back in seed better!
== geeeez.

Wen i go down to meet my parents in de restaurant.
i pass by ZOUK..
a cafebar..super nice nia..
so,i went in n thy made me fill up an application form.
de asst. manager was thr,i din kno.
he interview me on d spot.
^^ n said i can work on nxt monday ^^
but working hours,i nid to talk abt it wif my parents..its BAR ppl >.<
I actually wanted this job due to their super nice uniform!
damn yeng ok!!!!
thn he look at me n say "u so small size,i duno got ur size anot"
small size?jinja? == mane ade weih.

My eyes n nose r hurting like hell.
having flu.
a lil headache n super stomach pain!
@@ jz kill me..

15th July 2010 looking for job in MV

Tats rite,im going to look for a FULL TIME job soon :)
Mummy wan me to work in office,oni 5days work tat type,but hey,in office,damn sien weih...i know,becuz i've been in one before.
I decide to work in places i like,example,MPH bookstore..petstore...
but i kno places like this Gaji sure rendah lor.
Nevermind.
I went n fill up forms in MPH thy say will call me.
thn we saw vacancy for Hush Puppies oh in de gardens.
So,once again,i fill up some info's form.
When de girl see my working experience,she straight say wan me to meet her again for 2nd interview.^^
Junyi text me n ask me wan him to pui me in mv anot,but i sudah mao balik liao :P
nxt time ^^

reach home,nid to cook for dogs..
while waiting for the rice to be done.
i recieve called frm junyi.
he says he's in de ts korea shop ask me wan anyting anot.
^^ hehehe.
He say alot of new stuff T_T damn it,tat time i gt $$$ but thr ntg new.
Now i dun hv $$$ oni got new stuff.grrrrrrrrrrr!
nvm lor,at last,junyi help me buy SNSD latest wristband,glow in de dark geh ^^
nice...rm23 o.o nvm nvm,its PINK...xD
He buy liao he oni say scare wen wear ppl say he gay.
== ish,wun de lar..we wear 2gather,who say u're gay,we beng him 99.
xD! araseo?

10th July 2010 Saturday,what a day :)

So,yeah..slept at around 1am last nite n woke up at 8am..
Im lk wth! Why in de world did i woke up so early??too excited? :P
Change my clothes,went to de garage n just realise that my CROCS r dirty =~=
My high tops yao nt ngam hw i wore..
so ya,grab my heels.
Reach JJ maluri at around 12++ meet CK.
Thn...YAY!!! Junyi,hehehehe,we kno each other for mths,bt nw oni meet ^^
Going for lunch in PGRM,cafe77..
i say sit cab go thr lar (thou is near)
CK says im crazy..rite. TRY WALK IN HEELS n u wont say so :P
When reach PGRM,we got lost,i told him to walk straight,tak mau dengar.
say im wrong.
FINE,we walk ONE BIG ROUND n back at d same plc xD!!!!
n i was rite,told ya ;)

PGRM-
Met my lil maknae,xuanbaby..she ah...ish..sudah thin giler bt dun wan eat.huih.
(speechless!)
Is for a short time of period thou cz her class starting soon.
:) nvm,thr's alwis nxt time...
n she kept calling me UNNIE YAHHHHHHH in public xD!!! i dun even dare call her maknae...xD!!!!!!!!!!!!

Play wif junyi itouch n no doubt his itouch pics all...YOONA..
n mine,TIFFANY...
wat a SONE :P
i thn decide to chg to my tiffany jacket..is nt tat hot at 1st..
until i walk to d bus stop opposite da road thr n waiting fr the bus.
i can seriously feel tat im melting. >.<
For tiffany! xD!!!!!

Despicable Me-
Ok,my feet was almost lk gonna bleed..so i have to get a pair of sneakers.
Bought it,purple. :) de pink nt nice.
CK que up for...Despicable Me 3D..
cz i keep saying i wana watch 3D version,at 1st he dun wan..
thn i keep askin n askin n askin..in d end,i won :P
SHOW WAS AWESOMELY funny ^^ i love it.
Wen i saw d youngest girl,de one d hair tying up wif bangs,it straight away reminds me of Yoona frm Run Devil Run.
Thn i fast fast tell junyi,he agree...she's cute ler...
Wen de show ends,im da one who start clapping my hands,thn gt ppl start to follow xD
hehehe,fun.

Super Bowl-
Everything was fine until we decide to play d 2nd round n we chg to lane 35.
Me,andrea yong go n set up rules.
n says whoever hit less thn 5pins must dance twice of snsd dance.
Fck it,i lost..ya..eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!
CURSE YOU LANE 35 #@$E%%T^R&

Ok,frm here,i duno hw to blog on..cz,im blurr at whr we went...
I only kno my feet are begging me to rest.
:P
went to pavillion for our dinner in Ichiban Sushi..
I tink so lar..forget Ichiban wat..
thn after tat yao walk bak to TS thr.
seriously,after all d walkin,i cnt feel my feet any longer.
thy hv gone *dead* :'(

Junyi teman me balik :)
reach my aunty hse.
4kids in d room dancing,my sis teach thm rdr.
thn my cuzin andrew says "eh,u dance lar,pls..wana c lar"
xD
IM DEAD TIRED.thn my sis ask me to use my hp to on d song.
n so i did,wat happen?
i cnt take it,i dance along.
n wen i stand up,thy all lk -whoa~yay!shi fu shi fu!-
reli lt thm gik sei lor.
lolx.
reach home 1sumting..
bath asap.
K.O on my bed..

Nw my eyes oso abit blur blur.
sumting wrong wif blog,cnt upload d pics..
i'll upload in fb.
annyeong.

My day cant pass without SNSD music.

^^ Thats pretty true...lk rite now,im blogging,im currently listening to etude.
Dont blame me,cz their songs are addictive..
seems lk everyday,without fail,i'll listen to their songs..
this isnt a serious case of some addictive ppl isnt it o.O
Of cz i listen to other korea songs too..snsd is a for sure.
kekeke.

sometimes,wen i have a watch bak on their gee mv..
seeing hw thy frm thr n bcoming d sexy ones in run devil run.
I was amaze by it..
Their mv was nice..they chg alot.n NOT THEIR LOOKS i meant their version.
so i wonder,no more cutie? only HOT HOT HOT? SEXY SEXY SEXY?

hmmmmm.
no matter how much thy may chg in my hearts.
They are alwis my idol i look vy high to..

P/S: tiffany's eyes smile still manage to melts me.

What a week.

There,my official very own Pink Devil. ^^
And whats de 1st ting i hav in my pink devil?
SNSD SONGS!!!!!!!!!!! xD it wont b vy sone if i dun dl snsd things 1st ting 1st in my itouch isnt it... :P
I was looking fr d cover,at 1st...d 1st shop i went oni have red n white.
my very 1st question was "DO U HAVE IT IN PINK?"
whoa~spot de curse word,PINK!!!!!!!! xD
So,i bought d red cover,walk walk walk,saw a pink one frm another shop >.<
its a lil waste bt yeah,is a GOTTA HAVE on my list.

Im not obsessed wif pink,araseo?
Is just true enuf lk wat my dad said b4..
wen u hv someone u look up to,u tends to follow a lil of wat thy lk..
Tats weird,i still dun lk taecyeon.. xD
(i still love blue/black more)

I reli hv no idea wat more to post abt.

Week

Hehehe...wen i woke in d morning n saw this mms,i laugh non stop...
Look at d brand,its tiffany ^^ n junyi say i must lk this brand vy much..
bt i nvr c b4 neh.
^^ bt i kno near my plc gt a malay restaurant call GG
hahaha.my sis n me LOL non stop wen we pass by.
Imagining de whole shop decorate wif snsd stuffs. ^^ nice weih.

This week probably wasnt a gud week fr me.
Hmmmm.
Im kind of sad to see tiffany not feeling well..
I hope she'll get well soon.

Lazy to blog..annyeong.

Get better Tiffany Hwang Mi Young xD

12-6-2010 (sat)

Mummy din work today,so we decided to go out n eat..
Mamak it is ^^
Wen i was eating,a man..i tink,in his 30's is sitting 2 tables away frm me.
At 1st i did realise,wen i stop eating n look ard,he will luk bak at me.
I thought it was ntg.
Thn he start holding up his phone.
N my mum start gvg me a signal saying he might b taking my pics.
I turn ard to stare at him.
Thn he quickly lower down his phone.
I never thought some ppl wud use this tactic anymore.
Pfffft >.<
n wats next?he's taking pics of my leg =~=||aish..jinja!

Tonite might b going nite market?

11/6/2010

Woke up at 8 this morning by a random phone number.

xxx: hello,is this andrea yong?
me : huh?ya..who's this?

Please take note,i was sleeping k..=~= i slept at 2am ytd.
so,de caller was frm the audition.
He told me tat they no longer nid to test my dancing skills.
But,i must sing a few songs for thm to c whether hw long my trainin gonna take.
They claims that my voice sound like fany and by that,means they scare my voice will crack easily on some notes..
>.<
true,this,i will admit..on some certain notes,is hard for me to reach..
SOMETIME,tune will go wrong..
so,they will train me in tat.
He even told me he dont want me to sing snsd songs tat much during de next audition.
>.<
felt weird neh,if i sound lk fany isnt its best i sing snsd songs?
blake told me is cz they want me to test other song.
last time did it b4..i sang nobody n wat thy told me?
"just lk tiffany singing nobody,nxt time she sick,u b her backup voice"
n all de judges laugh out.
=~=
so,de main point was,no matter wat i sing..i stil sound lk her..
I guess,thy jz wana test me on other songs to see i will get out of tune easily on which part..

But the most important part was...
audition will no longer b held here jor..
de guy jz say,air ticket will b provided..means..i hv to leave KL?
Im travelling in groups..
Blake will travel wif me,if im going,he says its too dangerous to go alone.
Hmm.

[sang run devil run karoke alone myself,n my sis says "hahahaha!!!!fany singing alone!!" shit u lar.]

i sometimes wonder..do i reli sound lk her?
I kno some ppl tot,i might say this to myself becuz i adore her.
bt hw in de world cn i fake my voice...if u still tinks tat way,means YG is ear gt prob?cz he HIMSELF says so too.
So,yeah..YOU..why dont u jz shuddup wen u din even hear my voice yet.
jz becuz u were OUT early stage becuz ur dancing skills n voice isnt near mine..
tats a reason for u to hate me?
wat is wrong with u! =~=

:)

I know its a long time i din update my blog..
Lazy pull me away from doing so.

22-5-2010

Nothing much happen as i was busy and tired this week ^^
Talk about goin into one of the haunted hse..
i have experience sumting which made me till today din dare to go in...

Back wen i was form5..i went out wif a bunch of frenz to the fair..
We saw a haunted mansion..whr u hv to walk in maze n gt scare by one those fake ghost.
so,we decide to go in.
We hold hands together to get in..to b honest,im nt scare at de moment,is jz dark.
Wen we was walking,rite infront of us...we saw a white dress jz float frm one wall n into another *as we r surrounded by wall side by side*
me n my fren tink it was pretty cool for this kind of price we pay,we get this kind of wonderful effect frm this kind of fun fair *if u kno wat i mean*

Wen we went out,we waited for our other frenz to come out..
n wen thy did,we talk abt hw cool de white dress girl thingy.
thy jz look at me n fren as if we're making stories
I told thm we are not,n to proof it,i went n talk to de security of the haunted hse..
:X he says thr's no such ting =~=

meaning,yeah..we saw a real one..
this is y i dun lk gooin into haunted mansion or hse..
i kno sum ppl will say is fake ghost.
y scare.
bt u'll nvr kno wen n whr is de real one...
i rather play safe.

15-5-2010 (sat)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,dearest Sunny...stay cute! ^^

hmmm,woke up every hour last nite..
Sit up at de bed all of a sudden..thn lie down back..
I knew it was every hour cz i wil look at my hp n c wat time it was..
Wonder wats wrong..
Thn reli woke up by my aunt's phone call..
She ask wana go eat yong tau foo anot...
Bt abit lazy neh xD kekeke..so in de end din..
mum went out at 330pm wif my aunt..
I was downloading snsd hello baby..while waiting..
I lie down on my bed..jz roll here n thr xD
*fall asleep*
wen i wake up..is 6pm =~= n i sweat until lk..ish...jz taken a bath..
hair wet summore...

After eat,went over to my cuzin hse..
Char ask me wana go nite market bo...
ok lor...wana drink bubble milk tea ler ^^
went thr n we saw fake croc shoe for sale...anyway,fake or nt..one of de shoe is reli nice ^^ in de end,she bought black n i bought white..lolx..

thn this kid,who was Char's cuzin...
=~= reli feel lk slapping her i tell u..
Char's dog,Brownie was stading ner tat kid..
All of a sudden,de kid jz step on de dog's body n tail so hard tat de dog straight away lie down on de floor..IM SHOCK.
So i ask her y did tat..
she ignore me.
F### i hate ppl who is so rude wen thy r in de wrong,especially kids!
"GOD GAVE YOU VOICE SO ANSWER ME!"
she did ans,bt omg....her reaction was lk shit!
"LOOK AT ME WHEN IM TALKING!!!!!"
all shock nia..she too..i tink she din expect i was tat fierce?
cz usually i cn go along wif kids vy well...
I c her going to cry i sin ignore her...
told her she shud nvr do such tings to dog especially wen it wasnt her dog..
=~=
reli idiot!!!
aish!!!!
dun wan blog ady lar....

ish!

14-5-2010 (fri)

Text my dad to buy me nail polish removal wen he was on his way back..
told him if dun hv nvm...
Anyway,i was packing de grocery tat my dad bought on de table..
In the Gurdians plastic bag :)
NAIL POLISH REMOVAL!
i grab de bottle n say "appa!" my dad din look at me as he was concerntrate on badminton...
"appa!!!" thn papa look at me... "appa!Kamzahamida!!!"
papa roll his eyes...
after de battle of lee chong wei n lin dan..
I wonder y thy wana show off since thy r both chinese.. :S
"thank god im not chinese,im a korean"
my mum dad n sis look at me wif de swt face xD

Err,i wonder wat happen to my body lately..
Sumtimes reli hungry lk hell..
But sumtimes full lk hell =~= aish!

Papa bought pizza but i oni manage to eat 3slices and a drumstick...
i was suppose to eat 4...
:S

A Dream That I would Never Want To Wake Up From

well,yes..in this dream..i really wish it last longer...
What's my dream about? Here it goes :)

Starting in the dream.
I was somehow in the cafe with a friend,my sis n mum.
We are sitted at one table.
This cafe seems nice,pack with people,thr's even dance floor. :S lolx.
We chat a lil *i 4get wat our conversation were*
Thn,thr's a man walk to us..a man which i do not recognise at all..
He only say "they will stay with you for a week"
I wanted to ask,who is the 'they' he is talking about.
But i din hav to..soon,two girls walk towards us..
Yoona n Tiffany!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~
(dun laugh,i've said it..it was a DREAM..so dun tink this is stupid.)

Me n my fren was speechless,we keep looking at each other..
Soon,yoona n fany intro thmself...
fany ask "wat do u want to do?" n she smile...
^^ i could jz die...lolx..thn my fren came up wif this idea.
Of dancing at te stage floor..
He pair up wif yoona n me,of cz,tiffany <3

This dream didnt feel lk a dream to me..
it felt real..
i was looking into tifany face n smile wif her..
i even manage to speak to her a lil...
^^

all of a sudden,i was brought back to reality..
waken up by my dad's call...some more run devil run song...
went to the kitchen n made mushroom soup for my sis...
n i sit in de living room.
Thinking back wat i've dream..
:)
I smile automatically...
But my heart start to pound fast n slow at de same time...
is tat de feeling i'll get wen i reli see thm?
^^
i reli hope to see thm soon...

Thank you,god..for giving me this dream.

Guess is true wen ppl say..
if u go to bed with ur mind tinking of tat person...
U have big chances to dream abt thm.
I tink it happen becuz i jz finish watching snsd vids n went to bed...
Oh!i even dance before i sleep...lolx..

<3

13-5-2010 (thurs)

Woke up this morning,felt a lil dizzy..
everyting in my room jz keep spinning @@
WHY?
I just realise i slept de wrong pillow =/
Aish!
Bath 3 of my dogs today...
I dry Fluffy 1st as usual,n she was complaining wen im drying Baby..
Becuz she wants to get out frm de cage.
She start making noise n jump around in de cage.
I look at her n say "STOP NOW! Lie down!"
She immediately lie down but she start barking.
"N SHUT DUP!DUN MAKE ME GO THR"
she reli shut up..xD nvr ever says dog dun un human language..
I dun lk ppl gvg excuse wen their dog dun bhave..thy alwis quote,their dog is stupid.
Hello,is de way u teach thm,stupid..dun blame on ur dog.

It start to rain a lil as i was abt to done wif the 3 of thm...
Suddenly.BOOM.ta daa~ it rain lk cats n dogs =~=
Aish!
I thn realise i left so many tings at the garage,which i quickly ran out n pack it..
I do it as fast as possible..
But thn...=~= i still end up all wet.
not jz wet SOAKING WET...
*pls dun lt me fall sick*

After shower,went to my dresser n realise,non of my rings were on de wax hand...
@@
OH NO!!!!!!!
This is de prob! i alwis wear de ring,took it out.put it sum whr.n 4gets whr i left it...i know..i deserve it...
T_T
Nid to find it back...i dun wan to lose any of de rings..
each ring has a meaning to me..

(miss you---almost say miss ya instead,bt u say YA is rude in korean..xD)

You're better than Pink!

I love you just the way you love pink ^^
Will always supports you forever..
No matter what it takes,or what happen in the future..

12-5-2010 (wed)

If u guys realise,i have jz remove my cbox...
due to some prob..someone is having xD

anyway,papa din go work today..
he's nt feeling well.
hope he'll recover soon..
I wonder why,but me n my sis always has some reli funny moments.
de way we react wen we talk...
We jz keep laughing at small things even wen we repeat it. xD

I was washing my dishes jz nw..
N we're talking abt snsd *as usual* ok ok,is more lk me...
I start up de topic 1st.
One part in oh! sang by sooyoung "dongsaeng"
Bt sooyoung went n sang it as "tongteng" xD!!!
So,we laugh abt it n i said.. "omg!i loveeeee Sooyoung so much!"
My sis goes "HUH!!!!wat abt tiffany!?"
xD
omg,i saw de look on her face n i laugh all de way til i finish washing de dishes..
its so damn funny!!!!
cant take it..kekeke..she was so serious abt it..hahaha..
i love all snsd members~jz unequally xD im jz being honest..hehehe.

Meet ken near my house area today.
Talk a lil..thn he left.
^^
its been quite some time v din meet..
Ken is going back n forth frm KL to Korea..since he's a korean...
n his mum wants to see him more often now..
This brings back de memory wen i 1st met ken..he was all english speaking fella.
he ask me to teach him,cantonese..which wen he start to learn,is awfully adorable ^^
Nw,he knows how to speak cantonese ^^" he even cuss in cantonese..
Hit him nia,wen he cuss =~=
lolx...miss ya alot,ken ^^ <3

[eventhough i said i din wan to meet u anymore,bt i have too since i have to pass de stuffs back to u..lolx...if oni u behave urself,we might still end up as frenz =/ ]

get a life you freaking bitch =)

Dont think wat u're doin nw no one knows..
especially wif me around..
trust me,u wont get away wif it jz likdat..
IS just a matter of time..to get wat u deserve,bitch ^^
Oh~i cnt wait for it...^^ hehehe..

Wen u lies on someting b one reli smart ass..
U're so dumb tat nw everyone soon realise wat's happening..u ding dong.
wen u start playing a *game* b sure who is ard to play wif u...

>_^ I'll see how long u can last...

ENOUGH,dont too over xD quote,alanis..

Its really funny wen i tink back wat my sis say..
xD
Wen i dance,she'll watch..
So,i dance Tell Me Your Wish by SNSD..<3
After finishing the 1st part of de chorus..
She suddenly say " ENUF!!!!too much!"
thn im lk HUH???
she say i shake too much..too sexy..n snsd wasnt over sexy wen thy do tat..
xD!!!!makes me laugh non stop...
She ask me to go support T-ara instead =~=
SNSD oso gt sexy version wat...aish...
Wenever im about to do de chorus part,she'll STARE..make sure i din over sexy wor.
hahaha...
n i alwis ans..I like la...i wan to dance how i wan..must 100% follow snsd de meh!
xD kekeke

I can seriously dance for quite some hours..
songs after songs.
din even mind if it was a repeat..

And becuz of this,Blake ask me to tink properly abt YGE audition..
thy told me it'll b postpone till nxt mth.
saying de important judge cnt attend this mth audition.
I really duno wat to tink now.
dancing is my passion.
doesnt means becuz it was n i wana be super famous..
i kno de consiquences of being a star.
sum ppl love u,sum hate u.
n life being a star is like living under a microscope..
ppl look at u as if u r one special creature..=~=

No matter wat my decision is..blake stil supports me..
bt i kno he dun want me to go..xD
hahaha..
still hv lots of time ^^

<3

I have my own choice.

My friends always says im choosey..do i?
In what terms?
Food.
Drinks.
Boys (especially)
ETC.
oO"
do i?i dont know..all i kno is tat i choose wat i want..wat i reli wan in my heart ^^
So,dont call me a choosey,everyone has their own rite to choose..
on wat thy wan..
A few times wen i rejected guys..
i DO have reasons why...so pls dun say im choosey OK..
tat fella jz isnt my cup of tea ;)

i duno wat to blog ler~

9-5-2010 (sunday) Happy Mother's Day

Yes,Happy Mother's Day to all mummmy out there..
:)

Yesterday follow papa go fetch mummy.
And i did sumting amazing!
I din listen to my MP3 n listen to english songs! GOSH xD
kekeke,its been quite some time,n im serious.
Ever since 2010 jan till yesterday,i din reli listen to english songs..
Thank GOD i still remember de lyrics to de songs xD

So tired..pretty sleepy..its been months tat i didnt hv proper sleep.
Bt is worth it cz im happy..
but frm now onwards,i'll try to sleep early ler..
=)

later going for steamboat bbq neh ^^

ANGRY =(

Yeap,im pretty angry now =( sucks!grrrrrrr.
Blake came to my house in de morning ard 10am.
He bought two pack of hair dye.
He wants me to help him dye his hair nia~
But wen i pour our te hair ingredients..
The colour mix was BROWN oO" it was suspose to b purple!!!!
So,we two went to the shop thr n ask for tat person to chg...
n wat de indian man say?
"Ini,bukan masalah saye,bukan saye punye salah"
wen he say those words,i jz felt lk i've been punch in de face!
wat is this!?
THIS IS HOW U DO A BUSINESS?!
So,i calm down n ask him,cn he jz chg.
he say NO..stil saying it wasnt his fault.

Indian man : tak boleh la,u cuba try dulu..mungkin colour dier keluar purple.

IS BROWN U SILLY!

"try???kalau bukan purple macam mane?"
Indian Man : Itu saye tak tau..
"dont try to b funi here,ini Brown mcm mane nk jadi purple!"

thn he jz get into silence mode as my voice grew louder =~=

"i dye my hair more thn u've dye urs ok! i kno wat colour is suspose to b produce n tis isnt de colour i want!"
Indian man : Bukan salah saye ma..
"i dont care.give me de company number thn!"
Indian Man : saye tak ade lar numbor dier lar..
"wen te dealer come again??i'll talk to thm."

he say next monday.
fine.
u as a shop owner u shud hv a way to handle a customer.
never ever ask de customer to talk to de dealer!
IS THIS THE WAY OF DOING BUSINESS??
yeah,oni wen u want to lose ur customer!

went into the car,blake look at me..told him everyting wen we reach home.
i kno if i told him on de spot,he wil go down n scold tat guy..
i dun wana create big prob.
Blake ask me still wana dye anot ler..
Sorry..
in de end,din dye hair ler..
emo-ing..how to dye lar..no mood nia..

Suan ler ba,anyway,i cant make a decision to dye wat colour.
My red now has starting to turn a lil lighter bt is a vy nice colour...
Even my sis says so,she ask me not to dye,blake says so too..
So mayb nxt time..
Tink back on how angry i was to te indian man..
i wonder...if i was too fierce..haiz.

P/S: Sorry blake..

Decisions =?

Hmmm~im really having a hard time now.
Told blake n a few of my frenz tat i want to dye my hair..
Bt nt sure of wat colour i shud go for..
I like brown but thn,tats very common..
So,i thought of goin for purple..
Let me get it straight,is those dark type of purple...not those light ones.
And..
I dont know,brown or purple?? :( Help!
Blake came to my hse today,he pass me a box of hair dye in purple..
He ask me to go for this purple..
And wen i dye my hair,he'll dye de same colour..
xD busy body!
Im still not sure though..

Done with my house chores already..
And its not even 4pm yet.
Music Banks today,i dont even kno if i wana watch it =/
1stly,no snsd..
2ndly,no t-ara..
3rd,no kara..
Lolx!But got Rain..hip song?xD ahhhh!

I watch a vid ytd about tiffany hwang n taecyeon..
Errr,seems lk thr's some chemistry goin on..bt taecyeon seems to b interested in Yoona instead..
You know what?
I dont know why in the world i got jealous! =~= aish.
I text Blake,he call me rite away..
He tot i was joking wen i say i was jealous...
But wen he talk to me thru de conversation,he can hear tat i tengah emo-ing =~=
"You ah!Serious??If other ppl c u like this,thy tot u lesbo"
=~= wth..i tengah emo summore dare to say this.
"easy lar,juz love me.."
=~=!!!!!!
"okok.chg lar,take jiyeon frm t-ara..she oso cute wat..better,nt tat famous lk fany"

xD! this cracks me up!!!
The way he say was until like i was choosing a GIRLFRIEND...haha
He always say he wonders y i wil lk tiffany.
N i'll alwis ans him,wats not to like??xD
Thn once he even ask me y din i love him like i love fany..
n all i say was YOU? what's to be love???
xD!!!!!!

Im just joking of course..sarangeheyo,Blake oppa!<3 ;)
Dont get angry alrite,keke..
I love you too bt nt as deep as fany's.hahahaha...

Errr~still having a hard time to choose de colour for my hair...
=/

The Things You Realise :)

I was suprised by de msg frm Blake...

~wenever u sneeze,u'll pout ur mouth a lil at d end~
~wenever u yawn,one of ur eye will close~
~wenever u're sitting quietly in de car,u wil crack ur knuckles~
~wenever u're bored,u'll blow bubble in ur cheeks~
~wenever u're not reli paying attention to one person talking,u keep nodding ur head bt yet u stare at another plc~
~wenever u c ppl cry,ur eyes start to hv tears n get red~
~wenever u turn ard to luk at one person,one of ur eyebrown goes up a lil~
~wenever u dont get te tings u want,u'll frown a lil~
~wenever i talk to u,yes or no,u'll ans in korean,which i love most wif de luks of ur face~
~wenever u r happy n excited abt sumting,ur left eye winks a lil~

Lolx,thanks for being so...stalker?
xD hahaha...i din realise this were my habits..
Until u told me n i yawn in de car jz nw~
xD...
is still a gud habit rite?